Am I even sure?
I began walking to the town as people were holding closed umbrella's.
Was it going to rain soon?
I looked up as sunshine was on one side of the sky, while some clouds were coming in from the other side.
I found my way to the training session while tracing steps from yesterday when Nico and Elden was showing me around.
I opened the metal door and walked right in, hoping to get this over with strongly.
I quickly observed the room, there were knives. All type of knives my father showed me as I was a kid.
Pocket knives, throwing knives, Boker knives, Boot knives, combat knives, and plenty more I didn't feel like naming.
There were swords and guns too. I actually knew a lot of the guns, but I had no time to look at them.
I walked up to the front desk, where a muscular man was sitting chewing on a medal tooth pick.
How do you even chew on that?
I examined him.
He had a big scar on his left eye.
His left eye was light blue, while his right eye was brown.
I guess the scar ruined his eye. His eyes were creepy.
"What do you want little girl?" He said coldly while taking out his chewed up stick of medal.
"I want to train." I said simply said trying not to stutter.
"What's your name?" He said eye balling me.
I panicked.
What should I say?
Should I give him a fake name?
Or tell the truth?
"I don't know." I said looking down.
"Your a Neophyte. Get out of my shop." He said sternly.
"But sir. I-" He cut me off.
"No new comers wouldn't survive training here." He said. "There are no sessions available right now anyway."
He said while thunder clapped against the building.
"Now get out!" He said pointing out the door.
I through a cup of water sitting at his desk on him, while he got up slamming his hands on his desk.
I couldn't control myself, I was just so angry.
"Do you really wan't to try me, little girl?" He said with an angry red face.
"You. Will. See." I said angrily at him, while stomping out the building.
I closed the door behind me.
Rain was pouring down fast, while town folks were walking up and down the streets with umberella's.
I finally let tears shed, as I walked out the shop.
I had no umbrella or anything.
I was already wet, there was no point of pulling my hood up now.
I shed tears while walking home.
You couldn't tell because water was pouring off my hair on to my face.
I was walking home looking miserable.
I felt like a weakling.
I hated being a Neophyte.
How was I suppose to get stronger when no one gave me a chance...
I walked by the shore.
I wanted to let it out all right here before I got home so no one would see me cry.
I screamed my loudest out in pain.
As I got on my knees and palms, putting my head down.
Tears pouring out my eyes as rain slapped against me harder.
I got up, and a black thing surrounded my head.
It was an umbrella.
I quickly turned around seeing who it was.
It was Elden, getting soaked as he blocked the rain from getting to me.
His soft voice made me cry even more.
"Come one." Elden said softly. "Let's go home."
I screamed again swatting away the umbrella away from his hand as it fell on the shore.
Elden let the bangs cover his eyes.
He looked broken just as much as I did.
I knew he didn't want to see me cry.
I felt bad for denying his kindness.
Before Elden could say anything I ran away to home screaming while crying.
I should've never done that...
I should've never done that!
I said in my head while the rain mixed with my tears.
I was closing my eyes while running, getting as far away as possible.
"Rule number 3." Elden whispered. "Never push yourself too hard."
"Take step-by-step working your way to the top." He whispered while I ran away screaming and crying my eyes out.
"Why..." He continues whispering as I run away. "Why must she be so stupid and cry in front of me like that? It's already painful enough... seeing her sad..." He tried not to yell in anger.
"Why?"
He said gasping like he was in pain. Infact he was. Seeing me run away like that was already painful enough for him.
WHY?!
...
I managed to crawl to the porch of the house.
I stood under the porch's roof, wiping away all the tears, trying to leave no evidence that I've been crying my eyes out.
I practiced smiling, but failed.
I walked in soaking wet.
Ashida and Nico were eating dinner, there was a plate on the table for me but I just looked down as they looked worried.
"Neophyte..." Nico said sadly.
"We were worried about you." Ashida said sadly as well too.
"Your all wet... Are you okay?" Ashida said worriedly.
"I'm fine." I said looking down.
"Bu-" I cutt Nico off.
"Don't worry." I said looking up at them by the steps. "It can bring stress, which is bad for the body." I said trying to smile, but it didn't turn out good, so I sprinted upstairs to my room.
"Neophyte wait!" Nico screamed as she was about to run after me.
"Nico..." Ashida said calmly. "Let her have some alone time for now. Okay?" He said while smiling.
Nico understood and continued to pick at her food.
"So what happened... T...To... Neophyte." Nico asked picking at her steak. She couldn't eat while her friend was upstairs depressed.
"I over heard her saying she was going to try to go to a training session." Ashida said while looking down.
"I wanted to stop her, but I didn't want to crush the poor girl's dreams."
"They denied her?" Nico guessed.
"Yes."
"I'm not hungry anymore, brother." Nico said setting her fork down gently against the plate. "Please excuse me." She said politely but sadly while walking to her room.
"Nicolsa, wait!" Ashida shouted at Nico like there was still hope.
Nico looked up at her dear brother hoping he had an idea to make Neophyte happy again.
"Nico, I've been thinking..." Ashida said rubbing his chin.
"Remember how I trained you at the old Emperor's battling stadium?"
Nico eyes got wide.
"You don't mean-"
Ashida cutt her off.
"Yes."
"Thanks brother!" Nico said while jumping up on Ashida's chest and hugging to him tightly while tears formed in the corner of her eyes.
Ashida smiled while hugging Nico back and finally setting her down.
"So when are we going to start training with Neophyte?" Nico said jumping up and down like a rabbit who had coffee.
Ashida chuckled softly. "Calm down Nico..." She managed to calm down while Ashida told her, "Every day after school, starting Tuesday."
Nico was about to bounce off the walls but she held it in until sprinting into her room.
Ashida then heard loud screaming inside of a pillow.
He had a sweat drop.
Ashida smiled warmly, while putting my dinner in the fridge for later. When I decided to feel better.
I buried my face in my pillow.
I couldn't even cry.
I let it all out outside.
Does it always rain when someone is sad?
Just like it rained that day I fell in to the river.
Nico was very sad.
Elden was too.
But this time we were all sad.
Bengal whined like a puppy, and squeezed his way beside me.
I lifted my head from the pillow.
"It's okay Bengal...
I'm not okay...
I'm just a weak, worthless piece of garbage."
I said to Bengal while he whined as he dug his nose in my side.
"But I promise I will show the people who called me weak. Right in front of their faces..." I said squeezing my fist together.
I looked up at the clock it's been an hour since I took a shower, and changed into a short white sleeved night gown, Ashida bought me. It was seven o' clock soon getting darker and darker. It stopped raining.
"I promise dammit!" I said as my voice cracked as I punched a whole in the the frame of my wooden bed set.
The frame was thick. Super thick. Straight solid wood.
But a whole was setting right there in the middle of it, the size of my head.
Blood trickled down my knuckles as Bengal licked them.
I smiled and thanked Bengal for always being there for me. As he continued to lick my knuckles.
It was getting to dark so I reached over my bed and plugged up my blue lava lamp, Nico got me as a 'Welcome to our home' gift. It lit the whole room blue. A sad color.
Nico.
She was so sad as I sprinted up the steps.
I'm such a jerk.
With that I dozed off, in a light nap, suspecting to get up soon. I wasen't really tired but I forced my self to sleep away from all the pain today.
I just slept the pain clearly away...