A/N I know its been forever i've been really busy and stuff i'll try to catch up! Dont hate meeeeee!
The world spun differently now. I was no longer on top of it all. I no longer looked down upon those who really had perfect lives.
Ciel left promptly after my confession, I don't think I will ever see him again. Alois left too; at least I think he has.
I lay on my plush bed wondering about how I could've done things differently. As a child I loved the circus. I could have joined the circus instead of killing them, but I can't change the past. Wait- that was it! The circus was full of people who were running. That's where I'll hide. I can start over; I won't be Lydia or Alexandra. I'll stop being the poison of England. I'll hide away until Ciel stops looking, I'll take Alti too, and nothing would be the same ever again! I laughed. It felt very good to smile; I haven't smiled in a while. I forgot to let myself feel happy these last few weeks. I would never stop smiling again.
I burst through the doors of my bedroom and gripped then staircase until my knuckles turned white, "Alti, I've had a marvelous idea! We're going to the circus! Come! Pack your things!" I yelled to the empty parlor of my mansion. I would let the homeless live here after I left. They would have a wonderful time! I don't care what they do to the place once I'm gone. They can be happy here forever.
I ran back into my room only to find Alti holding two bags. One was much smaller than the other his I guessed. "Are you ready to go-"he began "Don't call me Lydia, or Mistress please, call me a new name I don't want to be Lydia anymore."
With that we walked in comfortable silence to my waiting carriage. I said a silent goodbye to my- no it was never my manor.
I informed some homeless the directions and told them that they could stay as long as they like. And I found the poster, "Noah's Ark Circus" The poster depicted several young adults and children all wearing colorful clothing that caught the eyes of the reader. "Oh Alti aren't you excited?" I asked practically jumping, "Why do you continue to smile?" Alti asked me "I'm going to smile more now because frowning made me crazy, it kept my feelings in and I don't like that." "Very well." Was his only response.
Alti POV
I can't imagine what has come over Lady Lydia. Joining the circus and smiling like a madman. She is acting like that Lord Trancy his soul does waver a bit too much for my taste. I'll have to do something before Lydia's soul does the same. She does seem to like having me around. I wonder what would happen if I were to…disappear.
Lydia POV
Oh I am just so thrilled; I needed to get out of the dull old manor anyhow. Alti brought me to the circus and I immediately asked a young man who had a skeleton hand if I could join. "Ee' wants to join the circus? But why?" I looked at the ground solemnly "I just to escape my past." I whispered. I could tell that the man felt sorry for me. "I'll let you join if you can pass our audition!" I looked up at him "Really?" I asked excitedly "Of course, but what be your name?" "Oh, I prefer if I never heard my name again." I said thinking of Ciel and Alois.
"Gather round! We got some new recruits up for auditions! Who wants to watch?" The man yelled out to the rest of the tented areas. "Joker, who's she?" a rather attractive girl wearing a slutty black shirt asked the man by the name of Joker. "She's going to be hopefully our newest recruit!" Joker replied excitedly. He turned back to me. "So what's your talent, kid?" "Swords." I replied almost on instinct. "Well let's see what you can do!" He led me off to a large tent where several practice areas were set up. "Dagger!" Joker called out "We need some targets!" A boy about 15 pushed through the crowd and pulled some dummies out of an old bin. "Now unarm and or kill it." Joker commanded. I needed no more encouragement.
Killing was my second nature. I pulled my sword out at lightning speed held it firmly with my teeth. I ran towards the target and at about 30 paces behind it I leapt and flipped. Finally I somersaulted and then did a spring jump on my hand up so I was in mid-air above the dummies head. With one swift cut, the dummies head was off and I sat on its shoulders.
They were stunned. Nobody spoke. I a 13 year old girl had just done perfect acrobatics and killed a dummy in about 20 seconds.
There were no questions asked I was just led up a ladder that led to a tightrope. I felt the girl behind me pull the lifeline tightly around my torso. Taking off my shoes, jacket and sheath I crept slowly onto the tightrope. I quivered under my feet. I took several deep breathes and kept walking. I closed my eyes and felt the terrible weight of dread lift itself from my shoulders when my foot felt the cold tile of the other side. I quickly untied the lifeline and flew down the ladder. Wanting Alti to be impressed at my performance. Instead I found my bag sitting in a dark end of the tented practice area. I turned back to the crowd of circus members. "Excuse me, Joker, have you seen my friend? He was tall, silver hair, purple eyes." Joker looked down at me. "He left, said that ee' didn't need him and ee' would be fine alone."
I could feel tears. I rushed outside and cried. I had let myself have fun and Alti left because of it. That was it. I wouldn't smile, or have fun, or laugh again. That's why he left me. I might get him back if I stop.
I walked back into the tent frowning. Joker dismissed me and said that he would find me when they decided. I grabbed my bag and walked around the circus. Soon after I found two kids who I guessed were twins. A boy in green and a girl in…pink. Just as I approached to introduce myself, Joker's voice rang out calling us all in for something. "We have ee' new recruit everybody!" I was dragged to the front of the crowd by Dagger where I stood not moving. "Everybody, this is Fox. She is going to be our sword master and maybe part of a trapeze act." Joker announced I had made it in! I was so happy! I forgot all about not smiling and I smiled the whole way when Dagger was showing me to my tent