Okay, I was browsing through my laptop and found this. This was my original take on the chaper "Penance" on Timeless. I wanted to explore Alice and Bella's hypersensitive nature and add a character of my own. Thought you might like to read it. Check out timeless if you want to get more background on it.

Thoughts?

XO J

"why? What would you possible need penance for?" I asked finally.

I met his golden eyes trying to understand. I looked at him calculatingly

"My father was a priest you know" he said and I nodded, I knew that part "spent his years ridding the world of vampires, and I was to take over, my father unfortunately hunted good people. Luckily I had stumbled upon a real vampire, so I gathered troops and chased him, it was during the chase that I was changed, so I found a corner to hide and die."

I watched his face and his emotions

"When I woke up I realized what I had become, given my upbringing, I couldn't hurt another living soul, so I ran. Hid in the bushes, I was so hungry, I didn't want to go back. I tried killing myself, didn't work so I hid in a cave for weeks, and a deer passed by. I discovered an alternate way to handle this. I could do with what I was given"

"Saving lives though, why go through all that trouble" I asked

"Helping people give me some kind of peace, even if I am damned regardless" he answered

"Damned? As in hell?" he kept quiet which was enough for me "Carlisle you could never be damned" I laughed at his reasoning

"Thank you. You are very gracious"

"So is God. If I've learnt anything at all, it is that everything happens for a reason" I said "take you for instance, well maybe God saw you could do more good in the lifetimes you've lived, compared to when you were human"

His mouth lifted in a small smile. I stood up to walk out, thinking about what he had said.

"I might not be sure about a lot of things Carlisle, but I am sure that you are good. Good people don't have a place in hell."

With that I shut the door behind me.

"Let's hope your right" he sighed.

I shook my head and walked to Edward's room. It was almost ten thirty, so I jumped out ran home, I put my extra contacts before I walked in

"Dad" I called out.

I saw him doing the dishes.

"Trying to brown nose me kid?" Charlie asked

"Now I'm too punctual for you old man?" I teased pulling out a chair and sitting down. I pulled a bottle of water from the fridge and pretended to drink it. It touched my tongue but didn't go down my throat, but even that was repulsive.

"This came for you" he said handing me two envelops

It was a University of Alaska and Dartmouth application packets. I looked through it, I didn't ask for it, so it was either Alice or Edward

"Alaska and New Hampshire. They are a little far away, don't you think?"

"no" I said "I mean yes, but they have a really good, biology program" I picked the first major my eyes saw.

"Can't you, you know, stay in Seattle?"

"Afraid not, if I stay here, I get mom on my back, if I go to Phoenix, you won't be happy…this way, I'm making me happy"

"Fair enough" he sighed knowing I was right

"You know this means you have to get some technology in this house, that way I can call you every night before bed"

Of course that caused a smile from him

"we'll see" he said

"night dad, I'm going to bed" I said standing up with a yawn.

I stayed for an hour hearing the beat of Charlie's heart as he fell into a deep sleep, I wanted to leave, but Charlie was known to check my room in the night so I stayed. As expected he checked up on me at three a.m. I ran to the Cullens after that, entering as quietly as I had come. I couldn't smell Edward or any of the other guys, other than Carlisle, so I lay in Edward's bed and waited. I closed my eyes as my mind found something to focus on, crickets were in the trees, creating an ambience which would have lulled me to sleep, now it settled for clearing my mind.

After a few minutes, I could smell honey, lilac and Sun, I knew Edward was near before I heard them come in

"Alice, where is Bella?" I heard him ask.

"I heard her leave after she talked to Carlisle" she answered him

"Oh, did she say when she would be back?"

"She left without a word Edward" she said to him before greeting Jasper. "Hi Jazz"

I guessed he just walked in.

I heard him run upstairs, open the door. I could feel him staring at me; my lips went up in a little smile as he sat beside me and stroked my hair. He lifted the upper part of my body and placed me in his chest, I snuggled closer into him, content with just having him near, and his body was so warm, like my own personal sun.

His hand made a trail on my spine, up, down and back up again. He repeated it waiting for me, or perhaps enjoying the moment like I was.

"It's nice you know, not having nightmares" I whispered to him. "Then again, I can't sleep anymore"

"I heard when you can't sleep at night, it cause you are awake in someone else dream"

I scoffed but said nothing.

"do you regret it, being turned?" he asked.

Leave it to him to ask me that

"I asked for this Edward, I was given a choice I may have not made the most informed of choices, but I chose this. Can't bring myself to regret it though"

"Not even the lack of sleep, or not being able to have… children"

"I never thought about it, children. I never had this big dream of having kids" I shrugged "I figured it was one of those things you know. How can you regret something you never dreamed of?"

He said nothing, just held me.

I opened my eyes and looked up at him

"so I suppose, I have you to thank for the application papers?" I asked him

"No, I think that was Emmett. He is paying for you tuition" he reminded me

"Wanna fill it out with me tomorrow after school?" I asked him

"Sure…though I was under the impression you were going somewhere after school with Carlisle?"

"Huh?"

"Someone named Cynthia" Edward said

"Oh, that's tomorrow?" I asked

"Yes" Carlisle's voice confirmed my question "after school if you don't mind, Alice?"

"I'll be there" Alice confirmed quietly

I looked to Edward who was looking at me carefully but his head was cocked to the side as if listening to something or someone…Alice. Mental hospitals made us uncomfortable for several reasons, when Alice and I realized what we could do, we'd just made the decision to tell some friends and our parents then out future changed, she saw us locked in hospital gowns and taking pills. She said they did terrible things to us. Finally, we'd settled on our grandmother, being the Sharman she was, she already knew, that's when she started talking to us about our history, the first day we saw our grand aunt Charlie, oh she was the best and closest thing I had to an aunt since both Renee and Charlie were the only child of their parents

"Are you sure you'd be okay there" he asked and I nodded

We'd spent the rest of the night just holding each other. He wasn't saying anything, he just left me to think and I stayed content in just soaking up the comfort that only he could provide. I checked in on Alice, she and Jasper were in the same position in their white room which I'd never entered. I quickly came out of my vision. Tomorrow would have to be okay, for both our sakes.

School the next day was a rough affair, Edward drove me to school after we had gone home to get change of clothes and wait for Charlie to wake me up as he does every morning for school.

The whispers were still circulating , I tried to block them out. Angela and Ben waited for me at the threshold of school. I walked to them with a smile.

"It good to see you two" I said to them. They smiled hugely, conniving

"Ben and I wanted to get the first scoop" Angela teased "what's this about a Cullen showing up with a declaration of love for you"

I laughed joyfully

"I have so much to tell you" I said linking my hand with hers, my sweater covering all the skin so as not to alert her to my cold skin.

"spill sister" Ben joked from the other side of Angela

"It's quite simple…I'm in love" I whispered quietly to them both, laughing at their bewildered expression. "I've been for quite some time now, though I never admitted it to anyone but myself, and Edward, but I had lousy timing telling him. His father was offered a job in California and they were leaving. Esme said after a while, she missed the small town life"

"And I missed my small town girl" Edward's voice came from behind me. I heard Angela's faint awe sound and I rolled my eyes. I smiled and turned around .

"Ben, Angela, this is Edward"

"Edward you know Angela and Ben" I made the introductions

"Mind if I borrow her, my brothers want to say hello" he said to them and they nodded leaving, not hovering

"See you in English Angela" I said as Edward took my hand

"What's up?" I asked him

"Nothing, Jasper and Emmett are waiting outside with Alice. Carlisle excused you from school, he wants us to go and come back without Charlie noticing you're gone. Alice saw him worried that you didn't come home.

"I guess, about my English class, please?" I was stalling, I knew that, but I wanted to prepare myself to go in a mental hospital

"bella…" he started to say but I had my face in a classic Alice pleader.

"fine, I'll let the others know" he sighed

I beamed up "oh thank you" I said to his stunned face before heading to class. On my way I could hear Edward talking to Jasper

"did she just…?"

"yeah sucker, she just gave you the pout…you never stood the chance" Jasper laughed at his face. I could hear Emmett and Alice laugh. I went to class, barely making it .

I took my seat beside angela and looked at her, she could see the apprehension on my face

"what's wrong?"

"Jasper asked for Alice..i ran" I said simply, I frowned a little at myself, that was two lies in one day. I hated lies

"poor guy" Angela whispered back "I'd assume he is worried?"

I nodded absentmindedly. "yeah, I told him to meet me after English, I can skip school to talk"

I tried paying attention, but no matter how hard I tried, my mind kept going to the upcoming visit. I wanted to explain the whole concept to little Cynthia, but I dreaded mental hospitals. I grew more and more anxious as the minutes for the end of class drew near

"it's going to be okay" she said hugging me after class. I held my breath, while her neck was temptingly close to my mouth

"Bye Ang" I said to her

I walked out of school into Carlisle's Mercedes, Emmett wasn't her anymore. Alice and I stayed quiet during the ride to the hospital. We were sober, we'd never done this before, or met another hypersensitive that wasn't family. Edward and Jasper said they came along for support. Carlisle drove relatively fast, not as fast as Edward, but fast enough to be in Seattle quicker than four hours. I closed my eyes, not opening them until I heard and felt the tires screech to a stop.

I got down quietly, looking around apprehensively, my mind flashing to the scene with my grandaunt wheeled out of the hospital. I shivered

"Come on" Alice said tugging at me and I let her drag me inside

The place was as cold as my worst night mare. The clean floor tile heaped with the smell of pinesol and lavender. The faint but stifling scent of metal, drugs and cheap cotton were equally as disturbing. I tried not to concentrate on anything as my eyes flited around the room taking in the objects.

Carlisle walked up to the lady behind the desk speaking to her in hushed tones, I could still hear what was being said, but tried to be indifferent. I kept a passive expression on my face as the woman turned and asked Alice and I for our names

"Isabella and Mary Brandon" Alice answered her

"Please it would cheer her up to know her cousins are getting married" Carlisle pleaded before she could ask for our I. D's.

"She had some accident yesterday" the nurse's tone took a disgusted color. And I huffed gathering her attention

"Hi" Alice told her with a tired smile "my sister and I aren't really comfortable being here could you make a decision to let us in or kick us out, frankly we'd rather not be her more than we have to be"

Stunned by Alice's forceful tone she pressed a button underneath the desk, I sighed in obvious relief as Edward took my hand and Carlisle moved towards the door.