Okay so here's my Sorry and explanation. So a lot of things were and still going on in my life and I feel so bad that I haven't updated in a year! Damn even so I would not disagree with you if you hate me. Because I know how it feels when an author does t update. And I don't even know if people will even read this. But in all honesty if you do thank you. Another truth, I didn't plan on writing this it more of a midnight writing spurg and here we are. None done with rambling you may now read. (Warning: written at midnight so poor anything like mistake or doesn't make sense I'm sorry. I haven't written in awhile so it might not be as good, you have been warned)

[Tori]

Rule number one of setting up a tent. Just let the males do it. OK unless your into this stuff. Or you were brought up in a family in which camping is a huge thing. Just don't do it. As of the moment I am completely lost, but Beck. He knows what he is doing and I thank god that he does. Its been hours upon hours of finding exactly what we need and when we do, there's no break.

It's hard though. Not the tent setting up or finding food. Its the pure doubt I have in my mind of the chances we will be found. I know what I said to beck that we will be found. I know they are searching and I know they won't stop. But still we are in the middle of no where. And what else am I suppose to feel? Glancing at beck I sighed. Through all this we have each other. But is that enough? What about after? Will we still have each other or will we depart and act like we were nothing to each other. I don't know if I could. He's all I have now and thinking that in the end we were actually nothing. I can't. Then there's everyone at home. Jade. Andre. Trina. Robbie. Cat. What are they up too? Are they at home, still on our break, looking for us. Andre. Someone who was there for me. I know I have beck but, andre was still there for me and I couldn't just not care for him. Yes I don't care as in love, but we was a friend. And jade, the bitch who in weird ways I could consider a good friend. Are they searching? Is it bad though I hope they don't find us? That we will be lost to them. It a fucked up thing to say. But then beck and I wouldn't have to face the possibilities of ever having to find out what would happen after this. If we were not found we could spend the rest of our lives together here.

Wait. What the hell am I saying. Even iF that was to happen. I shouldn't if we are stuck forever we could end of dying its a possibility. We could be killed, starve to death, or end up with a horrible disease. I just, no we have to survive. Beck has to survive.

"Tori?" Finally breaking out of my thoughts I look at Beck.

"Yes?"

"I've been calling your name for a few minutes, you okay?" He responds with worry clouding his eyes. Was I in deep thought for that long?

"No just thinking.. You know about everything.. What's going on at home.. Our friends.." And you. But I don't say that.

"You said it your self they are searching, and I agree, they are our family. They won't just not look for us." I can see the hope in his eyes, and I believe him, they are our family why won't they.

I stare at Beck, it wasn't a creepy stare just one of the stares. Okay so maybe a creepy stare. But he too is staring back at me, its like in this moment everything just kind of melts away and its just us. And like every love movie I have seen, we kiss. One of passion not of lust. And let me tell you this moment was unforgettable.

Again I apologize for long wait to update and how bad the chapter is and the length, but some is better than none.

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