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"Cory, do you have Any idea who you're working for?" … "You're working for the mob." "But the nice mob…" "yea sure the nice mob, Come here.." Flick! I DON'T OWN BOY MEETS WORLD, though I still don't know who does anymore…?

Chapter 5 – The strange questions

"Ok Dad. I miss you, I love you."

"I love you too Shawnie…"

Shawn hung up the phone and went to use his extra energy to work on homework at Cory's.

Shawn stared up at the glistening snowy mountain. It was the first day of the Christmas Holidays and Jon had brought him up to Aspen, Colorado. They had brought Angela, Topenga, and Cory, who couldn't ski well, so the three of them went to the bunny slopes, while Shawn and Jon, both who had been skiing a while, took the skies on the advanced sloping of the back mountain.

Angela had spoken to him before the Christmas Break, she had had enough of being away from him. She had reasons of her own, being depressed, and he helped her with her grades. But the relationship was really closely led by her. She had kissed him the minute he smiled at her. He was sorry he'd have to leave. The pain was constant now, a dull ache in the back of his mind, just barely reminding him everyday of how little time he would have left. Unless some miracle brought him through the chemotherapy, he'd be gone before the year was over. He couldn't leave Angela that suddenly, He knew he'd have to tell her soon, he couldn't break her heart like that.

It was still a few weeks into December and winter had come early. It was 15 below, and wind chill made it about 30 below. Shawn and Jon went snowboarding early one morning, a special treat for getting A's on his report despite the riveting cancer. It was hardly spoken of, but it irritated Shawn to death when Jon would keep casting sidelong sad glances at him every time he thought Shawn wouldn't notice. He didn't want Jon in this much pain, they were both anticipating the worst case scenario during his next treatment and scan. But Shawn knew Jon was worried, he had good reason to be, but he didn't let on that he didn't like it. It was already killing Jonathan to know Shawn wasn't going to be there.

Shawn had yet to tell Cory and Topenga, he knew it had to be soon, before he collapsed in the hall or they found out some other way. Topenga would notice his sullen look, but Cory might not even know about it.

Shawn and Jon both prepared to ride down the slopes on last time when Jon stopped him. "We'll still go, but I want to ask you something."

"Ok shoot."

"What is the one thing you'd wish for if you wanted anything?"

Shawn was quiet for a while. He just stared at the sky, looking down the mountain path they were on. Up until the point Jon thought he wouldn't answer, Shawn replied, "Ever since I was little, I've always wanted to see the Rose Windows of the Notre Dame. I've seen photos sure, but nothing could compare to the magnificence of seeing them up close. It was always just dream though. My family was always so poor, I figured why try? I'm never going to get there. Now maybe I never will."

Jon looked at Shawn, and noticed a solitary tear slide down his face as his eyes closed. He then vowed to get Shawn there, let him see this one gift. "Are you scared?" Shawn just mutely nodded. "But I think maybe it's for the best either way."

This caused Jonathan to look at Shawn in shock, "Are you kidding me? You've barely begun to live and you're already saying death is for the best? Shawn I couldn't bare to lose you. You're like a son to me. What do you have there? Look at all you have here. You have friends, you have me, you have a life here Shawn. I'm begging you, don't throw your life away."

"I was depressed when my father left, this just made me realize no one really wants me, you're all just saying that to make me feel better, make my last days here special…maybe I should just kill myself get it over with." Shawn said bitterly as he pushed down on his ski poles and took off full speed down the mountain pass.

Jon, following close behind, waited until they were down the mountain to go up to Shawn and smack him straight across the face. "I don't want to hear you say that again Shawn! I honestly can't believe you would feel like ending your own life when you have so little time anyway! It has torn me apart knowing you could be weeks away from leaving me forever, don't make this harder on both of us by trying to kill yourself."

"I love you Shawn. I can't just watch my own son die by his own hand." Jon whispered.

"I'm not your son." Shawn said as he ran off having taken his skis off. Jon swore as he paid for the trip, and walked back to the car. What he didn't expect to find was Shawn missing.