A/N:
Okay I'm going to do something I've never done for an update. Stay up late! This is probably not going to happen again but maybe it will because school ends in 4 ½ days. You're so lucky I love you guys this much to stay up this late for an update. It might not be late where you are but it is where I am. Like NinkSmiley it's *checks phone* 6:17 am where you are while I'm typing this. Ok trying to save time so thanks to all who reviewed, followed, favorited! ON WITH THE STORY!
Last chapter: …our little oblivion.
"And…"
TRIS POV:
"And a… boy, congratulations," Ellie says enthusiasm lacing her words. A boy. A perfect little boy; our perfect little boy. If only he could obtain Tobias's gorgeously blue eyes that can drown you just by looking at them. A familiar stinging makes it appearance in the back of eyes with the tears that are threating to spill over. Is it possible to love something so much to the point that you are about to cry; to love something that isn't really noticeable yet? A boy and a girl. Our future our forever.
TOBIAS POV:
It's a little strange how easily something can break down your walls. I feel… naked, usually my body is protected by the cold hard shell called Four but now I feel nothing. Can you imagine that all of this is the result of seeing to little gray blobs on a screen; two things that can't talk or walk or speak. The weird thing is that I… I kind of like it. I developed my wall due to the circumstances of my child hood, I needed to be strong then but do I really need it now. I want to say I do but it's hard to not feel up with warmth to know that you're a father, but somewhere deep down inside, where I try to forget exists, I am cold as coal.
I try really hard to forget it and be glad that Tris and I get to raise children together but sometimes I just can't. Even though I tell her that I want a baby that resembles her it'll be nice to know that you created this. I didn't create this. I didn't create them. I wasn't an aspect of the tears that are now filling Tris's eyes. It wouldn't hurt to see a little of me in a little girl or a little boy. It wouldn't hurt to say that they are my biological children that I made them, but I didn't. And I really want to keep this part of me that is ungrateful away from Tris but the closer we get to the birth of these twins the bigger that coldness gets. Its killing me inside it really it is.
This feeling could be the death of our relationship. I don't want her to think that I don't love the twins because I love them with all my heart and soul and hopefully this feeling... err misunderstanding will go away once they are born. So I push it away to the deepest hole and corner there is in my body and I smile down at Tris. I can see that this is changing her too. Tris has always had a soft side but I've never seen her break down so easily. One of her arms is draped around her stomach as if she was giving them a hug. Someday I want to be a part of this. I mean I am a part of this but I really want to be a part of this of them.
A girl, our oblivion. That one name just hooked me; it made it seem so real. Well because it is, because they are.
"I'll leave you guys for a couple of minutes to go print some pictures," Dr. Ellie tells us before she crosses the room and out the door.
We're silent for a moment before I decide to say something.
"So Oblivion and," I ask her not expecting an answer.
"I don't know," her voice cracking in the middle. "I kind of liked Ryker." To be fair I kind of liked that name too. It had a dauntless daring fill to it.
"Oblivion Carson and Ryker…" she says not sure of what to pick for a middle name. Dillon. Wait Dillon where did that come from?
"Dillon," I kind of whisper to myself but apparently Tris heard me.
"Dillon, I like it, Ryker Dillon and Oblivion Carson Eaton," she says as she glances up at me with a smile tugging at her lips. She wants to use my last name? But I'm not even the father. Well technically I am because I will be the 2nd participant but I'm not the biological father. I don't want the twins to have my name but Tris doesn't. I want her to be a part of me and I know this sounds incredibly cliché but it's true. I'm probably going to do it before the twins are born so we won't have to hassle the twins and the wedding at the same time.
"Are you okay, was that too much," Tris asks with a blush starting to creep up her face.
"No no no, I love that you want them to have my name and I was thinking that I wanted you to have my name too," I hope she doesn't freak out about this but instead I see a smirk on her lips.
"Tobias Eaton was that you asking me to marry you," she says coyly.
"No, not yet really," I respond.
"I lov-," Tris starts before Ellie entering the room cutting her off.
"Aright here are the pictures," she says as she hands one to me. I want to hang these somewhere with the other ones from our first appointment. That gives me a really good idea. I should hang the ultrasound pictures in the nursery in chronological order. From beginning to end. I love it. I'm sure Tris would love it to. My thoughts are interrupted by a scream and a loud thud.
Okay that's it for this chapter. So Ryker and Oblivion, what an odd duo. But I love it! Don't like the names deal with it. Okay that came out kind of mean. Alright I was kind of falling asleep while writing this so it's time for sleep now! But good morning if it's morning where you are. So QOTD: what's your favorite band? I know kind of off topic. Oh well. Good night or good morning!
Peace&Love~MSC