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Ch.7 Feelings
Faith had been enjoying the visit from Dawn. She had only been 'out' for several days but by the way Dawn spoke she felt she had missed everything. "Xander led a group raid of that place where the bringers were and he totally . . ." A knock at the door stopped Dawn's ramble. Both girls looked to the door and Kennedy walked through.
"Hey. Glad to see you're alive" Kennedy said as she walked up to where Faith was currently resting.
"Thanks, Me too" Faith smiled.
Dawn looked at the clock and looked back at Faith.
"Okay I have to go. We are still in research mode" Dawn hugged Faith and exited the room, leaving the new slayer with the injured one.
"So how are you feeling?" Kennedy asked taking a seat where Dawn had been moments earlier. Kennedy examined her friend and noted the bruises and the ragged breaths she was taking.
Faith responded with a weak smile and thumbs up. Kennedy chuckled "So you feel like shit. Good to know." She took a deep breath "Listen I want to talk to you about something . . . or someone." Kennedy went straight to the point.
"What's wrong?" Faith asked concerned.
"Nothing bad Faith. Can I ask you something?" Kennedy waited for a response and proceeded with the question.
"How do you feel about Buffy?"
Faith was not prepared for that question but decided to answer the question . . . somewhat.
"Um she saved my life Ken, How do you think I feel?"
Kennedy grinned "In love?"
Faith's face went to a paler shade of white if possible and her mouth hung open. Kennedy was enjoying a bit too much the other slayer's reaction to the rhetorical question.
"Faith?" Kennedy asked as she waved her hand. "It's okay you know."
Faith looked directly at Kennedy. "Its fucked up, that's what it is Ken."
"Why? It's not so far fetched Faith, you said it your self, she saved your life and if I remember correctly you've saved hers and her sister's life" Kennedy made her way to Faith's bed and leaned in and kissed her forehead.
"Think about it. You are not alone in this." Kennedy walked out leaving Faith to think or re-think her relationship with the blonde slayer.
A blurry hand passed across her eyes. She could see lips moving but couldn't hear the words. Her body was tense preparing for battle. Her thoughts were scattered in to pieces. She closed her eyes and at a distance in the darkness she could make out a figure but before she could find out whom it was, Buffy opened her eyes.
"Buffy" Willow said as she continued to wave her hand back and forth in front of the blonde's face.
"Will, I can't" Buffy whispered and released a breath she had been holding. She was processing way too fast and she had ended up realizing, albeit falsely, that she and Faith didn't belong together. It was not far fetched. Buffy knew that. She had seen how Willow had been happily together with Tara and how Kennedy brought her best friend out from the darkness after Tara's death. Two girls together wasn't the issue. Could two slayers be together? Surely up until recently two slayers' hadn't existed to test that theory. However Buffy wasn't blind to see how some of the potentials and now turned slayers were becoming very close. The problem was that; it's Faith and Buffy the chosen two.
"I can't" Buffy repeated and exited Willow's room rapidly. In her rush, Buffy bumped pass Kennedy in the hallway whose smug smile faded as she saw the tears coming from the blonde. She left the building and walked around trying to get a hold of all the emotions her best friend had managed to stir.
The blonde slayer walked until the sun started to set. The extended walk had not helped her get her emotions worked out. She was confused, not by her feelings for Faith, but by what to do if anything. She worried and wished at the same time of what could be. For once in a very unbuffy manner surprising even her self, she agreed with her feelings. "I like Faith." Buffy huffed out and then she shook her head.
"No. I don't like Her. I love her?" She stopped and let her self savor the moment. She said it again without question. "I love Faith." She smiled, as she seemed to get some sort of peace from just speaking those words.
She was now standing in front of the elevator doors making her way up to see Faith. As she waited for the doors to open her body transformed into a teenager. Her stomach flipped upside down and her breath became uneven, needless to say the blonde slayer was very nervous.
She knocked on the door and then proceeded to enter. Faith was sleeping and the older slayer was thankful for that. She took a seat and just stared at the younger slayer. 'Could it work?' she thought to herself.
Faith's skin was still too pale. Her lips lacked the tint of red. Her hair was messy and her body seemed too thin. Yet Buffy couldn't help to see how beautiful the injured slayer was. Despite the awful ordeal Faith's body had gone through, Buffy studied the other slayer and found every single part so astonishing.
She lightly placed her hand on Faith's cheek and whispered very delicately "You are so beautiful you know?"
The blonde almost expected Faith to give her a flirtatious response but there was none. Her eyes never opened and her body laid still.
Buffy moved to sit on the small space open on the bed and moved her hand from the dark-haired slayer cheek to her hand. It felt right. The blonde slayer wanted nothing more than to hold Faith and take away the painful injuries the other slayer had suffered. She felt guilty for invading her space and getting this close to her but she thought this was the only way she would.
"You know I will kill her," Angel said behind Buffy.
The green-eyed slayer turned around in shock. She sat up off the bed and automatically put her self between Faith and the other person in the room.
"What!" Buffy said in disbelief seeing it was Angel speaking with such venom in his voice.
"I will kill her, Dawn and the slayers. I'll kill you last to make you witness everyone's death" Angel smirked. "You can't beat me slayer."
Then Angel disappeared. Buffy turned to look at Faith. She made sure the younger slayer hadn't witness anything. Fortunately for Buffy she was still sound asleep. Buffy absentmindedly kissed Faith's hand and marched out of the room.
Willow had been in research mode trying to figure out various answers. 1. Why the bringer had tried to kidnap Dawn 2. Why they had used that specific poison, and 3. How did her spell affect the slayer line?
"Will!" Buffy made her way thought study doors. "I need to talk to you. I need a Favor." Willow nodded and closed the book in front of her. The redhead led the slayer to a sitting area and motioned for Buffy to take a seat but the blonde refused.
"Will I need a spell that can keep the First from entering this place. I'm about to go dust Angel because of that thing." Buffy said as she paced back and forth trying to kill some of the adrenaline she had.
When the first had appeared and threatened Faith's life along with everyone else, her first instinct was to go kill Angel until she realized it wasn't really him.
"Buff I'm not sure I can do that, I tried it back in Sunnydale but it didn't work." Willow tried to comfort her friend who obviously had been disturbed by the First's appearance.
"Is there anything?" Buffy pleaded.
"I'll see what I can find out." Willow's face lit up "But in the meantime you can wear a protection necklace I got from the covenant. I'm not sure if it will work but it's worth a try." Buffy followed her friend to her room and while the redhead rummaged through her things, Buffy let another of her concerns slip out. "Will, do you think the First has haunted anyone else?"
The witch found the necklace and turned to face her best friend. "Maybe. Why do you think that?"
Buffy shrugged "Well I've seen it and Dawn has seen it."
Willow handed her friend the amulet. "Well I can see if I can get more of these and that spell going." Willow paused to study her friend's face. "Buffy. ." the witch rested her hand on Buffy's shoulder ". . It's okay you know?"
Buffy looked at her friend feeling the need to get something out "It's true I like her Will. I like her a lot. Is it that obvious?"
Willow's lips turned into a goofy smile, but after seeing Buffy so worried she attempted to lie. "Nope"
Buffy gave her friend a small smile. "Thanks Will"
"Anytime. You should talk to her Buffy. You might be surprised. Right now she can't really run away right?" Will joked making Buffy chuckle.
"Yeah. But what do I Say? Hey Faith I know I almost killed you, put you in a coma when you tried to kill me and somewhere along the line I fell in. Into you"
Willow caught the slip but decided no to push it. "Or . . . you can tell her that what happened before is in the past. You said it Buffy, she's made up for it. Heck I'm not a fan of hers but even I see that she has changed for the better and I've seen you two. Buffy you both have this thing that keeps you both in tune with each other. It's more than just slayers too and you know it Buffy; talk to her." Willow ended her little speech with a small smile.
Buffy smiled at her best friend. She was right. In her typical Willow rambles, she had set the record straight and gave Buffy comfort. "Thank you Will." Buffy hugged her best friend and got up to leave.
"Buffy, you two are special Got talk some sense into that girl." Willow repeated once again as Buffy exited the room. The Blonde slayer was now ready to do just that.
Faith had woken up a bit groggy. The medicine she was on was making her mind all fuzzy. She remembered the conversation with Kennedy and that was pretty much all she could think about while awake. Before she could continue to think about a pretty blonde slayer, she walked into the room.
"You're awake." Buffy stated a bit nervous.
"Yeah. Just woke up from my little nap. Everything okay?" Faith asked as she sensed an uneasy feeling radiating from the blonde.
Buffy lightly nodded and smiled. "Yup." The blonde fiddled with the necklace in her hand.
"What's that?" Faith asked.
Buffy lifted the necklace to allow the other slayer to see the object she was holding.
"It's a protection necklace. It's for you." Buffy smiled.
Faith was confused. Was she still asleep? Why in the world was Buffy bringing her necklaces.
"Don't look so scared Faith. It's something Willow found. It should keep the First from showing his incorporeal ass around you." She grabbed Faith's hand close to her own and slid the necklace on to it. "I got a visit earlier while you were asleep. I don't want you to have to endure any of those visits. You need to focus on recovering."
Faith looked down at the necklace and a soft smile formed on her lips then quickly faded. "No B, you should hold on to it. It visited you not me. You should be the one to have it." The brown-eyed slayer looked directly at Buffy's green eyes and extended her arm out to return the necklace. Buffy lost her thoughts the moment her eyes met the pair of chocolate brown orbs. The only thing she was able to muster was the other slayer's name. "Faith"
"Buffy" Faith mimicked the other slayer. Hearing her full name, Buffy was snapped out of her trance.
"Faith, please just hold on to it. Willow said she was going to find more. I'll get one soon okay? Just please hold on to it?" Buffy pleaded and Faith found it hard to say no to such an adorable plea.
"Fine." Faith said defeated and brought her arm back to rest next to her body. The slayers then sat in an uneasy silence. Buffy was trying to work up enough courage and the right words to open a dialogue with the other slayer.
"Faith, we should talk." Buffy started as she felt her body turn up her need for oxygen.
"We should?" Faith questioned.
Buffy nodded. "When we were in that slayer dream you were about to tell me something before stuff happened. What was it?"
Faith tensed up and was really hoping Buffy wouldn't remember much of that dream. Unfortunately, that was not the case. She decided to play dumb.
"I don't really remember B. All the painkillers have really made my mind all groggy." Faith said as she looked apologetically at the blonde. "Why do you ask?"
Buffy's confidence faltered and it showed in her composure. Her body slouched down and her eyes avoided contact with anything but her feet. "No reason. Just thought it was something important."
"When I remember, I'll tell you okay?" Faith said as she reached out to place her hand on Buffy's forearm. The dark-haired slayer couldn't stand to see the blonde sad so she told her something she though would make her happy. But the blonde barely responded to that statement. "Listen I've been stuck in here for a while and the medicine is really messing with me. We can talk once I'm out of here okay?" This time Buffy looked up with some anger behind her eyes.
"No Faith we can't talk later. Remember what happened last time we talked later?" The blonde shot back and continued. "You told me you were leaving. Leaving me." Buffy whispered the last part and fought to keep tears from forming. She was surprised at how emotional she was getting about this but didn't really care. She understood that it came with the territory.
Faith didn't know how to respond. She was taken back by the emotions Buffy was evidently having. She saw the panic and pain the blonde had and blamed her self for causing that. "Buffy, I'm sorry." She said shocking both of them.
"I'm sorry I tried to leave." Faith stated again. " I was scared and I didn't want to hurt you or anyone else. I figured leaving then was the best time seeing as I wasn't needed anymore." Faith finished and felt Buffy's hand on her own.
"Faith, that's not true." Buffy declared and squeezed the younger slayer's hand. Green eyes interlocked with brown eyes and both slayers found them selves overcome with the same feeling. The slayer connection intensified those feelings both feared to confess.
"I need you." Buffy whispered not breaking eye contact with Faith as she let tears fall freely.
A/N: Please review and let me know if you are still with this story. Like I said before I am so sorry for taking such a long time.