Chapter 5

Christian's POV: meeting Quinn

I am waiting at the hospital's lobby for my mom. I promise her I will treat her to lunch one of these days.

It's good though, because Ana and I have been fighting a lot lately.

She got mad when I didn't allow her to go to a party in Portland with her College friends, that includes Kate and Jose. With Kate I don't mine but with Jose?

I told her we will have our own party. Then one time she was in her study and I was in the living room reading, I heard the door slammed shut and next thing I knew she threw her laptop at me.

It was because of Elena Lincoln. She messaged me about borrowing some money because she wanted to start a new and bigger business and I replied 'sure I'll just send the money in your account so Ana would nt know' first mistake was keeping it from Ana, the second mistake was using her Laptop that time and forgot to log out.

This became a huge fight between us and until now I am being ignored by Mrs. Grey, it's just so tiring already! I love her, she's stubborn but I love that about her but it's just getting annoying.

We haven't had sex since Elena incident. So yeah I am in a pissed off state right now.

I was disconnected from my over thinking on how I wanted to have sex with my wife right now, with a Brunette woman who sat beside me.

She has a fair skin, Caramel hair and elegantly pinned up. Her eyes are green they are pretty. She's tall. She's elegant. She's like my mom, Grace.

I cleared my throat. "Excuse me, are you a doctor here?" I asked , I don't even know why I chose to ask that.

She smiled her perfect teeth smile. "Oh yes, I am the Gynecologist here because Doctor Greene was transferred to Detroit."

"Oh...I see...and you are?" For the first time since Elena this is the first time I feel a little intimidated by a person and it's quite exciting.

"Quinn Halden." She said smiling. She's really pretty, and she really reminds me of my mom. If I was a kid and I am in the right state of mind than my fucked up abused one, I'll probably say I will marry someone like my mom. My ideal woman is like my mom.

Shit! What are you thinking Grey? You love Ana! Ana is your wife! My head screamed at me.

"Oh there you are." My mom said, I stood up and give her a kiss on the cheek.

"Oh so you are Christian grey? Or Eliiot Grey?" Quinn interrupted us she smiled at my mom. "I didn't know he's your son.

"Christian Grey." My mom answered her. "Darling this is Dr. Halden, I think you know his husband, Samuel Halden? He's a real estate."

Oh that goody goody boring Halden? Oh yes I know him. He's not bad it's just that he bore me. He's like focus on business and like wanted to have world piece by campaigning not to show war and fighting on tv. He even pays hundred of thousands yearly to make the campaign work and for 5 years he has twenty members. Ana once told me she wanted to join and I just laughed at her.

I nodded at them. "Oh yes I know him. Mom lets go?"

We headed to an Italian Restaurant we talked about stuff. Ana. My mom really loves Ana, I do too but I'm really pissed at her right now. I thought of Halden.

My phone buzzed. And I answered it.

"Grey."

"Sir this is Luke Sawyer I am driving to the hospital right now."

I sat up, my skull prickled. "What happened?"

"She slipped on the stairs. There's blood sir but she didn't hit her head."

I signal the waiter for the bill and handed him my credit card. "Okay, tell her I'll be there."I shut the phone and looked at my mom her face worried.

"Mom we have to go."

When I got there the doctor told me that Ana had a miscarriage she was six weeks along. I left her in the room since she is sleeping.

I sat outside the room burrying my face to my hands.

I am beyond angry right now. Angry at myself for being such an ass, angry at Ana for missing her shot now she was pregnant and lost the baby. But I think the baby is not meant to be, I mean I would want to have a baby but not yet, I am not ready yet. Some part of me is lost, is it because of the baby? It's not like it's a a full grown baby yet...

"I heard what happened." I looked up and see Quinn standing in front of me. "I'm sorry. I know you must be devastated and angry right now. I know because that's what my husband looked like when we lost our baby."

I looked away. "This wouldn't have happened...there would be no loss if she didn't forget to take her shot."

"Contraception fail sometimes Christian. I feel sorry for you, I may not know you well yet but I am, I understand you. But you should know that when your wife wakes up and she know what happened...her world will shatter, it's worse than having a guy break up with her. She'll be angry, sad, pitiful and will feel unloved she might have go suicidal. That girl doesn't deserve to be like that, that's why she has a husband that will support her through good and tough times, a shoulder to cry on..." She explained in a very gentle voice I feel like every negative emotions in my body are slowly seeping out.

"You are so amazing." I told her she smiled a little, I grabbed her face and kissed her.

After the kiss she excused herself and head to her office, I don't know everything changes in me I'm calmed.

When I kissed her I see fireworks. Not like a spark of electrocution I felt with Ana, but a fireworks that when I opened my eyes it's just her and everything else is loud, clear and beautiful.

When Ana woke up and the doctor told her what happened, she break down and cry.

"I'm sorry...I'm so sorry..." She said through sobs I didn't know who she was saying sorry to, but I hugged her and comfort her.

It's been a hell of a time when we got home, when she saw the stairs she slipped off she cried, she cried all night and refused to eat.

Her mom was the one to convince her to move on and we had a heart to heart talk.

She told me that she will be more understanding when it comes to me.

I feel relieved when everything went okay for me and Ana, but the spark is not there anymore.

While I the office I sent Dr. Quinn a message

Me: everything is back to normal. Thanks to you. Lunch today?

After a minute she replied.

Quinn: sure I love Japanese.

Me: great! I know a Japanese restaurant.

We had a nice japanese cuisine and laugh at her doctor jokes.

"Quinn I like you." I told her.

She looked at me the cast her eyes to her lap. "I'm married Christian."

"So am I."

"Why? Why are you doing this?"

"Because...I'm not happy with my wife anymore."

"I have a husband."

"Do you like me Quinn?" I asked her and she slowly nodded. "Then let's keep our relationship a secret, that way I we wouldn't have to hurt them."

After that we agreed to meet every weekdays, since she always tell her husband that she's on OT.

She's amazing, good in bed too very demanding not shy. She's not shamed of her body in fact proud of if she's not insecure and we have a lot in common.

Back to reality.

It has been 3 months since Ana came back and we started her business, turns out it's very successful so we opened few beaches in Seattle and two in New York. Ana is so smart, I never knew that she has a business bone in her.

I still see Quinn, I told her that I have to minimize our meeting cause I didn't want Ana to suspect, and I don't want it to come down to that cause I don't wanna leave her. That worked.

Trust is I really want to be with Ana right now, like before she beguile me.

She's my wife now matter what I did she doesn't know it and I want to make her feel loved right now and I wanted something from her.

That is why I prepared a nice dinner for us. I asked Gail to teach me how to cook.

Ana came in with Sawyer. "Hi Christian. Wow smells good."

I pulled out a chair for her and she sits down. "Thanks." I took a sit across her.

In the middle of dinner I decided to man up and tell her what I wanted to. "Ana I wanna have a baby." I blurted out.

She looked at me like I said something offensive. "What?"

I exhaled. "I said I wanna have a baby. Let's start a family. I mean it's almost two years now...I think we are ready to have a baby."

She lean back to her chair and cross her arms and looked at me with a raised brow. "Well I'm not."

Did I heard that right? "What did you say?"

"You are ready to have a baby Christian I am not."

"But why? Before you told me that we should try again. What has changed?" I sipped from my wine.

"Yes I told you we should try again and you snapped at me and walked out at me." She paused closing her eyes trying to calm herself. "Look, you might be feeling strange right now. Maybe something you saw or something, but you are not ready Christian."

"Ana you are... You are hurting me right now. "

"Hurting? I am hurting you Christian? Of for Fucks sakes. Am I not? Look how selfish you are, have you thought about what I would feel when you asked me that? I am hurt, because you just reminded me of a child I lost. I tried so hard to forget about the miscarriage, I succeeded but you just reminded me of it and how you changed after that. I think you blame me I think you blame me for everything."

"Now what if we have a baby, and the baby did something that pissed you off, would you scream at him like 'why did you have to come to my life? Why did you have to come so early, why?! ' would you do that to him like you did with me?"

"So give me a favor stop with this crap or I'm going to leave you." She stood up and head to the bedroom slamming the door shut.

I just sat there staring to the space she was sitting few seconds ago.

I finished my drink and I called Quinn.