CHAPTER 24: Uneasy Feelings Resurfacing
SPENCER'S POV:
I sat in my car, waiting. I was parked outside of Emily's house. I couldn't back out of talking to her now, she probably has known I'm out here for a while. I tapped my fingers on the dashboard nervously. I had never really confessed my feelings to anyone before, and I was paranoid that she was going to turn me away. Especially after what happened last night.
Sighing, I opened the car door and into the cold air. I had to do this, for her and for me. Also, Christmas was coming up, and we were going to be at Aria's. It wouldn't be fair to her as the host if two of her guests weren't speaking to each other.
I walked up to the door and knocked on the nicely painted wood panels.
Mrs. Fields opened it almost immediately.
"Spencer! Hello dear, how are you?" She asked.
"I'm great, thanks Mrs. Fields." I smiled warmly. "Is Emily home ma'am? I need to speak with her." I wondered.
"Oh yes, she's upstairs, I'll go and get her for you, you can step inside and out of the cold." She smiled at me. I nodded my thanks and waited in the warmth patiently.
EMILY'S POV:
I yawned and flipped through my phone. There was one missed text from Aria, asking if I was alright. I frowned, slightly disappointed that Spencer hadn't tried to contact me. Maybe you ruined things with her…
I almost started crying again when I heard a knock on my door.
"Yes?" I asked.
"Emily dear, there's someone here at the front door to see you. Can I send her upstairs?" My mom asked me, making sure I knew.
"Is it Spencer?" I questioned.
"Yes." My mom smiled, knowing about my feelings for her. However, I wasn't in the mood. I didn't want to see Spencer. I know she probably had all kinds of apologies to tell me, but I couldn't face her. Not today.
"Sorry mom, can you tell her I'm busy? I just, I'm not ready to talk to her." I smiled sadly. My mom nodded, understanding, and closed the door.
I sighed and leaned back on my bed. Why did I have to kiss her… I thought to myself.
SPENCER'S POV:
"Hey Spencer, I'm sorry but Emily is really busy with homework right now. Maybe you could call her later?" She suggested, clearly not wanting to hurt my feelings.
"Oh no, that's okay. I have to tell her this in person. I'll just try again tomorrow if that's alright." I smiled.
"Of that would be wonderful. I understand." She gave me a hug before I left. When I got outside, I balled my hands in frustration. I knew Emily wouldn't be doing homework. She had told me numerous times that she was so thankful she didn't have homework for break.
I sighed. It was fair for her to want some time. She's probably feeling pretty guilty, and it'll be just as hard for her to see me as it will be for me to see her.
Relaxing a bit, I climbed back into my car and drove home. Melissa asked me how it went, but I told her we didn't even speak. Melissa reassured me that it was going to be hard for Emily too, and that I shouldn't give up. I was thankful to have her around.
She told me that our parents would be back tonight. I wasn't sure if I was ready to face them again, but I knew that it was going to happen sooner or later.
I thanked Melissa and walked back up to my room, where I would spend the rest of the day.
I worked on some homework that I had, and read, but no matter what I did I still couldn't get my mind off Emily. It was making me anxious, and I knew that if I continued down that path, I might end up breaking my promise again.
I sighed and climbed onto my bed. Melissa came and checked on me around lunchtime, but I wasn't hungry. She asked me if I was feeling okay, but I told her I was. I didn't want to lie to her, but she had already helped me, she didn't need me rambling to her about my worries.
Eventually I got up and decided to go for a walk. I grabbed my coat, and headed outside. The air was bitter, but it felt nice.
I didn't know where I was heading, but when I stopped, I ended up in front of Toby's house. Emily had told me about how they asked Toby for help finding me, and I knew it was right of me to thank him. Even if we were on bad terms.
I approached the door and knocked hesitantly. There was no response, so I turned to leave. As soon as I turned around to head back, the door opened.
"Spencer?"