I feel my bed shaking, as I open my eyes I see Melody jumping on my bed. I then turn to look at the clock. Why is she in here at one in the morning.
"Honey what's wrong? Why are you in here?" I ask her.
"Austin is sick" She tells me in her adorable little voice.
I quickly stand up and pick her up. We then walk into Austin's room. He is sitting on his bed shaking. I feel Melody struggling to get down. I set her on the floor and she runs over to her brother. She climbs up on his bed and hugs him. That is so sweet she is such a good sister. I then walk over to Austin and feel his forehead.
"You stay here while I get some stuff to make you feel better" I tell him.
"Mommy don't leave please" He begs.
"Melody is gonna stay here with you I will be right back I promise" I tell him. He starts to cry. I end up picking him up and taking him downstairs with me. I then set him on the couch with a blanket. Melody sits right next to him the whole time.
"Mommy, I think i'm gonna be sick" He tells me.
"Hold on" I tell him. I quickly run and grab a trash can. I enter the room to find out I was to late. It is all over him and the floor.
"Melody go back to bed" I tell her.
"But..." She says
"No, go to bed" I tell her. She slowly stands up and hugs Austin before leaving the room.
I then pick up Austin and walk into the bathroom. I turn the water on in the bathtub. When its ready I put Austin in. As I help him take a bath I hear my phone ring. I slowly get up off of the ground and go get it. He is old enough to be alone in the bath for a minute.
"Hello" I say as I answer my phone.
"Charlene" Philby exclaims, his british accent is more noticeable.
"What do you want it's one in the morning?" I ask.
"Willa just had the baby" He tells me.
"That's great what's her name?" I ask as I start to walk back to the bathroom.
"Her name is Kristen Aubrey Philby" He says proudly. I enter the bathroom to find Austin laying face first in the water.
"No no no Austin" I scream.
"Charlene what's wrong?" Philby asks slightly panicked.
I quickly hang up and run to Austin. I slowly turn him over. His blue eyes that were just like mine are glazed over with death. This can't be happening, I was only gone a few minutes. I hear something behind me and turn to see Melody.
"Mommy whats wrong, why are you crying?" She asks. Oh god i'm crying, I didn't even know I was.
"Honey go put you shoes on we need to go some where" I tell her and she runs off.
I quickly pick him up and dress him. I grab my keys and purse and leave the house with Melody right behind me. I put them both in the car and drive to the hospital.
"Austin, do you know why mommy is upset?" She asks him. I cry harder as she continues to talk to him. Why is this happening to me? Why, is life so cruel?
"Mommy why isn't Austin talking? What's wrong with him?" She asks as she begins to cry.
"everything will be ok" I reassure her as I do the same for my self.
I really want to believe, but I just can't. My baby boy is gone. I will never see him smile again, laugh, or even cry again. As I pull up to the hospital, I can tell Melody is starting to understand. She may be young but she is smart. She knows things most kids don't understand till they are older. I wish now was a time she didn't understand. If she didn't it would not be so hard for her.
I quickly grab Melody's hand and pick up Austin. I rush through the emergency room doors. I run up to the front desk and talk to the man. Seconds later a doctor comes out and takes him away. A few minutes later a doctor comes out.
"Ms. Turner may I speak to you?" He asks. I nod then stand up and walk over to him.
"I'm sorry to tell you this but your son is gone" He tells me. The tears that I had finally managed to stop came pouring out again. This can't be happening, it has to be a dream.
I walk over to Melody and pick her up. I then walk out the door and to the car. Everything feels like it is in slow motion. As I get in the car I hear Melody trying to hold back her tears.
"He's not coming back is he mommy?" She asks
"I'm sorry honey but he is not" I tell her truthfully. I promised my self I would never lie to them. I haven't and I don't plan to any time soon. We ride home in an uncomfortable silence. Both of us still crying. As I pull into the driveway I can see the sun starting to rise. I carry Melody in because she finally feel asleep. The first thing I need to do is put her in bed then I need to talk to some one.
I carefully carry her up to her room and place her in her bed. I place a light kiss on her forehead and leave the room. I walk into Austin's room for a second and just look at it. I let my emotions over come me once more. I lean on the door frame and just cry. It suddenly starts to kick in, he is gone. I won't be able to watch him grow up. A screeching of tires out side brings me out of my thought. I walk downstairs to find the front door slightly open.
It starts to make sense, Squishy got outside. I run outside to find him squished under a car. What I see next surprises me. Amanda is getting out of the car.
"You fucking retarded dog just ruined my new car" She yells at me. I can't hold the tears back anymore.
"You just ran my fucking dog over you bitch, do you have any sympathy?" I ask her. I already know she doesn't, but it doesn't hurt to ask.
"Oh sorry, but you need to stop being such an emotional whore" She tells me
"You would be emotional too if you son and dog died on the same fucking day" I yell at her. As soon as the words leave my mouth I know it was a mistake.
"Let me guess you got pissed at him and killed him" She shouts
"I would never do that because I have an actual heart you slut" I tell her
"Oh, i'm the slut. I'm not the one who had a kid by herself" She tells me.
"Well at least I didn't cheat on my boyfriend with my sisters boyfriend" I scream at her. This make her mad. She gets in her car and leaves. Squishy lays unmoving in the street.
I walk into the garage and grab a shovel. I make a hole in the backyard and put him in it. If one more person or animal I love dies, I think I might die. This is too hard. I walk back inside and go to my room. As I lay down Melody walks in.
"Mommy, can I sleep in here with you" She asks.
"Of course you can" I tell her.
She climbs up on the bed and falls asleep curled up in a ball next to me. I put my arm around her protectively, I don't want to lose her too.
"I love you" I whisper into her hair, before I kiss her forehead once more. I then fall asleep.
Thanks for reading, I hoped you liked it. I know this chapter was sad. I the next won't be as sad. Please review I want to know what you think. Thanks for reading. I will update soon. I just want to let you know that Willa and Philby's children's names my twin Cali came up with. I came up with the dogs and the twins names though. Any way hope you like.