A/N: So I have a court date and I totally forgot so I am gonna run, but i am so sorry I haven't been able to get with you guys for a long time. I am gonna try to come back to this library tonight and catch up a little so that next week I can be back full force. Here is what was supposed to go up on wednesday. I hope you enjoy.

6

The next morning I awoke wrapped in Beck's arms. I pushed him away and off my bed. "Fuck."

"Ow!" came a sound from the floor. Rayna was there on the floor . I looked around and Michelle wa no where in sight. I got up and headed out to the living room where she had been sleeping. and the couch was perfect.

Then I walked on over to Tori… Her room and she lay on her bed just staring up at the ceiling. Tears welling up and rolling down the sides wetting her blond locks. I sat down beside her, and she turned to face me. "Why do you love her so much?"

"Michelle..." I said with a sigh.

"Why can't you love me? What's wrong with me?"

"Nothing is wrong with you. I told you I couldn't be with you like that. I thought I was clear." I said with a sigh and shook my head.

"I thought-"

"You thought that if I could have you whenever my ever growing libido I would change my mind? That's not why I love her. I want her yes, but she makes me better."

"I can't sleep with you anymore." Michelle said.

I nodded. "OK."

She looked hurt. Did she want me to beg? "Okay?"

"Michelle...we discussed this before."

"Discussed? A text telling me you are in love with someone else, and me agreeing that it didn't matter while you were eating me out does not a discussion make." Michelle said.

"But does an agreement make." I answered. "Look you got what you wanted from me, just like everyone else. But the one thing you can't have... That's what you want. I can't give you my heart. I gave that away a long, long time ago."

"Well... Say goodbye to easy ass." Michelle said.

"Why? You aren't the only one I can get that from. And you can't keep me from bringing anyone here."

Her face contorted and she turned away from me. "Get out."

I shrugged. And headed out of the room running into Rayna in the hallway. She smiled at me and kissed me. When she walked toward the front door I turned to face Beck. He kissed me like he used to. And we noticed that chemistry between us was forever changed. "See you around." I said.

"Yeah," he said and followed his girl out of my apartment.

I was set loose. I was having a mad decent of booze and sex. And that was not my last group session. Thing was, this happened to me every Friday night. Tori and I would sit and watch some movies. We took turns picking. It was just her and I. On the scary movies, she practically sat on my lap and she hid her face in my cleavage. Then she would leave and I'd be completely soaked.

"So we're having a dress fitting next week..." She trailed off when she saw my eyes glaze over. "I'm sorry am I boring you?"

"You don't actually want me at this wedding do you?" I asked.

"Why wouldn't I want you there?" Tori said and my phone vibrated under her butt. She gasped and shifted off of my lap.

I fished the phone out of my pocket and set it aside. I made it a point not to answer texts when I was with her. "Because I don't really like Mike and when they ask if anyone objects-"

"Come on Jade!" She interrupted me. "You should be happy for me."

"I should be, and I would if it were someone like Beck or Andre. Mike can go suck my big imaginary dick." I stated looking back at the TV. Tori had in fact dated Andre for a short while. They broke up because they were too close, like brother and sister close and it felt weird.

"What about Robbie?" She teased whenever I said something like that.

"Yeah Robbie can suck my invisible dick too." I mumbled not looking at her. she stared at me. "What?"

"You are different." She said.

"Things just can't stay the same for you princess Tori." I said staring at the screen.

"Jade, every week since I have moved out, you have been more… I don't know sexually charged. you talk about things like that more openly than you ever have." Tori said.

"That's a problem?" I said.

"I'm not saying you were innocent before… but you reference it more."

"Well, I've had great sex since we last had one of our deep conversations on the subject." I answered nonchalantly.

"I can see that." She smiled. "You have orgasm-ed…" I blushed a little as I tried to keep my composure. "I remember when you didn't know what that was."

"You talk as if you haven't seen me in years." I said looking at my hands and the cracked black nail polish adorning my nails. "I need a manicure."

My phone buzzed again and Tori leaned over to look at it. "Are we still on for tonight? Jade, you said Friday nights were always mine."

"They are, but then you go home at eleven and I am left here with nothing to do and a whole lot of energy to burn." I stated.

"Why don't we ever go out anymore?" Tori asked.

"You got a Mike and started hanging out with him instead." I answered.

"So where were you going to go after this?" She asked.

"Here." I answered bemused. When I saw the slightly confused look on her face I chuckled. "It's a Girl bar in NoHo."

"Oh…" Tori said and picked up my phone. Now I really should be annoyed by this. But I wanted to see what she would do. Would she be Jealous that Regine was texting me. I met her at Here every Friday after Tori left. and she always had someone new for me to meet. THe texted 'yeah' on the phone and handed me the phone. "Let me borrow some clothes."

I looked at her. She looked just fine in her hipster clothes. Skinny jeans and red flannel shirt. She even wore a knit cap in black with her long hair falling in waves. "You're perfect."

"I want to blend in Jade." I looked down at my mini lace skirt and black tights. Black and blue long sleeve blouse that showed off my pretty cleavage.

"Trust me you blend much better than I will." I said standing up. "Lets go."

I led her to my car and drove to Here. She grilled me about the rules on the way. "I mean I don't want to say or do anything wrong. I don't want to feel all alien."

"It's north Hollywood, not another country." I said. "They are just normal people."

"Okay," She said and was quiet the rest of the way there. As we got out of the car, Regine was walking into the club. She stopped when she saw me and said "Hey baby!" She kissed me on the cheek close to my lips"

"Hey," I said. I caught the eye of the girl coming in behind her. She eyed me and blushed a little. I leaned back, my cleavage in full display, and smiled at her. "How you doing?"

She turned to Regine. "Is that her?" she whispered to her. not very low. Regine grinned and nodded, and I swear the girl did a little happy dance.

Tori cleared her throat and I finally turned. "Regine, This is Tori." I stated.

Regine's eyes lit up in recognition. I had talked to her about what I had been feeling, and was Team Jori ever since. She never stopped asking about her. "Is she gay Jade?" Regine asked.

"No, Oh no… I'm just here for my friend." Tori denied.

Regine smirked and turned to the girl. "Good, cause I want you to meet Adriana, Jade." I smiled at the girl and raked my eyes over her. Tori watched between the both of us. how Adrian began to get a little nervous around me.

I looked at Tori and smiled. I placed my hand on her lower back possessively and led her to the club.

Throughout the night, I saw strange things happening with Tori. I interacted with Adriana, yes, I even Kissed her a couple of times, which was something I had never done in front of Tori before. At least not on purpose. The more attention I paid to this girl, Tori kept taking Shot after Shot forcing me to be the Designated Driver.

At some point during the Night, Adriana and I went to the dance floor and danced, Kissed and practically fucked on the packed floor. I mean the floor was packed, so we danced close. She was a little taller than me so her Jean clad legs hit just the right spot for me. Se moved her hand down my body and soon she had her hand up my skirt working me over pretty close to cumming. That was until I stopped her by turning her with her back pressed against me. I bit down on her neck and sucked as I walked her into the bathroom.

I had so much happening to me that night so many sensations whirling. Tori was just outside. she didn't want me, but I knew that she could see the desire in me to want someone. When Adriana and I came out of the bathroom high off of our climax. We kissed again on our way back to the table. Tori was totally wasted. Her head down on the table. "Ready to go?" I asked not even sitting down. Adriana's hand was placed possessively on my ass and she squeezed when I leaned forward to see if Tori was okay.

"Yes," Tori said eyeing the girl's hand and stood unsteadily leaning into me.

I turned back to Adriana and Kissed her. "I'll call you okay?" I said to the girl. I really had no intention of doing so, but it sounded good. I walked to my car with Tori. And strapped her in.

"Did you fuck her Jade?" She asked me. "Out on the floor, it looked like she-"

"Tori, Are you gonna go home now, or are you gonna spend the night at my place and drive yourself home in the morning." I interrupted hoping to derrail this line of questioning.

"I can't go home this drunk." Tori stated and fell asleep right away. I woke her when we got to my apartment and walked her in. I sat her down on the sofa and headed to my room. I stripped down to my underwear and headed off to make Tori more comfortable on the sofa bed. "Jade… You're so hot you know that?" Tori Slurred. It was the first thing she had said to me since we were into the car.

"So I have been told." I murmured.

"I want you to kiss me?" She asked draping her arms around my neck. She started to kiss my neck and whispered. "When you were kissing that girl on the neck when you walked off the dance floor. That was... Hot." She bit me and I wet myself a little.

"Tori, I can't get the bed open with you on me." I said and disengaged her from me for a second. Just long enough to get the bed open and then she jumped on me and I fell backward on to the bed.

"So hot," she whispered and then she kissed me. I didn't pull away I let her. I wanted her. I know I should stop, but fuck, when was I ever gonna be able to do this with her. She was getting married. So I kissed her and began to run my hands all over her body. I let her touch me like she wanted. I pulled her shirt off and flipped us over so she was on the bottom. and I began to lick and nip and kiss. Then, just when I was about to bite, her phone rang. I stayed still for a moment.

I decided to back off. I climbed off of Tori. No she wasn't offended. She passed out the moment I did. I sighed and prayed that she wouldn't remember this. I covered her up with a blanket Texted mike to tell him that we had gone out and she was way too messed up to drive home and that she was sleeping on the sofa. Then I went to bed.

What the hell was wrong with me. Why … why was I willing to go that far? Never again.

A/N: Whew... that was close! Jade you are teetering in that balance aren't you. Anyway I update this story every Wednesday, so Hopefully the next chapter will be ready for you then. Until then Review and let me know what you think. Click that little gray button after you put some words in that box and until Next time, Much Love! -S.K.