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Chapter 5

I'm Not Strong Enough To Stay Away

Another night. Another dream of you. I wake up panting again.

The dream is so vivid. I could almost believe it was true.

Do you dream of me? Do you wake up covered in sweat in the middle of the night and regret ever waking up?

The night becomes my asylum. My escape. The only time I can be back in your arms. I can't wait to go to bed.

You knew I was damaged. I was a victim of domestic violence. Recovering from the alcohol induced attacks of Jesse. I was so nervous being with you for the first time.

But you took your time to worship my body. I was so scared there was something wrong with me. I couldn't remember when was the last time Jesse hadn't forced himself on me coming home after binge drinking. I didn't associate sex with pleasure any more.

Just in one night you changed that. Your mouth, your hands caressed every inch of my body. I was afraid to touch you at first. But when I did I couldn't stop my hands. It was like they had a mind of their own.

Your skin against my skin. It felt so good. I had never felt this way before.

Your body sliding against mine. You moving inside me. It was almost too much to bare.

You said you wanted me to scream your name. And I did. So many times that night.

And again the next night. And the one after that.

I revelled in the feeling of being with you. I was so contend in your arms I never wanted to leave. But I knew I had to put a stop to it. I couldn't love you because you would never let yourself love me.

One week in your arms would just have to do for the rest of my life.

So I did the only thing I could to stay away from you. I stopped going to the bar. I didn't pick up your calls. You knew where I lived so I went to my parents' place in the hopes you wouldn't find me there.

Those were the worst three days in my life so far.

On the forth I answered the door to find you standing there.

"I was worried. And I missed you" - the words had hardly left your lips before I jumped in your arms. "Don't ever do this again!"

My lips found yours and I felt alive again.

"I don't think I could. I'm not strong enough to stay away..."

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