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Jane knew she probably shouldn't have left Maura like that but she had to talk to Casey. She got to her apartment and the first thing she did was turn on her computer. She opened Skype and sent out the call. She waited till Casey's tired unshaven face popped up on the screen.
"Jane, is everything okay?" He asked as he sat too close to the screen.
"Do you love me Casey?" She asked him.
"You called me at 5am in a war zone to ask me if I love you?" Casey asked her.
"Do you?" Jane asked him.
"I wouldn't have asked you to marry me if I didn't." Casey told her.
"If you love me Casey, shouldn't you have asked me what I wanted?" Jane asked him.
"Jane what are you talking about?" He asked, "What's going on?"
"Shouldn't you have asked if I wanted to give up my job? If I wanted to leave Boston and my family to be a wife to you? Shouldn't we have talked about your promotion before you just took it?" Jane asked him.
"Look I understand you're upset." He said to her, "I know I should have talked to you about the promotion but they offered it to me then I had mission briefings. There wasn't a good time to talk to you about it."
"That's the problem Casey." Jane sighed, "There never seems to be a good time for you to tell me you're making a major career decision that would affect me as well. It's never a good time to tell someone that marrying them would uproot them from everything they love, their family their job, their city."
"It's more than just the promotion Casey." Jane said to him with a sigh. "I don't want to be someone who just stands in the background while you have the career and life you want."
"Jane that's not fair." He said to her, "Whatever doubts you're having we can talk about, we can work through it."
"Oh you mean over the phone or Skype whenever you have a free moment?" Jane asked him.
"I can't help that I'm in Afghanistan and you're in Boston." He said to her.
"And I can't help that I want to stay in Boston." Jane told him.
"Jane, where is all this coming from?" He asked her.
"It's been something I've been feeling for a while." Jane told him, "I just didn't want to admit it to myself. I didn't want to disappoint you."
Casey got quiet; he looked at her as if trying to read her mind. He didn't want to ask the question but he knew it was only fair, "You don't want to marry me, do you?"
"I'm sorry Casey. I never should have said yes in the first place. That wasn't fair to you." Jane told him. "But I deserve someone who loves and supports me and makes me feel like I'm actually part of the relationship."
She looked at him, "And you deserve that too."
Casey wasn't really surprised at what she was saying. Even when he was in Boston he wasn't totally there and his career would always come first. Jane was right she did deserve more and he knew now that he couldn't be what she needed him to be.
"I do love you Jane." He said to her.
"I know and a part of me loves you too but it just isn't enough." Jane told him.
He stared at her for a minute, "I hope you find someone who'll love you the way you deserve."
He gave her a small smile, "And I hope that person knows just how lucky they are."
Jane smiled at him sadly. "Thanks Casey." She whispered.
"Goodbye Jane."
"Goodbye Casey." Jane said to him and the screen went black.
Jane wasn't even surprised that he didn't fight for her. Maybe a part of him knew that marrying Jane and tying his life to her wasn't right either.
Jane knew she should be sad, that this should be breaking her heart but all she felt was relieved. A part of her did love Casey but she was tired of pretending, tired of going through the motion of being with him. She was now free to be with someone else, to be with who she wanted to be with all along.
Jane fought the urge to rush back over to Maura's house. She knew Maura was confused but so was Jane and she needed a little time to think and sort a few things out. She sat back in her chair for a minute then pulled out her cellphone and called Maura.
Maura didn't pick up so she left a message. "Maura, I'm sorry for the way I left but I had to go. I promise you it was for a good reason. I'll explain everything when I see you tomorrow."
Jane didn't sleep much that night. She kept thinking about how everything in her life had changed in such a short period of time. She wondered if the people in her life, her friends and family would accept the changes with her or if they would question her. She worried how her mother would take the news about her breaking her engagement to Casey so she could finally be with Maura. A panic rose in her as she wondered if after everything Jane had put Maura through if Maura would even want to be with her.
'Why the hell didn't I just go back over there?' She wondered to herself.
In the morning Jane rushed to get ready then went to the department even though she wasn't on duty.
She headed straight for the morgue dodging Korsak, Frankie and her mother. She didn't need any distractions or anyone else getting in her way.
She went into the morgue smiling but the smile soon vanished when she saw Dr. Zimm instead of Maura doing an autopsy.
"Where's Maura?" Jane asked Dr. Zimm.
"Dr. Isles called in sick. I believe she is at home resting." Dr. Zimm told her.
Jane turned around and left without another word.
She drove to Maura's house then knocked loudly on her door.
"Open up Maura, I know you're not sick!" She yelled through the door.
Jane pounded on the door until finally Maura swung the door open, "What are you doing here?"
"I told you I wanted to talk to you." Jane said to her.
"Oh you want to talk?" Maura asked her, "So It's convenient for you now?"
"What are you getting mad at me for?" Jane asked her then went inside not waiting for Maura to invite her in.
Maura shut the door and followed her into the living room. "I finally tell you I'm in love with you, you kiss me and then you take off without another word?" Maura asked her, "Do you know how confusing that was?"
She looked at Jane, "Do you know how much that hurt me?"
"I'm sorry for the way I treated you, for the way I acted. Not just last night but for the whole time I was with Casey." Jane told her, "I never wanted to hurt you, Maura."
"So why did you leave then?" Maura asked.
"I had to talk to Casey." Jane said to her.
"Well of course you did." Maura said to her with a bitter laugh, "Did you run off to tell him that I said I loved you? I bet the two of you had a nice laugh over it."
Jane looked at Maura with sadness, "You really think I would do that to you?"
Maura turned to walk away from her but Jane caught her by the wrist, "I had to talk to Casey and tell him I couldn't marry him. That it was over between us."
Maura looked at Jane, "But why?"
"Because what I want is someone who loves me just the way I am. I want someone who has always been there to support me, even when I do stupid shit. I need someone who will listen to me after a rough day at work, who understands what I've been through and doesn't judge me." Jane said to her, "And I want to be that for someone else and I didn't have that with Casey, I couldn't have it with him."
She looked at Maura, "But mostly it's because I'm in love with someone else."
Jane saw the sadness wash over Maura's face. She looked into Maura's eyes, a small smile on her face, "I'm in love with you Maura and I'm sorry that it took me this long to realize how much you love me too."
A tear rolled down Maura's cheek. She couldn't believe she was hearing what she had been waiting so long to hear.
She moved in to kiss Jane but stopped just inches from her lips. She looked into Jane's eyes, "Are you sure Jane?"
Jane smiled at her as she wrapped her arms around Maura's waist, "I've never been so sure of anything before in my life."
Maura grabbed Jane and kissed her hard on the lips. She pulled back just a little, her forehead against Jane's, "Your detective skills really need some work."
"Kiss me, don't criticize me." Jane said to her and Maura happily kissed her again.
They moved to the bedroom and resumed kissing. Maura pulled back and started to unbutton Jane's shirt. She pushed it off Jane's shoulders then started to unbuckle Jane's belt.
Jane turned Maura around and unzipped her dress. She kissed Maura's bare shoulder as she pushed the dress down her body. Maura stepped out of it as Jane kissed her neck and her hands cupped her breasts. Maura leaned back against Jane and closed her eyes. Jane turned Maura around and kissed her on the lips. She fumbled with Maura's bra clasp and Maura giggled a little. She moved Jane over to the bed and made her sit down then she took off her bra. Jane pulled Maura close to her and kissed her stomach as her hands ran up and down Maura's thighs.
Maura undid Jane's bra and pushed her back onto the bed. She moved up Jane's body admiring every curve. She kissed Jane on the lips, she sucked and kissed on her neck as Jane moved underneath her. Maura's thigh settled between Jane's legs as she kissed across her chest. She kissed the valley between Jane's breasts. Her hand moved to her breast and gave it a small squeeze as her thumb brushed against the nipple making it hard. She licked her nipple before taking it into her mouth and sucking on it.
Jane moaned as she moved against Maura's thigh.
Maura's hand moved down Jane's body and into her underwear. She played lightly with Jane's folds as she kissed Jane on the lips, her tongue going into Jane's mouth.
Maura pulled back and looked into Jane's eyes as she pushed two fingers deep inside of her.
Jane's eyes fluttered closed and she groaned, "Ah fuck."
Maura brushed against Jane's clit, rubbing her thumb back and forth against it as her fingers pumped in and out.
Maura moved down Jane's body and settled between her legs, she paused only for a second as she watched Jane's breast rise and fall with each gasped breath. She took Jane's underwear off then she dipped her head down and took a long taste of her before she took Jane's clit into her mouth and sucked on it.
Two fingers moved inside of her and feeling Maura's mouth on her was too overwhelming. Her body arches into Maura, her muscles clenched around her fingers. Jane came with a loud moan and a couple of "fucks". She grabbed at Maura pulling her close and kissed her on the lips, pushing her tongue into her mouth.
She rolled them over and wasted no time as she moved down her body leaving a trail of kisses. She took Maura's panties off and flung them over her shoulder as she dipped her head down and licked Maura's folds. Maura gasped as Jane sucked her clit into her mouth. Her tongue flicked at it as she slipped to fingers inside of her.
Jane's fingers curled up as she stroked her. Maura's hands went into Jane's hair and gripped her tight as she continued to move her fingers inside of her. "Jesus, Jane." Maura breathed as Jane's fingers twisted inside of her. Maura's hips bucked up against her, her muscles started to clinch around Jane's fingers. She sucked on Maura's clit harder, her tongue pressing hard against it.
"Oh God." Maura moaned. Her body started to shudder under her and her grip on Jane's hair tightened. She moaned loudly as she came.
Jane removed her fingers as Maura let go of her. She moved slowly back up Maura's body and rested against her. She smiled at Maura then kissed her on the lips.
Maura wrapped her arms around Jane, "That was amazing."
"I know right?" Jane said to her and Maura laughed.
Maura kissed Jane again, "Are you okay?"
"Didn't you hear?" Jane asked as she put her head down on Maura's shoulder, "I'm amazing."
"Jane…." Maura said in a serious tone.
"Maura, I love you." Jane said as she looked at her, "Can't that just be enough?"
Maura wanted it to be enough. She really did but Jane had been sacred, confused and impulsive and she didn't want this to be another decision based on that.
"It wasn't enough for you and Casey." She said to Jane.
"That's completely different." Jane told her, "I didn't love him the way that I love you."
Maura sighed, "I just don't want you to regret this." Maura said to her, "I don't want you to look back and see that maybe you made a mistake and that you should have married Casey."
Maura shifted and sat up as Jane moved, "I don't want you to regret being with me."
Jane sat up in bed and pulled Maura close to her. She wrapped her arms around her and looked her in the eyes, "I know I've been a little crazy these last few weeks. I know I've made a few bad decisions based on desperation and what other people want but I promise you Maura this is what I want."
"I love you Maura and I could never regret loving you." Jane said then kissed her on the lips, "I need you to know that, to trust in that."
Maura looked into Jane's eyes. She saw how sincere Jane was; saw just how much love she had for her.
"I love you too." Maura said with a smile as she lay back down in bed, pulling Jane closer to her.
Jane wrapped her arms around Maura and held her tight.
"This is where I was meant to be all along." She whispered in Maura's ear just before she fell asleep.