Chapter 2- Right and Wrong
Kurt POV
It's been eight hours since my kisses with Mr Schue, and I'm still reeling. I'm using up all of my energy thinking about it, wanting another. Earlier, I debated visiting him at his house but that seemed too inappropriate (though I guess the line of inappropriate action has already been crossed, huh?). A sophomore showing up at his teacher's house in the evening would just be really sketchy. It didn't stop me from conjuring up the possibility that maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea.
No, I had to stop this right now. To save his career. To keep him out of prison. I'm 16, and therefore still a minor. It's illegal. So why the fuck does it seem so much more enticing now that I know that I can't do it for fear of imprisoning Mr Schuester? It's like when I was talking to Finn and he was unloading his problems onto like a friend does and he said "I love Quinn, so why do I seem to want Rachel even more than I would if I was single?". My answer, albeit very simple, would turn out to be very relevant to me right now. "You want something you can't have and you want it more because somebody has outlined the fact that it's unavailable. It's human psychology, Finn. We're wired to covet things that we know we can't have without severe consequences." Looking back, that turns out to be some damn good advice. But the difference is that I cannot talk to anyone about this. It's my hill to climb alone. Nobody can help me with this particular problem.
Well, apart from Mr Schue and his super-kissable lips.
Ugh, fuck! In order for me get this out of my system, I need to concentrate on something besides Mr Schue. Like…penguins. Damn, there's Mr Schue. Or Wicked! Shit, there's Mr Schue again. Or my West Side Story audition. Of course, I picture Mr Schue and myself singing Somewhere. We did nail it, though. Why is this so hard? I don't know what to do.
Should I just ignore Mr Schue and my urges and hope this passes? I've always had an attraction to a good teacher, and the fact that Mr Schue is smoking hot makes it even more real. I won't skip Glee, but I'll just concentrate on singing. And Rachel. I should befriend Rachel to distract myself. Take her shopping and burn her ugly ass outfits. Good plan, Kurt!
I'm slowly going to forget about my uncontrollable urge to kiss (and more) Mr Schuester.
Can I forget about it though?
Will POV
I can't forget about it.
That kiss with Kurt, it still replays itself over and over again in my mind until I have to count invisible sheep just for something else to think about.
What's wrong with me? I'm recently divorced, I'm supposing to be taking this time to get the fuck over Terri, but in reality, I just want to kiss Kurt one more time.
I have the Glee directory in my apartment so I could just easily go over to his house and find an excuse to see him and kiss him. Though after my first experience meeting Burt Hummel, I don't think that's the best idea.
Oh my God, I could go to prison if I acted on my feelings again. Actual arrest. All because I couldn't keep my lips off Kurt's. Kurt's lips were so soft, though. It was like kissing a cloud. Ugh, I need some serious therapy. But I could never tell anyone about this. And neither can Kurt. It's our little secret.
Shit why does that make it even hotter, goddammit? I've always had a thing for secrets. Like when two people are in a secret relationship and there's always a danger of them being caught? So fucking hot. It's dangerous, it's passionate, and it's sexy. It's Kurt. It's what I want with Kurt. I want to kiss him again. I want to feel his body underneath mine as I nibble at his soft skin and mark my territory. Great, I'm in too deep. This should be really fun at school tomorrow.
Kurt POV
It just so happens that the Gods of timetabling at McKinley High loathe me. I have Spanish right before lunch, which means that Mr Schue can hold me back after class if he needs to. I half want him to, so that we can "talk" and possibly resume our activity from last night's post-Glee session.
I walk into Spanish later that day and take my sat. Why did I choose to sit in the front row? Where I can smell his cologne and where I have to resist reaching out and grabbing his long tie and pulling him onto my desk and sucking him off.
"Hola!" Mr Schue greets us as he waltzes into the room like he's walking on air. The class grumble back to him as half-heartedly as usual. I, however, am completely silent.
The lesson seems to take forever. Between the many times I have to stop myself from jumping my Spanish teacher and having to deal with Karofsky kicking the back of my chair (oh yeah, did I neglect to mention that the Gods of Seating Plans hate me too?), it's almost unbearable. It finally reaches its climax though, and I'm praying to not hear the words I'm half expecting.
"Kurt, can I see you for a moment?" Mr Schue requests. Fuck. Great, now I have to face him and talk to him.
"What's up, Mr Schue?" I ask nonchalantly as the last remaining student leaves the room. Mr Schue shuts the door behind him and pulls down the blind. The windows were drawn anyway as the documentary had just ended.
"I wanted to talk about last night." He announces bluntly.
"Yeah, uh, me too." I reply. What is there to talk about? I still want to kiss him again.
"I don't think it should happen again." Well, what else was I expecting? "Kurt, come to my house after school and we'll fuck."? Seriously?
"I agree, it was a one-time thing, never to be repeated." Wow that's so not what I'm thinking in my head.
"Nope, never again."
I gulp. Suddenly, his lips are on mine as they were the previous night. This is much more like what I'm thinking in my head. The passion and the spark is still there as it was and it feels much more intense, possibly because somebody could catch us at any moment. We don't care, though, we're just too caught up in the moment.
The moment that we just agreed would never happen again. He's too much to resist though and I guess he feels the same way about me.
And, as wrong as this actually is, it feels oh so right.
Author's Note: Sorry that this was mainly internal monologuing and not much of the storyline, but the next few chapters should start to heat up a little bit. The next chapter involves Kurt's best friend (surprise!) noticing something wrong and Kurt and Will struggling to keep avoiding each other.