A/N: Hello guys, sorry again for the very late update. This chapter is a little short and not so very lemonish but it has lemon but not so so. Haha. I wish I could update soon. I really love writing but work always get in the way. And so I wish that you guys like this chapter. I really do appreciate the reviews last chapter. If you have any inquiries, do hesitate to send some message :) Enjoy!

Autumn Chapter 14

Maybe I thought that it was our fate to face some of our differences. Never did I think, or never did I dream or maybe I thought that I know that this would happen but never did I think about it.

Me. Being plain.

He. Being a prodigy.

Me. Having no clan, no name.

And him being in one of the largest and strongest household.

He being... just Neji.

My forever beautiful Neji...

My kunai brought a little chill down my spine as it cut through rough man flesh. Black coal eyes looked at me with terror, gasping at the sudden contact of the steel blade on his throat. I looked at the tiny nasty blood oozing from the cut and I felt dizzy in the head. But I stilled my stunt not wanting the boy to think that I'm hesitating. I'm not usually getting sick on killing my enemy, but sitting at Lee's upper abdomen and pointing a kunai at my boy-best friend is really killing my guts. I'll just scare him a bit. Everyone knows I can't kill the green pea. I love him as much as a brother.

"You can't kill me flower." he said smirking with some shinning terror in his eyes.

"Let's see about that." I pushed the kunai more to his cut, the red liquid making its way to the sides of his neck. He gasped again, knowing that being a taijutsu user he can't even do some kawarimi. And having my swords and kunai and other deadly weapon suspended in the air, waiting for my command, he can't trick me on escaping.

"You are so crazy Ten-chan. I told you I don't know anything." of course he know something, it just needs some pushing. More pushing.

"What is it that you talked about with Neji?" again those eyes looked at me with puzzling amazement. Doesn't he really know anything? Something? Is that an act? But then he averted his eyes and now I know that he knows something. "Fuck it Lee! Just fucking say it! Fuck!" I pierced the kunai at the damp cold earth at the left side of his ear, despair creeping up my nape like tiny centipedes. The surrounding deadly weapons made some heavy thud sounds and I just look at my team mate, my brother, my best friend, and the look in his dark eyes was pure unsettling shock. I don't know what he saw in my eyes, but I know that I was filled with incredible dread, the sadness in those beautiful Hyuuga eyes lurking in my head.

"Ten-chan... I swear..." he pleaded his eyes full of pain, maybe mirroring mine.

"Please... Lee..." I can hear myself choking at the lump in my throat. I might not ask my boyfriend because I know that it will be a waste of time. He'll just dodge all my inquiries with great precision and sex coz I don't have physical evidence that he has a problem. I can see him laughing off the 'sadness-in-his-eyes' bullshit that I saw. Fuck. That's why fuck. Fuck me for doing this to Lee. Fuck everything else coz I'm really ready to cry my eye balls out for Lee to say something.

"Aww... Jeez, I don't know anything, Ten-chan. I just know that it's not a good time for you to get pregnant. That's all." What? Not a good time? Isn't it always not a good time? Being in war and everything. But why? Why would he tell me that? Isn't it obvious that I should stay out of fertilization? Everything's bullshit now.

"Why?"

"I don't know. Maybe coz Hinata's pregnant too. I don't know." If he doesn't know anything, why would I be setting him up at early noon, here in our training ground and threatening to kill him when I know that Neji won't come, coz the household sent him for a remote mission and Gai-sensei makin' his usual rounds. Then I heard Lee spoke, his voice full of sadness and he looked me square in the eye. "When did I know anything Ten-chan?" I looked at him with my eyes full of shock. "Am I not always left behind in the dark, not knowing anything?" No. That's not it. I felt so guilty at the core, my head is spinning like crazy.

"No. Lee... I... I'm sorry..." I stood away from my battered friend. I never wanted to hurt him. I know I'm being so unfair but this all I got. This is all I can do. It's crazy and I'm fuckin' everything up.
Hundreds of weapon on the floor turning in to cloud of smoke, I take out some bandage from my small pouch and stepped towards the now standing green pea. I put my hands to his chest and told him I'm sorry again. His hand on the wound, I took it away and placed the bandage around his neck.

"Let's take that to Sakura." I said to him, my heart full of guilt.

"I'm sorry Ten-chan for not knowing anything." my chest clenched painfully. I should have never done that. I'm so stupid. And all because of some fuckin' hunch and now I'm even more confuse on what Lee said.

Because Hinata is pregnant, I can't be pregnant myself? Why? Why? Why? Fuck why?

"When Gai-sensei and Neji talked I was on guard, look out for someone who might be listening. But I never heard and knew anything myself." he told me, wiping the dirt off his green jump suit, he again looked at me like he's really sorry.

"Then why did you know about the pregnancy-thing?" I asked.

"When they were finished talking, they talked about Hinata's pregnancy and Gai-sensei makin' some weird joke that you can't be knock out now. That's all I know." They didn't let Lee joined their little meeting and that's weird. "Hey. Maybe that's worthless information. Don't overthink it Ten-chan." I looked at Lee, not knowing that I was thinkin' my ass out and spacing a bit.

"Yeah. Sorry. For the meantime, let's take you to Sakura-chan."

"I can take care of myself flower. I'll go there alone." Oh? And hit on the cherry girl again non-stop and getting yourself hit by the process?

"No. I'll go with you. I also wanted to visit Temari-chan after all."

"Oww... Okay."

Lee and I went to the hospital to visit Temari and Kankuro. The winter is not yet starting but the freezing wind howl like saying, my-friend-winter-is-coming-bastards sounds. So I ignore my hair being swept off its bun by the annoying moving air as I walked by my foot and Lee by his hands in the busy cold streets of Konoha. Villagers were starting to double their t-shirts with kimono or jacket, and colourful scarfs dazzling my eyes. Mittens were also very cute on little kid's hands, some hands were red, not wanting the little gloves their mother gave them to be a hindrance for a strong grip on a ball. The playing kids laughed at Lee seeing him walking on his hands, and I looked at my friend giving them thumbs up like there's no killer weapon pointed at his throat a little while ago. This is what I really love about Lee, he's just so innocent and kind-hearted and he's such a good brother to me and to Neji. He was so hurt when he discovered that we were dating for almost a month and not saying anything to him. I guess this is the most complicated thing when two of your team members fall in love with each other, most of the time, you feel an outsider. Lee was like that for almost a week then. Not disturbing us when he saw just the two of us in the training ground, not wanting to eat with us for some lame reason. It takes him some beating from Neji before he understood that nothing has change between the three of us, I'm the flower, Neji's the steel and he's the green pea, and we're family and even though me and Neji are lovers, between the three of us, we're siblings, forever.

"What's wrong?" Lee asked when we passed the playing kids.

"What?" not knowing what he's implying.

"You're smiling at me." ohh. I didn't know that there was a grin plastered on my face.

"Nothing." I told him smiling more sweetly at him.

"Mou... You also think that walking with my hands is funny huh? I always tell you flower that walking like this can..." and he go on ranting and ranting about the benefits of walking on your hands until we reached the hospital. It's annoying at some point but then I find it soothing and calming to walk with your blood-unrelated brother in mid-morning-almost-winter day blubbering about muscles and all.

"Lee?" I said as we near the establishment.

"Yes?" he answered standing, well, on his feet now.

"I'm sorry. Really. Sorry..." I apologized again my heart clenching with guilt.

"It's okay, Ten-chan. I understand that you're really worried. I can also sense that something's weird is happening right now." wow, so he can also feel that?

"How do you know?"

"Nothing. Just a hunch but I'm not sure. It's all instinct." if Lee can feel that there's something weird, I think, we're feeling the same thing. What is it? What does Neji know that he's not saying? What is it that's troubling him?

"What's happening?" I asked no one but then Lee answered.

"I don't know. It all started when Hinata-chan was confirmed pregnant." Yeah. That is when. But what is wrong about it? Hinata is of legal age to bear a kid. And it's not like her relationship with Naruto was known as pure as those of some little lambs. They do things more than Neji and I would have done. So why was everyone so hype up on something so trivial and inevitable? Is Neji really so troubled about it? Maybe he still hates Naruto's guts. No. That's not it. And that's not him.

"Neji is bothered by something? How did you know?" Temari asked, her good right arm spins a kunai really fast and throwing it at the target paper in front of her bed. Several kunais were already attached on it.

"I just know. Just a hunch. Instinct."

"Women." she said like she's not a girl after all.

"As if you're not in the same line of species." I said and she scoffed. "Somewhat Lee can sense it too. How's your wound?" I asked her, not wanting the subject to be discussed anymore. I'm already tired of thinking and talking about it.

"Nasty as usual. Ache as fuck at night." the Suna kunoichi said and admiring her is the best thing I can always do for her. I always envy her strength. Her willpower encompasses heart ache and pain. That's why I've always wanted to be friends with her, well, despite the fact that her victory is my first failure. Still, I've always wanted to be as strong as her.

"Good thing Shikamaru's always here." the shadow master literally lives here.

"That asshole is as useless as ever." yeah? The usual Temari is back. I fuckin' love that asshole, is what she wanted to say. "So, you know Hinata have bump?" Fuck! Bump is a really famous metaphor. Why didn't I know that? Am I so stupid?

"Yeah. I know. And everybody's giving some weird ruckus about it. I mean, we're on our 20's, it's inevitable, why can't they just be happy for her, right?" Temari made some sound inside her throat, indicating I'm stupid. My brows furrowed at her reaction.

"Stupid." I'm right. "Of course, she's the heir. Everyone is expecting highly of her." Highly?

"What? They expect her to be a virgin? She had a dunkin' hole before I do." The suna kunoichi sighed.

"You don't understand. The Hyuuga's are very strict. And now, I know that the clan's elders are blaming Hisashi for being so lenient to his daughter." Temari said as she swung another kunai up her long black sleeves to the poor target paper. She hit just before the small circle in the middle. "I'm rusting." she said to no one in particular, although I'm the only one in the room who's capable of speaking and replying to her retort.

"Yes. You need to train more, or else I will be so pretty victorious when we spar the time your ass is ready to leave these white sheets." I looked at her tiger eyes with challenge and she smiled at me, that smirk she gave her enemies when she knew that they were defeated.

"You fight me square and with all your strength." it was a statement that needs no pity even in her current state. Temari's greatest fear, now that she lost one of her arms is pity. No one will ever take her seriously when it comes to handling missions or training or even mere sparring. She doesn't want that. Her pride as a dominant tiger won't let her.

"I will. I love you and you know it." I said and she smiled sweetly at me.

"Yeah."

When did Temari and I had been so good friends? Maybe when I started challenging her with some absurd things after our match. She always beat me and without knowing it, we became good friends. Temari is a tiger inside but she's dearly sweet in the inside. "You'll goin' to regret it." then another kunai from her black long sleeves, and now, it hit the red small circle in the middle.

I was a little surprised when I saw Neji's big form in the hot tub. Spending my afternoon alone on the graves, making small talk to the dead, then striding the busy streets again and ending up with the calm waters of the river near the Mayu bridge. All my thoughts were flooded with Neji. And so when I decided to go home, the dark plains of the hills and tall trees making hovering shadows in the nearing night, I made up my mind on something. It will cost me greatly, but I think I can somewhat solve, if not solve then know everything that was hidden from me. That's why when I saw his face relaxed and calmed and there are soft black circles under his closed eyes, I don't know if it's a good idea anymore. He looked tired and my Hyuuga boy somewhat changed a lot since the day I fell in love with him. At that time he's just a boy, skinny, no muscles, small, long hair, and a grumpy face. But all in all he's so beautiful to me. I remember blushing a lot when we met eyes in the hallway, ohh, that eyes, it was those, they're one of the thousand things that I fall in love with. Now, looking at him, at his prime, his muscles everywhere, his big tall form spreading, the tub cannot contain his limbs, of course, it was built for small me. I wonder how we can fit on that and have heavy sex in it?

Removing all my clothes, I approached the sleeping Hyuuga, well if he's really snoozing. He might have detected my presence earlier, it's either he'd come back to sleep or he's just pretending to be.
My long brown locks slid the water's surface as I brought my face to his. He's really so beautiful even with those small creases and black circles, still I can look at him forever. I touch the tip of my nose to his and he grunted, moving his head a little, a tiny smile forming on his lips.

"Heehee." I giggled. "You're awake."

That's when he pulled me to the tub, water overflowing and splashing to the white tiles. I screamed like a teenager with giggles and laughter. It was so damn good to be tickled in the hot water with the one you love. He kissed me under my left ear, grunting a satisfied noise when the Hyuuga heard me moan. "I just thought that you love me somehow." Neji whispered in my ear.

"No, I happened to saw a beautiful naked man in my bath tub in one of the nights of confusion. And now I'm even more confused on what he was asking me."

He grin that boyish smile and I don't know what to do with it.

"Do I need to convert my every word to action?" Then he started trailing hot wet kisses down my neck making me giggle a lot more.

I was so stupid.

Neji is always making me stupid. My heart all racing, my body hot with desire and my whole being vibrating with love. His kisses that hot wet open kisses then the trailing of the tongue, tasting me like I was the best food in the world. It makes me think of nothing more. I wish I know a lot more at that time. That with those fine dark circles under his eyes meant he was not really sleeping those days. And that when I saw him every morning sitting on my window sill, he was looking at the winter moon whenever it's out or he just stared at the dark spaces of clouds plastered on the night sky.

I'm really stupid.

That I know that his skilled hands can make me squealed in delight whenever he softly trace my nipples, and stupidly moaning in his mouth when his forefinger put feather touches on my clitoris. When my aching body wanting only his to make us one.

I was so stupid.

When I know that he can play my every nerve like having a pro violinist playing his instrument. Every tremble, every sound I make, it sings with the same tune of my lover's body.

Why am I so stupid?

Knowing that throwing my head up when he drove his cock inside my womb will expose my slender neck and being kissed and bit by my man. Taking me with both his arms on the small of my back, as my body arching, he thrusts in me with the gashing and splashing of the water, steam making me dizzy in the head with pleasure banging inside of me, ready to come out in streams of screams and moans and uncontrolled jerking.

"Come inside! Neji! Come! Ahh..." I wanted him always to fill me, to have his part inside me which pleasures him most. Releasing those white sperm inside will definitely make you pregnant, having Hinata take it sounds stupid when she doesn't drink pills because of some allergy and her partner doesn't want to put the coat because he wants to pour it all out in her. The Hyuuga heiress, always asking us what should she do and we always told her that the only way is for Naruto to put some condom or Hinata counting on the calendar method. Maybe the shy girl lost count in the process. And it's stupid. But now, begging for Neji to pour it all in me, it suddenly crossed my mind, how I always wanted to feel Neji's cum in me. How it makes me always wonder how pleasurable to release such a thing inside a woman. How Neji's eye lids half open, half closed in pleasure as he looked at me his beautiful lips forming an 'o' and his body jerked in unison with my climax exploding in sweet vibration, making me repeat his name over and over as I felt the thrusting of his sperm in me, stopping only when he kissed me on the lips and his name being a muffled silent prayer.

Neji... My beautiful Neji...

"I love you..." it was just a whisper but it's enough.

"I love you too Tenten..." and I smiled as comfort embraces me like little soft feathers. I love him so so much and I'm so stupid.

If I knew it from the start, if I just knew and I was not so stupid.

I should have drank those fucking pills the next morning.

A/N: So that it guys. I was reading Terry Brooks' Word and Void trilogy that's why I was trying to sound solemn, just a bit of an experiment, but I was not imitating any of his style, with all the cursing hahah. Don't forget to post some review about this chapter. I wish to know what's on your mind. Thank you for reading :)