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It's My Life
Chapter 14: Determined
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I didn't want to yell. I didn't want to attract the students' attention by yelling for Namine.
But I couldn't help it.
"Namine! Wait!"
I reached out toward the blonde, but felt my body falling. As soon as she turned my way, I had tripped over a leftover cord on the floor and landed flat on my face. I groaned as my nose felt as though it had been smashed.
"...Roxas? What are you doing here?" I heard Namine ask, her tone surprised. She knelt down beside me. I shook my head and sat up, rubbing my wounded nose. Was it bleeding..?
I glanced over at Namine. She looked almost pleased to see me. But she caught herself and immediately frowned, standing up while doing so. She crossed her arms and glared down at me. "What are you doing here?" She restated, but in a much more distraught tone.
"I came to see you," I replied, following her lead and standing up as well. My nose stung like crazy, but I ignored it. "I came to explain. I-"
"Just stop." Namine interrupted, turning away from me. "You had me going there for a second. I thought we were... more. More then friends. But no. I was wrong. I thought I could trust you, Roxas." She paused. I was shocked. Had I really made her feel this terrible? I opened my mouth to say something, but she continued to speak.
"What did that night mean?" She asked, whipping around to stare angrily at me. I stared at her blankly. Realization and remembrance hit me in a second."What did it mean that night I slept over? Why did you do that and then ask Selphie out?!" She took a moment to calm down before saying, "You confused me, Roxas. You.. You broke my heart." Her ocean blue eyes wavered and she looked at me sadly.
"No! I didn't! Let me explain!" I sputtered. I couldn't let her think I did this to her. Every thing I wanted to say to her ran through my brain. I couldn't bring myself to utter a sentence. I just wanted her to understand that simply.
"No. You had your chance. Instead, you ran away and let it go." I winced. Just like what Sora told me. Oh sweet karma.
"But Namine... This isn't how I wanted it to be like. I wanted you to be part of my life," I tried to reason.
Namine looked at me with a fierce look of anger and sadness. "Well, I have my own life. And It's my life, and I want you out of it!"
The words stung worse than any physical pain. Someone could have punched my stomach and it wouldn't feel this painful. I stared blankly at her as she turned away, tears glistening in her eyes. I felt as though my heart had been pummeled to the ground. It was like the pain in my nose except much more...painful. With one final look, Namine ran away from me as I slumped down on the ground.
I took a moment to let her words sink in. Had I really blown it? Of course. It was too late now. She thought I cheated on her. She thought the night she and I were watching that horror movie was just a joke. She thought I liked Selphie more then her. It took just a moment, but I stood up quickly, making up my mind.
I still had time to explain. I was determined to save our relationship.
Ignoring the pain in my nose and heart, I headed out the gym doors. Most of the students had cleared away by now. A few stood around, waiting for their ride. I ran past them to catch up with the blonde.
My legs pumped faster and faster as I became desperate to find Namine. My thought flashed to Axel, waiting for me in his silver Lexus. Hell, the redhead was probably gone by now. Oh well. Good for him. I relied on him too much anyway. I was definitely going to pay him back sometime soon.
I caught sight of the blonde's light hair and my heart jumped. She was walking now, her hands wiping her face. "Namine!" I called for her.
She stopped and turned. A look of surprise first, then it changed to annoyed. Her blue eyes were red from crying and I felt guilty. Those blue eyes locked on me as I walked up to her.
"Please. Just let me talk." I said softly.
Namine studied my face. We both stared into each other's ocean blue eyes. She frowned.
After a moment of silence, I said. "I didn't ask her. Selphie just came up to me and- Hey! Wait!" Namine had begun to walk away from me, arms crossed. I jogged to catch up with her.
"Why won't you listen to me?" I asked, becoming upset.
"Because. Roxas, we've been friends for awhile. But you can't just do something like kiss me and then ask someone else out. And that's why I don't want you in my life anymore." Namine replied firmly. A little to firmly. As though our conversation were to end now. I looked up and saw her house a few yards away. "Now just leave me alone," She told me and walked down the cobblestone path that led to her front porch.
"Namine!" I said, following her up the stairs and onto the porch. "Why won't you let me explain? I didn't ask her because I don't like her like that. I like-"
I stopped mid-sentence. Namine's front door had opened, as though welcoming Namine in. Except it wasn't a welcoming person who had opened the door.
All thoughts about making up to Namine vanished. My eyes narrowed as I stared at the now blonde, spiky-haired man.
"Cloud."
His blue eyes found me and he sighed sadly. "Roxas." He nodded toward Namine. "Namine." He stepped outside, and onto the porch. He faced Namine and I. She had moved closer to me.
Closing his eyes, Cloud sighed once more. "I'm afraid I won't be seeing you two anymore. Perhaps I will come back to visit."
"What do you mean?" I spat, glaring at him. Namine did nothing and said nothing. All she did was stare at Cloud monotonously. "Weren't you going to be give me your answers?"
"You already know everything." Cloud responded.
"Oh really? What do I already know? That you would abandon Namine's mother just like you did to mine and Sora's?"
Cloud was silent after that remark. "...Yes." I blinked. He seemed... different. And I kind of felt...guilty. I shook away the feeling. Before any one of us said another word, I heard a scream.
"Get off my porch!" A woman shrieked. "I never want to see your phony face ever again!" I recognized Namine's mother yelling. Looks as though the two were breaking up. Good for her. I took a look at Namine, who glanced in the house, looking anxious. I felt like holding her hand to comfort her, but resisted the urge.
"Yeah." I said, the guilty feeling now completely gone. "Leave. Nobody likes you because of the bastard you are."
"Roxas, stop calling your father such names. What kind of woman is your mother, teaching you those curse words?" Cloud said, shaking his head sadly. His expression seemed to be permanently saddened.
That was when I lost it. "You are not my father!" I nearly screamed. My eyes burned holes in his as I added, "And my mother is a better parent then you will ever be!" I gritted my teeth and lunged myself at the blonde haired man.
"Roxas, don't!" Namine's voice made me pause. I snapped out of it, but before I could attack the man I hated, Namine latched her arms around my own and restrained me. My heart beat faster and faster as the adrenaline pumped in my veins. "Let me go," I breathed. "I'm sick of this guy!"
"No, Roxas! You'll regret it later!" Namine told me, using all her strength to pull me back. "Let's just...get out of here!" She let go of me and, before I could attack Cloud, grasped my hand and led me off the porch. She began running, dragging me along. Her hand felt warm against my own, so I let her pull me away from the scene. I stole a glance at Cloud. He was watching us with interest. Then another shriek was heard and he quickly stepped off the porch. I looked away, allowing myself to be dragged by Namine into the night.
Whew...
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Whoa, I realized this is one short chapter. Sorry about that...
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