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Chapter 9

Tris's P.O.V.

I feel weak...really weak..somethings wrong and I hear Tobias crying. Wait? What? Tobias never cries.

I try to open my eyes but I just can't. What's wrong with me? Someones holding my hand. I don't know who.

Then I hear a voice.

"Tris I don't know if you can hear me but I just want you to know-a sob erupts from is body-th-that I love you. And today they're gonna pull the plug. They're gonna end your life. Please Tris. I know you are in there. Please. In 10 minutes you will be gone forever. Please. I love you and I don't think I can do it with out you...Listen, I know that you may not have the fight in you...you know to push through. Because your mom,dad, and brother died. But I'll be your family. We can have a family and have kids. Please. Please Tris find all the fight in you to squeeze my hand. Anything."

I hear a door open and close.

"Four it's time." the doctor says

Tobias let's a sob escape from his body and stands up. I feel him slowly rub my hair. He kisses me on top of the head and I feel one of his tears drip on my cheek. He brushes it away and grabs my hand.

The doctor says 5...4...

No no no no no! I can't leave Toby! NO he's my true love. NO! I need to stay. I need to stay for him. For tobias. I think as hard as i can and I concentrate on squeezing my hand.

3...2...

I use all my energy and squeeze his hand.

"Stop!" Tobias says

"Sh-she squeezed my hand!" he says

"Many families make up things and think that they feel things when it's just in their brain." The doctor says

"NO! She did! Look!"

Oh no! I have to do it again. But I do.

I hear the doctor say

"We have to take the breathing tubes out and then see if she can breathe on her own." as he does this I take a huge gulp of air.

2 days later

I still don't have the energy to do anything. I think Tobias still thinks I'm gonna die because he still cries when he's in here. I haven't opened my eyes. Or moved since that happened. But today I am determined to open my eyes. I have to do it. I have to. For toby.

I wake up-eyes still closed-and hear someone in the room. The person sits down beside me and grabs my hand..its Tobias. He starts to talk to me. Sweet and loving as usual. And I do it. I open my eyes.

As they flutter open I see Tobias. Looking down and a tear running down his cheek. I look at him for a while because he doesn't look up. So I talk. I say

"Toby" its so quiet its almost a whisper. He looks up and...

Sorry thats all i could write today! 20 reviews and i'll post another chapter! I am truly deeply sorry about not posting for so long. I love you all! See you when 20 reviews come!