A/N: So this story will include the trilogy (obviously) and Four, let me know what you think!

Chapter 1: Tobias

My eyes feel scratchy and dry, I've been walking around the compound mindlessly over the past few hours trying not to think of Tris too much. I did see Caleb at the end of a hallway but he turned and ran the other way, I didn't want to see him just yet.

I cried harder than I think I've ever cried before when they told me, even when my mother "died" or when my father hit me I didn't cry as much. Christina tried to comfort me, or maybe it was comfort for her, either way I left. I feel badly for leaving her there to deal with this alone but I don't know any other way to grieve. Tris was the only one who knew how to comfort me.

There it is again. No matter what I can't stop thinking about her, she was my girlfriend for a short amount of time and there was so much going on in our relationship but I still loved her more than I've loved anything else in the entire world. The thought of doing anything else with my life without her in it makes it seem worthless, like I would just be going through the motions to make it seem like she didn't die in vain.

Somehow I end up back at the dorm we were staying in and find everyone quiet, not the type of quiet that happens when you walk into a room of people talking about you but the kind that you know has been there for a while. Peter sits on his bed staring at the wall, he and Tris weren't anything close to being friends but they saved each other's lives a couple of times, and he tried to kill her. Instead of having a biting remark about her he stands and claps a hand on my shoulder. "I'm really sorry Four." His voice is low but I know he means it, I can only nod in response and move towards Christina who is sitting with Cara.

"How are you?" I nod to Cara too, I feel like I can't say I'm alright because that would be a lie but I also can't say that I'm dying inside because that would make me seem weak.

"Christina," She looks up to me with bloodshot eyes, they meet mine and immediately she is on her feet and her arms are around my torso. "I'm sorry for running away like that."

"Shut up. I know why you did it but I just can't wrap my head around it." Her voice is cracking with emotion and I barely understand what she's saying but her arms are wrapped around me so much I can feel what she's saying. I hesitantly put my arms around her shoulders and squeeze. It feels weird holding another girl in my arms especially only a few hours after my girlfriend died but I know that she would want me to console her best friend.

We stand like that for only a few more minutes before Caleb walks in the room. I see Peter send him a pitying glance before going back to staring at the wall and Christina and I watch as he walks up to us.

"Can we talk, please?" Christina gives my arm a small squeeze before I walk out to the hallway with him, I notice that his eyes are as dry and red as mine and his nose looks the same. "She wanted me to tell you something before…she said she didn't want to leave you."

I want to tell him that she will never leave me that she will always been a part of my life and I won't ever let her go. Instead I close my eyes and lean back against the wall, "Why?"

"Why did she do it instead of me?" He shakes his head, his normally very tamed Erudite hair is a mess like he's been running his hands through it. "I wish I could tell you but even when she was Beatrice I never knew why she did anything."

"What did she say before everything happened?" I feel like I need to know everything about her last moments even knowing that it will kill me.

"When we realized that the guards were behind us and that I needed to give her the bag, then she said that I was her hostage and told me that she loved me. Before she ran off she told me to tell you that she didn't want to leave you and that's the last thing she said to me." We stood together for a while, the quiet sinking between us. "I know that I messed up with her in a way that she could have never forgiven me for and even the last thing she said to me was about you, she loved you so much. I have never seen her with so much emotion for one person, even our parents. You were good for her, you pushed her in ways that she had never been pushed before and believed in her. Because of that I don't want to just throw everything away."

Something inside of me snaps. "You delivered her to her own execution, you abandoned her when she needed you most, and you let her die. Every time I look at you all I see is her and I can't do that to myself right now. If you want to make things right I will need some time."

Turning on my heel I hear the slap of my shoes on the floor but I don't hear any other footsteps so I know I'm alone. I'm not alone for long though because Christina and Cara are in the lobby, waving me over I feel a rush of emotions overcome me. I didn't even see them walk out of the dorm but I'm glad they still want to talk to me like I'm human.

"They're unplugging Uriah, thought you'd want to know."

I nod and follow them silently, Zeke was one of my first friends in Dauntless and I feel like I failed him. In the past twenty-four hours I've lost more people than I ever thought possible.

The afternoon was a blur, I tried not to think too much about everything going on and continued wandering around watching as everyone tried to figure out everything that had been taken from them.

All the good memories Tris and I had ran through my mind, how I helped her out of the net after she was first jumper and how I remember feeling her warmth underneath the Abnegation clothes and how she looked into my eyes and smiled. I remember our first kiss sitting on the rock with the spray hitting our feet after showing her my fear landscape. I remember sitting on my bed watching her sleep peacefully after being attacked and how I felt murderous.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I barely noticed Matthew running towards me waving his arms in a frenzy. "Tobias you need to come with me, now!"

"What's going on?"

The smile on his face made me think, hope that it was something good. "You're going to want to see this with your own eyes."

We ran to the hospital section of the compound where only an hour ago I had watched my best friend say goodbye to his little brother, Caleb was standing by the door with Christina, Cara, and Peter all with confused looks on their faces.

"I think you two should be the first to see this." Pointing to me and Caleb he opened the door and ushered us through. I ran into Caleb who had stopped suddenly in the doorway, but being taller than him I could see what shocked him.

Tris. Sitting up. Awake.

"Hi." Her voice seemed raw and tired, her body sagged a bit.

Running around Caleb I crashed into her wincing at the hurt noise that escaped her throat and wrapping my arms tightly around her small frame, kissing every part of her head until finally my lips cover hers in a kiss that poured all of my emotions into it so she could feel everything I felt. "You died." Probably the stupidest thing I could say, it was so obvious what happened but I couldn't think of anything else.

"I know. I didn't want to, if there had been any other way I wouldn't have left you at all." Tears brimmed in her eyes threatening to spill over to her cheeks. "I'm so sorry."

"How is this possible?" Caleb was rooted in the same spot trying to process what was happening.

"Nice to see you too." Tris laughed and watched as he brother lurched forward and tentatively hugged her. "I think Matthew can explain it better than I can."

Turning to him we waited for him to speak but he only motioned to the door. "Should I let the others in?"

Nodding he opened the door and we watched as the others walked in, when Christina saw Tris she ran just as I did and entangled herself in Tris sobbing into her shoulder.

"What is this?" Cara asks standing by Caleb. Always the Erudite.

"Well, the death serum didn't work on Tris and she did in fact die, but she died because of the bullet wounds and lack of blood. So I grabbed her as soon as I could and hooked her up to some blood bags and machines and finally she started showing signed of life. What's odd is that any other person and it would have been impossible but there was something about her DNA that I couldn't quite figure out and decided to take a chance, and here we are."

I realized that my hand was getting sweaty because of how hard I was holding Tris' but I just don't care. She's alive and it's all I can do to not cry or jump with joy.

"So, her divergence helped her un-die?" Matthew nodded and shrugged at the same time.

"It's not something we've tested for obviously because once you die normally you stay dead, but I remembered that there was something in her DNA that was different somehow and thought that maybe it would be worth trying. Evidently, it was."

Finally I let go of Tris' hand and walk over to Matthew, I don't show much affection because of my Abnegation roots but I throw my arms around and hug him tightly. "Thank you."

"Well I'd like to keep her here for the next few days just to make sure there are no after affects but I think that if there haven't been by now there won't be." His eyes meet mine. "I can assume you'll be staying with her?"

"You're damn right I will be."

Her smile is infectious and soon I'm grinning widely too watching as everyone celebrates her survival. Caleb stands next to his sisters head keeping a hand on her shoulder, she hasn't glared or yelled at him so maybe she has forgiven him but for now she's just trying not to fall asleep on her friends.

Eventually Matthew kicks everyone out and promising to be back with a mattress and blanket he leaves and finally we're alone. I wish I could tell her how much she means to me, how all I could think of after seeing her body was following her into the unknown but I don't. I can't. If I open my mouth I'm afraid that I'll only start to cry.

I'm saved by her warm fingers running across my jaw and I close my eyes, this was something I thought I would never get again.

Matthew returns with a small mattress and blankets and bids us good night checking the machines before turning off the lights and leaving.

"I love you." It was something I had said in my mind a million times since she died, whispering it in the silence means more now than it never will.

"I love you too Tobias."

Our fingertips touch and I let her fall asleep, we can talk about everything in the morning.

A/N: Well, what does everyone think? There are a few minor changes but nothing super serious…except for the fact that Tris is alive.