I opened my eyes once more, but this time, I was certain I had eaten something of Wonderland…without consent. The blades of grass looked like just that; knives stuck into the ground in odd emerald shades. I adjusted my tunic to cover my stomach, feeling oddly self-conscious before I got to my knees. Was I still in Wonderland? Or had I fallen into another dream?

I turned to look behind me, seeing the orbs on top of the duchess's palace and knew I hadn't made it that far. Had I walked all the way out here? I couldn't remember if I had even seen the duchess or…where my pink dress had gone. It all hurt my head far too much for me to think about. I stood slowly, and decided to start my walk away from the palace, hoping I would come across something of interest soon enough…

I lifted myself up over a box of overturned biscuits and followed the path I had been taking for the last while. I wasn't sure what day it was, let alone the time. Time seemed to be at a standstill here in Wonderland…almost like it never existed. I walked around a jar of jam and then a packet of lemons. Why would someone put that there? As my walk went further, I spotted mushrooms gathered around the boxes of food. A bottle was braced in the ground and I stopped to look at my reflection, surprised by the girl I saw.

Her hair was light blonde, almost like sand, and her skin was like ivory paper. Her eyes, through the glass, looked large and brown…but also very sad.

"Elena Hamilton," I whispered and that which was once remembered was left to be forgotten.

I returned to my trail, hoping I could find Sebastian and ask him for help. I needed him to help me, I didn't know where I was supposed to go anymore. Did I continue straight or take to my left?

I lifted my head in time for a plume of purple smoke to surround me. I blinked against the noxious chemical and started coughing. It reminded me of coughing up a lung oddly enough.

"So, you finally found me, Alice," a voice said softly.

I lifted my head to view the creature sitting on a mushroom top, a pipe in his hand and what looked like purple liquid beside him. I would give my tunic to say that was the source of the odd purple smoke.

"You look familiar," I said softly in reply, tilting my head to see him better.

"I am the caterpillar," he responded and I shook my head, "no?"

"I've met you before," I said before shaking my head again, "in a dream."

"It does not matter now," he said as he smoked his pipe, "but remember this. The right side will make you grow taller, and the left will make you grow shorter."

"What does that mean, Lau?" I asked as movement caught my attention to my left.

"The fungi," a girl said with a mushroom on her head.

"The fungi?" I asked and she nodded, "does that answer my question."

"The fungi," she replied before she moved towards me.

She was pretty girl, her hair seemed hidden by her mushroom head while her eyes were clear. Though…she was naked like I had been earlier. As she made her way closer to me, it was as if she was standing on strange ground. Her feet appeared to stick before coming free, making an odd popping sound to my ears.

"Suck here," she said and I backed away.

"I don't want-" and she caught my head and pushed it to her right breast.

A light blinded me and I closed my eyes against the glare. I let go of the girl and stumbled backwards, feeling ill and tired. I looked down at my hands and saw they were clear, the scars from the fire faded to a memory. On my left hand was a golden ring, which made me gulp as beautiful blonde hair fell down my shoulders to tie at the back of my head. I was wearing a pale blue dress that hung off my shoulders, with a blue locket around my neck.

"Mama!" a voice called out and I responded immediately by turning around.

A small boy ran to me and clung to my skirts, his greyish skin seemed to fade into my skirts. He lifted his head to show me his beautiful blond hair but his eyes were a solid green, like ivy. I dropped to lift him up, holding him tight as I cried into his shoulder. He wrapped his small arms around my shoulders as I trembled, not sure how this boy managed to bring me to tears.

"Darling," another voice called and the boy and I turned to see a beautiful demon walking towards me.

His hair was dark brown and fell to his ears where he had brushed it back. His eyes were like the boy's and he was dressed like Sebastian…however he appeared like he came from money. He had a golden ring around his left hand as I did and put his hand through the boy's hair.

"Ciel," he said simply before leaning closer and kissing me on the lips.

"Jonathon," I whispered, the name sounded right on my lips and the demon responded.

"My darling Elena," he said with a smile, "not a day goes by that I have not loved you."

The boy, Ciel, looked between us before turning his attention to another corner. I looked over and spotted the cat and Sebastian watching me. I put Ciel down on the floor where he went to Jonathon and I went to Sebastian and the cat. They seemed oddly amused, though I felt like something was falling apart. I felt bonded to Jonathon, but not by a contract. When I had held Ciel, he had felt right in my arms…my son.

"Sebastian," I said as I got closer, "who are these people?"

"Your husband and son," he replied honestly and I looked to the cat.

"You named your son Ciel," he said and I looked over at the boy, and nodded, "why?"

"I knew someone with that name once," I said without thinking, "I felt my son could live up to the name."

The cat seemed to smile while Sebastian watched me. Jonathon lifted Ciel up into his arms and the boy laughed. It was a full sound, so happy. That boy had never seen a hard day in his short life.

"This is how it should have been," Sebastian stated simply, "had you never went to London with Lord Phantomhive after Berrymore died."

"You would have met Jonathon after he concluded a contract, and later, you were married. You had Ciel and live in London in a manor owned by your uncle though you could survive by your own wealth. Your uncle died by an unknown disease one day, so you are the heir to his business. You made a name for yourself, and often speak with Lord Phantomhive," the cat said as a tear escaped his eye.

"What happened after Lord Phantomhive left Houndsworth?" I asked and both men looked up at me.

"What do you mean?"

"Did he have a happy life?" I asked as I looked back to my son, "did he ever know who I was?"

Ciel ran over to me and I took his hand carefully in mine. His green eyes looked to Sebastian and then to the cat before pointing at the pair.

"They're like Daddy!" he said to me, "Demons!"

"Like you too, son," I said honestly, "and what am I?"

"Daddy says you're a special type of demon," Ciel responded, "Daddy says it makes you unique."

"You should continue your path," the cat said and I looked back at him, "find out what awaits you."

I let go of my son's hand and he faded like smoke. Jonathon disappeared as well and I wrapped my arms around my chest. It felt colder, like the world had dropped in temperature. I walked back over to the fungi and she grabbed my head and pushed my face to her left breast. The same odd light glowed around me and I let go…only to find myself in her arms. My black hair was tied into a small braid and I wondered what had happened to me now.

"You're four," a voice whispered and I looked to see Daddy walking towards me.

"Daddy!" I called out and the fungi let me go so I could run to him.

He picked me up and twirled me before holding me to his hip. He brought me over to Sebastian and the cat, giving Sebastian a smile before taking one of my hands.

"I will always love her," Daddy said softly, "I gave it all up for her."

"That takes a special type of soul," Sebastian replied as he looked to the cat, "this is Richard Cummins, Elena's biological father."

"Daddy," and I yawned before putting my head on his shoulder.

"You gave up contracts for her?" the cat asked and Daddy nodded, "why?"

"I wanted to protect her soul," Daddy responded, "and I wished to know her. I would have given everything up for her."

He put me down and faded like Ciel and Jonathon had. I looked back to the fungi who was reaching for me, only to push my face into her heart. I gasped and that light flickered before I was me again. I was in the blue dress that Lady Mouse had given me…and my hair was black.

"Everything should be as it was," I heard Sebastian say but when I looked back, they weren't there anymore.

"Little Alice, may I ask…is that your real name?" the caterpillar asked.

"No," I said, "my name is Elena Hamilton."

"That doesn't seem to fit here," he responded and the name faded like sand in an hourglass.

"Because it doesn't," I whispered.

It appears our dear Alice has faced the impossible. A future forever lost to her, because of the choices she made in a dream. But it does not matter, does it? She did tell the Cheshire Cat it didn't matter, that she regretted nothing. Perhaps there was one thing…something that will become clear shortly….