Last chapter Aria forced Shepard to meld with her, and she witness some memories she didn't wanted to. – Venus is on the run too, probably with Benezia.

Shepard's first name here is Julietta. Laira calls her "Julie"

Now let's see what happens.

Enjoy! – Sorry for any typo.

Chapter 5: Too young

T'Soni's House

Shepard was never a good driver, not even when she was sober, and not with alcohol in her system, things were harder for her to the control. She parked her car in the garage of her house, as she stepped out of it, and saw how messed up it was on the front. "Shit..." She cursed under breath, not something she usually does, but it's the alcohol and the all frustration. She bumped her car into another when she was trying to remove it from the parking lot after leaving the bar.

She huffed out in annoyance, before shrug it off and just go back inside. She checked on her omni-tool what time it was, and it was already past midnight, hell, in four hours the sun would show up. She also saw calls from Liara that she refused to answer. She needed some time alone, especially after what Aria done. Opening the door from her house, she noticed the lights were off, which was a good thing, it meant Liara and Liana were asleep, at least she would get some peace. She walked up to the living room, removed her jacket and threw it away, before remove her shoes as well and just let herself fall over the couch. – She wasn't going to sleep in her bedroom, Liara would be there, and for some odd reason she didn't wanted to be closer to Liara now, maybe because of their argument. Everything was still complicated for Shepard.

She groaned out in frustration, as she closed her eyes, and dropped her palm over her tummy as she allowed the other fallout from the couch. When she woke up, and the hangover was gone, she would go after Benezia, and bring her blue ass home, that girl can't run away like that. Shepard always thought Benezia would be the only one who wouldn't give her trouble, she was always such nice kid, mostly like her mother, so Shepard was never worried about her behaviour, Liana on the other hand is so small yet so troublesome, and Shepard always thought she would be the one running away and not Benezia, but life gives you such surprises.

When Shepard thought she would be alone for the few hours she had of sleep, she was wrong. The lights went on in the living room, which made her groan again, as she covered her eyes with her hand. "Shepard..." She heard Liara's voice calling out for her.

"Where have you been? You arrived late. Councillor Tevos told me about your argument with Aria." Liara asked, approaching her wife, as she could already smell the alcohol from her. Sighing out, Liara walked up to where Shepard threw her jacket and picked it up, folding it on her arms.

"Yeah, Aria refused to make things easier." Shepard mumbled.

Liara just watched her, wondering if she should bring up what Tevos told her about how Aria forced her to meld with her, she didn't wanted to upset Shepard again, she just wanted this woman to hold her, and tell her that they would help out their daughter. Even if she studied humans, she can't still understand how they get rid of children so easily, for asari's a new life is more important. "She also mentioned that Aria forced you to meld with her."

Shepard frowned turning her back to face Liara.

"Aria told me she saw some memories rather disturbing...She refused to tell me, and said I should better see it with my own eyes." Liara said quietly, hoping Shepard would agree.

"Well, too bad. I won't meld with you." Shepard replayed coldly.

It hurt Liara hearing the way her wife spoke to her, but she was trying to understand her. "Please, Shepard. It would help me understand you better..."

"You already know why I don't want Benezia to have that child. That should be enough."

"I feel like there's something else, Shepard. I really want you to open up with me, so I can understand why you are so against this."

Shepard frowned again, quickly turning to face Liara now, but didn't stood up, since shew as still dizzy from the alcohol. "Aren't you against this too? How come everybody accepts this so easily? Am I the crazy one to think this shouldn't happen?"

"No, you are not crazy, hun. I believe everybody has their own point of view, I just want to understand yours even better. Please."

"No."

"Please, Shepard."

"No."

"I'm begging you, Julie..." Liara used her first name.

"Ugh, fine! You want to meld with me then do it! Don't expect me to talk to you after this." Shepard said annoyed, as she finally sat up on the couch, looking away with a disapproving look.

Liara sighed, she knew Shepard would be angry, but she would end up talking to her, it would just take time, plus she needed to know what bothered Shepard so much, she had to. She sat down besides her wife, and slowly placed her palms on her cheeks, or at least try to because Shepard wasn't allowing it, but she did looked back at her, and then her eyes went quickly black as she began to meld with Shepard. "Relax.."

"This isn't my first time..." Shepard said with an annoyed tone in her voice.

Liara simple shook her head as she looked through Shepard's memories, the ones she has been hiding for so long.

There was a teen Shepard, a blonde, pale, fragile looking woman. A woman that Liara never thought her wife once was. She had long blonde hair, which was very good looking on her, she had never seen Julie with long hair, nor seen her so young and with such fragile innocent expression. She seemed happy, with a man besides her, a tall muscled man, he had his head shaved but a hat always covered his head. They were holding hands, walking down on the street, chatting with such big smiles.

Then another memory flashed by...

It was Shepard's friends scolding her, basically telling her to let go off her boyfriend, because he was a drug dealer, a junky that would end up hurting her. The poor young woman was so in love that she didn't listened anybody and keep dating him.

Another memory...

This one was Shepard being tossed out from her house, a poor looking house. Her mother yelled at her.

"And don't you dare to ever show up again!"

"But mom, please! I need your help!"

"You are on your own now! Nobody told you to be a slut and carry a child of a junky! – Now get the hell out of my yard!"

"I'm sorry! Please mom, let me at least get my jacket!" Shepard's feminine voice begged, she was only wearing a pair of jeans and a shirt, it was winter, the snow didn't come just yet, but it would soon be there. So the woman was freezing.

"Stop calling me that, and get the hell out of animal!" Her mother shouted at her, as she grabbed a shotgun and aimed it at Shepard. A mother aiming a gun to her own daughter...

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" She kept begging, but her mother wouldn't accept anything. "Alright...I will leave." Shepard spoke as she hugged herself and walked away from the house, walking through down the destroyed street, it was a poor neighbourhood indeed and dangerous one too.

Another memory...

"The hell you doing here in the snow, kid?" A dark skinned woman spoke, as she watched Julietta being in a corner, hugging herself to keep her warm.

Shepard refused to answer the woman, wondering if she was another person who was here to warm her, or wonder if she was one of the night girls.

"You will die out there, come on." The older woman spoke, as she took Julie into some club. It was a night club, but a club that was only used for one thing, get drunk and get them ladies.

Julietta was scared, wondering if now she was going to be forced working here, but for her surprise the woman was the owner of the entire club, and she decided to take care of Shepard once she found out the poor young woman was actually pregnant. She felt pity, and Shepard made her remember about herself when she was younger, she hoped that she could help out this girl to become somebody better.

Another memory...

"Go away, Julietta. This child can't be mine." The "junky" boy told her, as he looked at Julietta who already had a big tummy, she was probably on her seven months.

"Romeo, please! You know it's yours, I told you were my first and so far my last. It can only be yours, please help me out." Yes his name was Romeo, ironic, no?

"Yeah right, that's what every slut says when they saw they messed up. If you didn't want to, then you should've closed your legs. Now it's too late, and I have nothing to do with it." He said already walking away.

Everybody were right, he was a god damn junky who didn't cared about her.

Another memory...

Shepard was over a bed with dark red sheets, the lights around here were low as well, and you could tell she was back in that brothel. She was screaming in pain, gripping onto the sheets, sweat all over her body, as there was a small pool of blood between her legs. She was going through labour, and she started with the wrong foot. "Why am I bleeding?" Shepard asked, with a begging tone in her voice.

"Sweetheart, relax." The dark skinned woman told her.

"No! Why am I bleeding?! This isn't suppose to happen, I shouldn't be bleeding!" Shepard shouted out in pain again, and crying her eyes out, as another wave of pain hit her body.

"Just focus on pushing and breathing."

"How can you be so calm?!" Shepard shouted at her, as she screamed again in pain, this time pushing, and focusing on her breathing too. She had to get the baby out of her, believe it or not, she learned to accept her pregnancy, and couldn't wait to have her baby in her arms. So she was freaking out when she saw the bleeding.

After some long minutes, Shepard let out one last scream, one last push, and the baby was finally out of her. However, he wasn't crying, he's suppose to cry, he's suppose to use those lungs, but he wasn't doing it...Shepard simple lay back, breathing heavily, feeling like she was about to pass out, but she wanted her baby in her arms.

"He's dead..." A working girl said, as she held the bloody dirty baby boy on her arms, he wasn't breathing, his heart wasn't beating, he looked pretty much out of life. They weren't doctors, she wasn't in a hospital, and there was nothing they could do.

"No!" Shepard used her last strength to scream. While the dark skinned woman simple held her down, trying to calm her down, as the blonde girl simple began to cry her eyes out again, sobbing. She couldn't believe this, the baby was a mistake yes, but she still wanted him, she needed him.

One of the working girls, wrapped up the baby boy on some sheet, and finally placed him on Shepard's arms. She hugged him tightly against her chest, hoping that maybe the warmth of her body would be enough for him to wake up, scream, cry, anything, but it was no use. "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry, baby...I wasn't a good mother, I hope you can forgive me. I thought you were the only right thing that I would have in my life, but I fucked up that too...I'm so sorry." Her words were simple whispers, out of strength, as she kept on sobbing, and hugging the lifeless baby body against her, kissing his head.

Another memory...

"Hey, may I sit here?" A brunette woman asked.

"Sure."

She sat down besides the blonde woman, stretching out her hand towards her. "My name's Sarah. Yours?"

"Shepard." She stretched out her hand as well, giving a shake.

"May I ask why you decided to join marine?"

"Trying to make something right in my life..."

Liara finally stopped the melding, gasping out for air, this was exhausting, and she couldn't believe Shepard had such life. She did asked her about her parents, and she always said she was an orphan, well at some point in her life, she indeed was one, but she never thought it would be like this. Shepard held such dark, strong secret in her, that was probably eating her out. I was amazing how she kept it hidden during this all years, even from her own wife.

Liara looked down and saw Shepard, gripping tightly onto the robe that Liara was wearing; as she had her head leaned against Liara's chest while the human just cried biting down on her lips, trying to control any sound that could escape from her mouth. No matter how much she wanted to scream and rage around while crying, she knew she couldn't.

"I'm sorry..." Liara mumbled, as she wrapped her arms around her wife's body and held her tightly against her chest, caressing her back softly.

Shepard simple allowed herself to fall into her lovers embrace and let herself cry to sleep on Liara's lap.

And that's what happened, Shepard soon fell asleep, and Liara simple layed her over the couch, softly, and covered her body with a blanket. Then planted a kiss on her lover's forehead. "I love you, Shepard."

While she was showing such affection, she felt her omni-tool vibrating on her wrist, she didn't removed it because she hoped maybe Benezia would send her something during the night, but she didn't, it was a vid call from Aria. "Aria, I'm surprised for such late call."

"Yeah, couldn't sleep because of what's going on. Also...is Shepard okay?"

"She...could be better."

"Did you saw it?"

"Yes...It was intense. I did not know Shepard held such secret within her, after spending so many years with her I thought I knew all about her, but I was wrong."

"Once she wakes up, tell her...shit tell her I apologize for melding with her. Also you both should relax I doubt a Shepard and a T'Loak together can be in danger, they know how to take care of themselves. But we will bring our daughters home, together."

"Thank you for the cocern, Aria. I actually feel more relieved knowing that perhaps my daughter is with yours, at least she's not alone, and they are both good girls in their own way. – Perhaps tomorrow we could meet? My house, so we can discuss this."

"Yeah, that sounds good. Maybe Shepard won't throw a fist this time. – I shall tell Tevos once she's awake, and then you tell me the hour."

"Alright, Aria. Once again thanks for your concern."

"Anytime." Aria turned off the call.

Liara sighed out and looked at her wife...Don't worry Shepard, we will get her, and everything will be alright... She thought.

Yup, this was a sicko messed up chapter, I just threw my feelings all into this, and that's what happened. I'm sorry if it's not so pleasing for few, but I figured this was the best fitting thing, so yeah. – I hope you enjoyed this chapter. – The next chapter we shall see a conversation between the Aria/Tevos and Shepard/Liara.

Stick around!