-Ted angst warning-

This is right after Barney asks Ted for his help choosing a tie, and reveals his fears that he may have chosen the wrong woman to settle down with and then scene when Robin then tells Ted that she can't go through with the wedding. Ted tries to calm her down, but she wonders if it would be hard to climb down the window. Ted tells her that climbing up the window is real challenge, and Robin then remembers that it's "the same window."

[Kids you know how when you play Scrabble with aunt Lily she likes to make up words and even when you pull out the dictionary she still claims to always be right. And I always tell you to go along with it… well that's because in this story especially she's proved soon after to me that she really is.]

Even after it comforting and relaxing both Barney and Robin, Ted felt his tension rise. He recalled reassuring Marshall he was fine but he wasn't. I can't do this. He couldn't be here for this wedding he shouldn't because then he might do something he'll regret. Something stupid, horrible, something that will ruin this day for everyone, and he didn't want to be this guy. The guy that left because he couldn't stand to be in the same room while his best friend married the girl that he'd been in love with for the last eight years. But he was.

Heading towards the exits while everyone else was settled in their seats, thinking it would be an easy escape… then heard, "Ted?" Lily addressed when he had just opened the door. "Where are you going? You need to start getting ready into your places." But he just continued out the door and kept walking. Hearing the door reopen while Lily pacing behind him now she shouted, "Ted!? Ted!" she said more urgently.

"I can't do it Lily!" Ted replied.

"Do what?" Lily asked still trying to catch up with him.

"I can't be here, I can't be at Robin's wedding!" he explained.

"Whoa! So what you were just gonna leave without telling anyone!" she said angrily, caught up and halting in front of him. "Ted you can't do this! You're in the wedding you're the best man! And further more you can't be selfish like this."

"Lily I have never been selfish with Robin or Barney up until this point. And now I think it would be better if rather than I stay and say 'I object.' Than leave and be selfish." Ted justified.

"You have so been selfish before to Robin and Barney, and their relationship. What do you call going to get the locket for Pete's sake! You were hoping to win Robin back!" Lily countered. "Ted I know this is hard for you but if you are ever going to move on with your life… You have to let go of Robin." Lily stated harshly.

"Maybe I've already let go of Robin! Did you ever think of that?!" Ted screamed.

"What?!" Lily knitted her eyebrows in confusion.

"I let go of the idea of me and Robin ever ending up together a long time ago. Doesn't mean I'm still not in love with her. Doesn't mean I'm not allowed to be heartbroken and have a hard dealing with this." Ted explained.

"Ted, if you still think you're in love with Robin how is that letting go? How is deciding to leave letting go? The only thing you'll be letting go of is still trying to be friends!" Lily said sharply while still looking sad.

"Well maybe I can't or don't want to! Because if I do, then I'm going to lose all the hope I have left, lose the hope that she's the one… That there ever was going to be a 'the one' for me Lily. If I let myself let go of Robin, then I'm admitting that." Ted replied sadly, looking down at his feet. "And now… I think I just did." Ted started to turn and walk away again, but then Lily spoke.

"Ted I'm sorry if you actually lost hope. I'm sorry you feel this way. That you've probably have had to for so long now alone because none of us have noticed. And I know your sick and tired of hearing, 'she's coming' but she is. Even if you don't believe anymore… she will come and she will make you believe again, and maybe you'll make her believe again too… I mean she's been waiting all this time right along with you." Lily pausing she laughed a little still hopeful and he smiled a bit too. "But Ted, Robin is your great best friend, and so is Barney. They're getting married, they want you here, and you want to be here too. Because you're happy for them even if your sad because of them I know that you know when you see them together you see that your best friends are happy." Lily said softly.

"Well of course I'm happy for them, I mean I want to be." Ted said earnestly.

"And you are, you think if you stay you might do something stupid and horrible that might ruin the wedding. But Ted if you don't stay, one day you're gonna look back and think about how you did something stupid and horrible by missing the wedding." Lily rationalized.

"As the best man I should be worrying about fixing anything the could go wrong. Not worrying about if I'm going to be the thing that goes wrong." Ted stated.

"Well as the maid of honor I won't let you do anything wrong, I've already tackled you once this weekend you think I'm afraid of doing it again Mosby?" Lily arched her eyebrows knowingly, then softened and smiled, and Ted smiled back knowingly. "You're right let's get back in there."

[And kids leaving the wedding then I never would have forgiven myself for missing my best friend's wedding, I also would have missed my chance on meeting your mother. So when aunt Lily tells you she's always right listen to her.]