Chapter 5
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So here is chapter five for you... I hope you'll like it. Have fun!
Ally's POV
I got up. Growling when I realized I was still in the hospital. Stupid scratch. If hospitals make me sick I don't get why I should stay? Because it's just make me feel worst. I went to the bathroom and when I was back my dad was sitting on the chair next to my bed. "Good morning honey." He said and rushed over me so he could help me walk. I hate relying on others. That's for weak people. He helped me get in the bed. "Thanks" I murmured under my breath. My dad looked at me worried. I smiled at him and said:"Dad, I'm ok. Stop worrying!" He nodded and then said:"Ok honey, I need to go to work. But I promise this evening I will come by and pick you up and we will go home." I nodded and he kissed the top of my head and left.
I wanted to change out of the hospital robe, but I knew I couldn't do that until they will say that I can go home. I laid on my bed and that's when doctor Davis walked in. He smiled at me and asked:"How are you feeling today, Ally?" I smiled back and said:"Much better." He went to check my leg and wrote something down. He told the nurse that was in the room to change my bandages. After that he said:"Alright Ally, the wound is healing, but I'm afraid you'll have to give your leg a rest in the next couple of days. So you can't walk. Even small distances. In order to make the healing progress go well. If you want to walk inside the house you'll have to use crutches." I looked at him like he told me that I was dying. "Are you ok?" He asked after seeing my reaction. "Amm.." I cleared my throat and said:"Yeah. Yeah, sure. Just.. How long am I suppose to "rest"?" I said in a tense voice. The doctor looked at me and said:"Something like three day.." I got pale and started to shake. "Ally. Ally are you alright?" Doctor Davis asked again. I nodded weakly. "Are you in pain?" He asked concerned. I shook my head. He sighed and said:"Alright, if you need anything.. Call me." I nodded looking down. He exited and so did the nurse and I laid back on the pillow and stared at the ceiling.
Three days?! Three fucking days I'm suppose to be like this! It's worst then dying! At least when you're dead you are worries free. You are not a liability. I growled and put my hands on my face. Then I heard a knock on the door. I looked towards the door and saw Austin standing there. My heart started pounding like crazy. But I reminded myself what I decided last night. I have to figure out what he is. "Hi." He said and smiled. I got up and sat on my bed. "How are you feeling?" He asked walking towards me. "Amm.. Better I guess.." I said looking at my hands, I knew that if I would look at him I would be lost. Now he was standing in front of me. "Are you sure you're ok?" He asked. I nodded and smiled at him. I can't let him suspect I'm on to him. He smiled at me and asked:"How is your leg? Does it hurt?" He put his hand on my bandage ever so lightly. "Amm.. Maybe a little." I mumbled. "What did the doctor say?" He asked lifting his hand and putting it on my face. I stopped breathing. This isn't good. I moved his hand away and said:" He said I need to rest so I can't walk." He looked surprised that I pushed him away but then his face soften.
I looked at him and looked in his eyes; looking for the silver circle. But, it wasn't there. What? Was I dreaming the whole thing? It can't be! This is crazy. I looked away frustrated. Austin looked at me and raised his eye brows in surprise. "Ally you look more annoyed then usual.. Did something happen?" He asked looking at me sincerely. I paused for a minute considering whether asking him or not. I shook my head eventually. He looked at me in disbelief. "I'm fine." I said to make it look believable. "Ok." He said. "Ally, listen I-" It looked like he was about to said something but then the nurse came in and said:"Hey honey, we need to take you to some final checks so you could go home this evening." I nodded and Austin asked:"You're going home today?" I nodded and he smiled. "Well that's great news." He hugged me and I stiffed. He never did that. That was so not me, but before I could react he pulled away and said:"I will come visit you tomorrow." He gave me a kiss on my cheek which made me blush. He is turning me into a stupid-in-love-teenage-girl. I hate that. He walked away and exited. The nurse smiled at me and said:"What a nice young man. He is a keeper, you know." I smiled but mentally rolled my eyes.
After all the medical checks I was back in my room. My dad was there with new cloths for me. I smiled at him and said:"Thanks dad." He smiled at me and hugged me. I went to change when I was back doctor Davis was in the room talking to my dad. "Hello Ally, I've just told your dad that your medical tests came out really good and you'll be healthy in no time." I smiled and nodded. "Thank you doctor." My dad said and we went out to the hall. We drove home and on the ride home I couldn't stop thinking about Austin. How can it possibly disappear. This isn't real.
When we got home my dad helped me get out of the car. I walked with my crutches. It was humiliating. When I finally made it to my room, I crushed on my bed. My dad looked at me worriedly. "Dad I'm fine." I said my head is in the pillows. My dad sighed and said:"Ok. I'll be down stairs if you need me. I'm preparing dinner." I nodded and he left. I got up and grabbed my guitar and started playing a song I wrote.
(A/N I wrote that song. Please tell me what do you think in the reviews.. :) )
I thought in knew it all
I got everything planned out
I stood up tall
But know everything falls apart
I'm lost more then ever
Which way should I go?
I've always been a fighter
But I can't take it anymore
Why to I need to struggle
Just to live my life in peace?
Why did I lost the battle
When it was all clear to me?
Why do I keep on crying
When it doesn't worth my tear?
Why do I keep on trying
When it all just disappear?
Which way to go up or down?
Should I leave or stick around?
I'm so confused it's killing me
What kind of person should I be?
What was familiar now is foreign
What was complete now is broken
I need to find my path
Before I'll lose myself
I sighed when I was done. I put the guitar down and that's when my dad came in and told me that dinner was ready. He brought it up to me because there is no way I'm going down stairs for that. After I ate I decided to take a shower. I took my bandage of seeing my wound for the first time since the attack. I hitched. I showered and got ready for bed. I put my light out and kept my little lamp still on. I wanted to read a little before I go to sleep. I got on my bed when I heard a noise coming from my balcony. I got up and took the crutches and walked to the balcony door and moved the curtain. Then I saw Austin standing there smiling his cocky smile to me again. I breathed out in disbelief and opened the door. "What the hell are you doing here?" I asked shocked. His smile grew bigger and he said:"I wanted to see you." I didn't move. Still shocked. "Can I come in?" He asked. I didn't answer and he came in and closed the door. Then I shook my head and started to walked it my bed hating my situation. Then I made a wrong move and tripped. Austin caught me in the last second and pulled me to him. I crushed against his chest and the crutches fell on the floor. I looked up at him. He smiled at me and I stopped breathing. He leaned in and kissed me. I closed my eyes and felt like I was flying. Damn it no. No. No. No. No. This can't be happening. I was trying to pull away but I couldn't. This was too good. Austin put his hands on my wastes holding me close and stable. I put my hands on his neck. He depended the kiss. He bit my lip and I opened my mouth. Our tongues were battling now. I wasn't gonna let him win. Eventually I won and explored his mouth. He put his hands on my tights and put them on his waste. He started to walked to my bed. He gently put me down and hovered over me. He kissed my neck making me moan. He smirked against my skin and I rolled my eyes. Then I realized that I was making out with Austin. The super natural Austin. I put my hands on his chest and pushed him away. He looked at me confused. I moved away from him and sat on the bed.
"Ally-" he started to say but I cut him off. "Austin I can't. Alright? I just can't. This can't never happen." I looked away not being able to look at him. "What? Why?" He asked in a hurt voice. "Just cuz." I asked knowing I sounded stupid and immature. He sighed and said:"Ally.. You're being ridiculous." He took my hand in his. I took mine away and said:"No I'm not. As long as you keep on lying to me I don't wanna see you or talk to you ok?" He looked at me shocked. I looked away again. This is too much. "What do you mean?" He asked. "Look, you can whether tell me and we will be able to move on and maybe be friends or you not tell me. It's your choice. But if you choose the second one, you'll lose me." I said looking at him. He looked away. We were both silent for a couple of seconds. It felt like forever. "Ok then." He said and got up. "Goodbye Ally." I looked at him hurt and shocked. He exited my room. I sat on my bed. Frozen. But then I felt something wet on my skin. A tear. I haven't cried in such a long time. Not like this.
You see this is exactly why I keep away from people. They will only hurt you. I was sobbing now. Soaking my pillow with tears. I didn't feel the pain in my leg now. The deepest pain ever was in my heart. I can't believe it. He chose not to tell me and to forget about me? I knew it. All the boys want one thing and one thing only. To use your body and then throw it like trash. No exception. I hate that. I hate him. But most of all, I hate myself. I hate myself for being such a fool. That I let him have my heart. Whether that I admitted I gave it to him or not. It's just so painful. My eyes were red and swollen. I took a tissue and cleaned my face. I need to stop. He doesn't worth it.
They all say that... People who are really worthy of your tears will never make you cry. But.. I don't think is true. I don't think the person who said that really thought it through, because, what are tears?
Tears are expression of emotions you have deep inside you. Whether it's happiness or sadness. It reflects what you feel inside. So technically, if this person wouldn't make you cry, that means you don't really feel anything for him. So this sentence is wrong. Because the people who are worthy of your tears, will make you cry with happiness. Not from sorrow and sadness.
And with this thoughts I cried myself to sleep...
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