Chapter 6: Passion

Author's Notes: Sam's been missing for four months. Jack blames himself and after countless unsuccessful leads, he is beginning to loose all hope of ever finding her.

And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

She felt as though her body were vibrating, felt a tingling sensation deep within her. Her vision was being obscured by a bright white light Jack's arms were wrapped securely around her, her cheek resting against his chest and she could hear the beat of his heart and it calmed her slightly. Her hands tightened on his shirt.

Within a matter of seconds the scenery around them changed. She was no longer standing in the secluded, cool tranquillity of the forest… she was in a room full of people, a grey room with a single bed, and a circular wooden table.

Fear overtook her and she tried to run away, backing out of Jack's arms but he kept a hold of her speaking softly to her.

"hey, hey, hey… its okay… shh… I got you"

The other occupants of the room had no idea what was happening and they looked on in confusion as Jack tried to calm her.

"What was… where… what happened…" she was babbling, totally confused by what had happened.

"Guys can we have a few minutes?" Jack asked the other members of the room.

"Of course son. We'll see you in the briefing room when you're ready." Hammond announced and he left the room followed by Daniel, Teal'c and Janet.

Sam was still wrestling slightly to get away from Jack so he held her tighter and moved so he could look directly into her eyes but she refused to meet his gaze.

"Hey, it's okay… shh… hey… look at me, please" he begged her.

She didn't know what was happening but the desperation in his voice when he said 'please' made her calm for a moment and she looked into his eyes and saw the same look that had been there when he had held her in the car park.

Her breathing was slightly laboured from her efforts to get away and the feel of her heated breath on his face made his insides flare up.

"You're okay… you're safe… I promise" He told her, his voice barely above a whisper.

Te feel of his arms around her and his body pressing into hers caused her to remember the memory she had earlier, of her body underneath his, her desire for him.

They simply stared at each other, breaths intermingling… and then she moved… crushing her lips to his. The feel of his lips, they felt so soft, so warm.

Jack was startled at first, as Sam's lips met his and he knew he shouldn't return the kiss with things the way they were, but as her tongue traced softly across his lower lip… god help him… for Jack O'Neill was lost to Sam Carter.

She pushed against him and walked them both towards the wall where they crashed into it.

Jack's mouth worshipped hers, as if she were oxygen and he were suffocating. Desperation, desire and passion coursed though his veins.

Suddenly visions came to her, but they were blurry, she could not place the memories but she saw them…

As the slight vision of memories assaulted her, her hand flew out to clutch the headboard of the bed on its way, knocked the lamp from the bedside table and it crashed to the floor.

The sound bought them both back to earth with a crash.

Jack moved back and looked into her eyes.

"I… I'm sorry" Jack croaked out.

He turned to leave but she grabbed him. She crushed her lips to his again, it this time it wasn't filled with the lust and heated passion as before, but more of reassurance. She moved away from his lips after kissing him softly, their lips still touching and she whispered,

"I'm not…"

She kissed him again, so softly, so gently. "When you kissed me… I remembered things…" she spoke to him, her voice barely above a whisper. He was about to speak but she stopped him by bringing her fingers to his lips,
"You promised you'd help me remember…"

Jack looked at her with a mix of sorrow, pain, desire and love. "We can't do this here" he spoke, his breath brushing across her fingers.

"Where can we go?"

Jack brushed the hair aside that covered the scar and he kissed it lightly like he had in the car park.

"Give me a few minutes… I'll be right back."

She nodded gently and he left the room.

Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore