Hey Everyone! I bet most of you thought I would NEVER update this fic..to be honest I thought the same thing! But alas here I am..I feel that after a year without updating I should be honest and give you the reason that I felt that I could not continue with this chapter.. So it's time to get serious for a sec… I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when I was 17… My past year without any updates has made me more upset than you can imagine… but this year has been very trying for me..I hope that I have more control over my disease and that I can continue writing again…I know that a lot of readers liked and hopefully still like this fic and that's why after much deliberation that I have decided to continue writing it..I hope I still have some of my original readers still on the site and willing to read my update.but I think I should warn you that it's not as good as the previous chapters…it's like I have to start from the bottom up again…I mean I reread my other chapters… at first I thought "wow I couldn't have written this..its so..different from my writing now! But I shall be true to you, my loyal readers, I did infact write those chapters and I shall continue to write until this fic is completed! HOORAY!

Ok so stick with me if my writing style seems a little different…I gotta completely start over again…

Disclaimer: I don't own teen titans ( okay this part I would rather not keep writing!)

Chapter 6: Hate

The ride back to the tower had been quiet; accept for Starfire's incessant complaints. Robin rubbed her shoulder defiantly, comforting her, Raven simply sat with her legs and arms crossed, starring out the window, avoiding looking at anyone.

The T-car finally came to a stop on the rocky beach that was the titan's island. Raven wanted to be the first to exit the car. If anyone of her friends tried to stop her she might go ballistic on them, without means. Robin and Red-X both had sparked too many emotions in her, they were dying to be released, there were too many now aroused that could not be repressed. She had to meditate, for her friend's sake, she needed to meditate.

She rested her hand on the door ready to push it open and run as fast as she could to her room. Quiet, I just need some peace and quiet.

"Raven," Robin started in an annoyingly authoritative tone, "I need to talk to you…" he eyes the others as the starred at him in disbelief… "alone." He finished, still starring at the others with no distinguishable emotions on his half-masked face.

Raven looked at her feet. She didn't know if she could handle talking to anyone right now, let alone Robin. She opened the door roughly, maybe if she saw how emotionally attached she was right now he would just drop the whole thing. Not a chance.

He helped a slightly injured and dirty looking Starfire from the car. "I'm going to take Starfire up to the infirmary and make sure she's ok, I want you to meet me in the main room afterwards." He demanded as his gloved hands wove there way around Starfire's shoulder and waist, supporting her body.

"Robin-"Starfire spoke, ready to say that she needed no help and that she was perfectly fine.

"All right." Raven interjected, needing a distraction badly. She could rehearse what she would say to the persistent Boy Wonder and hopefully gain the upper hand in the shouting match she knew would occur within the hour. No! I need to meditate! How will I be able to with so much on my mind? Raven looked unsure of what she should do as she walked into the tower and up to her room. This is going to be a long night.

Raven had decided to try and meditate first, that way she could do her rehearsing with a somewhat open mind. However, her meditating was useless as images of Red-X releasing her of her bonds keep plaguing her mind. She shut her eyes tight, trying to block out the picture. I can't waste my energy on him! He is my enemy! She thought as her inner struggle pursued.

15 useless minutes of meditating later she opened her eyes. She starred at her clock, but seemed to look straight through it, deep in thought. It's useless trying to come up with an excuse of what to tell him, maybe I should just tell him the truth? She shook her head roughly flinging the idea from her mind. He would be even madder that we didn't tell him and he would drag everyone else in because they had let me go alone. She uncrossed her legs and they hit the floor softly, I guess I'll just see where the argument takes me. She had finally decided as she made her way through the maze-like hallways.

The electronic doors swooshed open, creating a gust of wind that blew the hair from her ghostly face, She peered into the room first, waiting to see if Robin was already inside. The hue of her skin turned slightly paler as she discovered that he was indeed already waiting for her.

He stood in the middle of the room, arms crossed looking emotionless as he did when he was in the T-car earlier. Raven could tell just by his body language that he was completely and utterly closed-minded, he would not give up his views on the argument that they were about to have.

She closed her eyes and heaved a small sigh, she would not give up either. She opened her eyes and entered the room, slightly nervous because she had no idea what she was going to say. She stopped a few feet away from Robin and starred at him.

They just stood looking at eachother for a few moments. This annoyed Raven slightly, she just wanted to get this overwith so she could resume her meditation. "You wanted to talk?" She said plainly, trying to get the conversation started.

"I want to know where you were, no lies." Robin demanded, hugging his arms even tighter to his chest.

Raven scowled "I already told you I was out." She said again, not bothering to go into details.

"Raven don't give me that, look, Starfire could've been seriously hurt! We all could've!" Robin said trusting his hands out as his voice rose to a higher level.

"Starfire is fine." Raven said calmly, she began to shake as she tried harder to control her emotions. Her hands balled up in an effort to help.

"That's not the point! Part of being a Titan is about team work! We need every member to participate if this is going to work!" Robin yelled.

Raven was shaking even more now, more so that she could no longer control it. Robin was trying to educate her like she was a five year old! He's talking to me like he talks to Beastboy! "So what do you want to do! Kick me out!" Raven finally gave up and yelled even louder than Robin had.

"No, but if you keep acting this way maybe I'll give it some thought!" Robin replied, glaring at her intensly.

Raven had had enough. Oh now he's being sarcastic! Who's the five year old now! "Well fine, I'll leave you to your thoughts then!" Raven yelled back angrily. She crossed her arms and spun on her heel, completely finished with this argument. Even if she had not gotten the upper hand she could not have stood being one more second in that room. She felt as though she needed to hit something, hit someone. But she decided on taking a walk instead. Although she never liked meditating while she was walking, it seemed a lot easier right now.

She needed to get away from the tower. Without a second thought she was airborne, heading for the deserted beach of jump city. The soft moonlight shone on the calm water below her, it somehow made her emotions easier to get a grip on. She landed on the othere side of the bay in Jump City. She listened as the sounds of car horns and construction faded and the sounds of the waves dancing on the shore was the only thing to be heard. She removed her short cut boots and stuck her toes in the pale sand. She was surprised at the fact that it was next to an overpopulated city, yet the sea and its beaches were clean and not the smallest piece of garbage could be seen for miles in any direction.

She released a huge sigh, as the sounds of nature calmed her immensely and quieted her raging emotions. She felt, or rather did not feel just like she was supposed to. She was starting to feel drowsy as the pain and soreness of her body that she had been ignoring had finally broken through her barrier. She massaged her swollen wrists as she continued to gaze out into the endless sea.

She was suddenly dragged out of her drowsy state when she heard someone approach behind her, spreading the sand around their bare feet.

"Hello" Came a reply.

END OF CHAPTER 6!

Ok that's it for this chapter! I hope that everyone liked it! I hope to start writing chapter 7 and post it in next week sometime! Please review and tell me if you want me to continue writing this fic!

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