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Chapter 17: Trash
Cold, icy water splashed onto Raven's naked body. Her hands remained shaking at a constant rate, and her veins became frigid and ceased to bring sweet life to her numb mind. Her breathing was ragged as she exhaled, releasing a few sobs. Her frail fingers wrapped themselves around her head as she tried to get a grip. The two knobs on her shower erupted in black and were blown off their secure holding to the white tiled wall, narrowly missing Raven's trembling legs. They collided with the other side of the shower, causing a gapping hole and much of the dust and powder to shower Raven's broken and battered form. She tried to remain strong against her battling emotions, in so doing, losing her strength to stand. A small whimper echoed throughout the empty bathroom as she collapsed into the tub, letting the arctic water bleed down her back, and seep into her tousled violet locks. Her shivering form would even bring pity to the eyes of even a cruel heartless monster. Raven was completely broken, she couldn't even control herself or her exterior.
"Why me?" She whispered, asking no one in particular. She sealed her eyes and her tears mixed with the water as it soared to the drain and disappeared into the slightly clogged pipes.
Her shower ended quickly after that and instead of teleporting to her room, which was her trend, she simply walked out into the hall, towel wrapped securely around her midsection. Her vision was securely focused on the hideous stain-ridden carpet. As she walked in her trance-like state the sun had just began its round of good tidings to the citizens of Jump City. Naturally the windows embraced the sun and allowed the merry rays to breach the tower and spread it's wholesomeness into every inch of the neglected building. The glimmering lights played with the shadows and hues in every room, shooing away the darkness and arranged quarters for the more lighthearted day-oriented crowd. Yet this day the sun almost wept as it forced itself to rise. The rays attached themselves to the windows, afraid to enter the awkward, gloomy atmosphere that was the tower. The light seemed to bounce off Raven as she crept her way down the hall. The giant ball of blazing fire was most relived to find a savior in all this darkness, a storm that was making its way and would block out the sun from the repugnant tragedy that had befallen the awoken member of the tower.
She continued her zombified stroll and finally made it back to her dim compound, she shrugged the towel off and walk to her closet, water still forming into beads on her dead skin and tearing up to the floor. She slipped her leotard on, the remaining wetness soaking into it and making it an even darker shade of black. She strode over to her bedside, picking up the cape that had found refuge in a heap on her purple shaded carpet. As she fastened the cloak, which weighed her down slightly, she closed her eyes and inhaled a meditative breath. She sat at her vanity, staring intriguingly at her own reflection. Her eyes traveled over her violet locks. They used to shimmer, even in the darkest shadows, but the glint of light had long since vanished. She swiveled her eyes downward a hair and noticed the slightest trace of wrinkles had befallen her forehead. 'Worry lines' as most would call them, and she did have quite a bit to worry about, like, oh say, saving an entire city from evil-doers 24/7. She lowered her glance and it came into contact with a pair of stunning violet eyes, perhaps the only beautiful thing left on her body. They had also changed, however, into two emotionless, tired globes. They seemed like they had given up on living all together. Trying to make a good name for themselves, but never being able to escape their past. A sinister evil could be seen, clouded by self-will, but it still lingered, Shrouded with hope. It was always the same story with everyone, no one ever fully escapes their past, but with Raven it was more than running away from it. She had made it her life's pursuit, her destiny to run from Trigon and create a destiny of her own. It was so unbearably hard at times that Raven had wished that she would've just succumbed to her father and not even risked escape. But she was already past that 'what if' stage and she could not longer look into the past. Suddenly, she became nauseated just by staring into her own glimmering gems, they had disgusted her in such a way, that she had actually pulled herself away from her own reflection. Shaking her head vigorously she forced herself to return to the girl in the mirror, she had to face her demons before they escaped and presented themselves to her friends. She moved her eyes down to her lips, instantly she felt a tight pain in her chest. How she had longed to use her lips for something other than insulting Beastboy's lame jokes. How she had longed just to be close to someone, even but for a moment. Not possible, you will never be close to anyone, how many times do we have to go through this.
"Shut up!" Raven yelled, loud enough to even awaken the slumbering residents of the city she is sworn to protect. Rage released itself temporarily, but the damage was done. Her vanity mirror, in her very image has shattered in the center, as if a fist had collided with the smooth surface. The shards still clung to the backboard, still hoping for a chance to live. Raven turned back to see her reflection again, there was a break in the center, and slices of missing glass stretching outwards, towards the frame. Her face was split into 10 pieces, and on the shards her facial expression seemed different in each one.
A forceful knock broke her from her thoughts. It must be the head ache that's coming on. She thought as she felt a sharp pain in her head. She gripped her head and rested her elbows on her vanity counter, trying to subdue the pain in anyway possible. The pounding sounded throughout her mind again. Ugh! Go away! She sighed inwardly. But somehow the pounding had reverberated throughout her deadly quite room. Her eyes split open immediately, the door!
She leapt up from her seat and, unthinkingly, wrenched her heavy door wide open, big mistake…
"Raven, are you okay? Is someone in there with you?" It was Robin, as nosey as ever, craning his neck to the point of injuring himself for the slightest peek into her forbidden room.
Raven ushered her door to close around her frame as she attempted to hide her broken vanity mirror.
"Robin!" She said, surprise flowing throughout her drained voice. "No one's here, just me." She said, trying to ease his muscled that were obviously tensed up, ready for a fight. "What are you doing here?" She asked, a little more like her usual self.
"I was up early, training, but I heard voices. Are you sure you're alone?" Robin questioned, still trying to see into her darkened room.
"That, uh, that was me, I was talking to myself." Raven stuttered, her first moment where she was the one at a loss for words.
Robin raised a questioning and slightly shocked eyebrow at her remark. "You? Were talking? To yourself?" He asked completely stunned.
"Yes, I'm only human, I have imperfections too, you know." She said smartly, well her mother was human, so that made her part human, so she wasn't technically lying.
"Right. Well, I was going to go to the roof for a breather, you want to come." Robin asked, always looking for an opportunity to get Raven out of her dark room.
Raven looked back into her room; her broken vanity mirror meant a mess for her to clean up, as did her bed spread, still saturated in sweat, not to mention the wet feet prints that had seeped into her fluffy carpet. Somehow this sight annoyed her in the aspect that she was too lazy, for the first time in her life, to clean it up. Just the sight of her whole room annoyed her, though the darkness was perhaps her only understanding friend, she still loathed it in a way that she could never explain. Her eyebrow creased as she made a decision.
"Yeah, I'll come, just one second." She closed her doors and not a moment later emerged, the remaining sunlight, not blocked out by the ominous clouds flowing freely into her prison like an ocean that had been held back by a dam. It tousled itself into the unexplored corners of her room and merrily planted itself in ever direction, vanishing and reappearing as the clouds directed. Robin smiled widely as he saw a new emotion playing in Raven's shimmering eyes.
END OF CHAPTER 17!!!!!!!!!!!!
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