Sam turned the corner and ran planning on heading home she went to the changing room first to change into civvies, unable to hold her tears she locked herself in a toilet stall and cried, only when she heard the door to the newly installed women's locker room did she even try to stop
"Hello" she heard a concerned voice say from behind the stall she recognised it as Lt Rivers from Sg5, Sam tried to sniffle her sobs further until she heard a gentle knock
"Everything ok" Rivers asked, Sam replied
"Everything's fine thank you Lt" Sam said reminding the Lt of her rank and place in order to stop the onslaught of questions
"Ok Mam" Sam heard Rivers leave before beginning to cry again, Rivers just caught her starting to cry as she shut the door, concerned she went to find Janet knowing they were close friends she found her in the infirmary writing up paperwork
"Dr Frasier, do you have a minute?" Rivers asked nervously, Janet turned a brief look of surprise flickered across her face
"Sure my office" Janet invited
"No thanks, it just Captain Carter is crying in the locker room and I know you are close I thought you could talk to her" Janet nodded automatically worried about what it might be
"Thank you Tracey" she said surprising Rivers that she knew her first name
"Michelle I'm going for a walk beep me if you need me" She called to her head nurse who nodded then headed to the locker room silently opening the door she crept in
"Sam" Janet said the sobbing stopped
"Janet" a hesitant reply came
"Its me" she answered "You going to come out and talk about it" Janet asked
She heard a click of the lock and saw a tear streaked face emerged Janet sat her on the bench locking the door so a least they would have warning if someone came in before taking a seat next to her friend
"Sam what is wrong, it is something to do with Teal'c family?" Janet asked thinking that was pretty much the only new thing unless Jess was unwell the thought came at the same time as the sense of dread that filled her heart, she asked the burning question
"Jessie she is ok isn't she?" Sam nodded, Janet felt really relieved
"I told the guys, well Daniel and Colonel O'Neill" Sam said really quietly, Janet held her breath guessing it hadn't gone to good if her friend was sitting in the toilets on her own.
"They didn't believe me said I would be an unfit mum cus I worked to much and said that even I wasn't evil enough to have a kid and get somebody else to look out for it while I worked, and what if I died Jan, she have no mum no dad and her only family wouldn't know about her" Sam started crying again while Janet hid her anger at Jack and Daniel
"Sam they didn't mean that" Janet tried
"No Jan they are right I am being selfish which is why I have decided to retire my commission and leave the SGC" Sam said firmly
"Sam you can't we need you, earth needs you, Sg1 needs you, you can retire and look after Jess but what good will that do when Aphosis enslaves us all," Janet said she'd had this discussion with Sam before both ways one deiciding to quit and the other talking them out of it, but this time Sam was adamant
"I can't Jan I can be a consultant if ever you really need me I will come back but I need to be with Jess"
"And when she goes to school" Janet challenged
"Then I will get a job at a university heck even in a shop but I will come home" Sam said wiping her eyes, she stood up
"And Arielle?" Janet asked thinking of the young nanny
"She handed in her notice last week she wants to travel now she has some money, this works out perfectly" Sam explained
"And think now I can baby sit Cassie more" Sam said with a smile, then without another word she went to the door,
"See ya round Jan"
After hours with Hammond explaining her reasons and ignoring his begging even the president had asked her reconsider, Sam was firm but a compromise was eventually made
Sam would retire from the military and work the hours Jess was at nursery and eventually school as Jess was nearing 3 years old nowSam felt confident this would work out for the better, she asked it was effective immediately they were so grateful she was staying on they agreed
"Do you want to tell your team?" Hammond asked her as she stood up Sam grimaced looking at him begging him to volunteer, he nodded
"I will tell them Sam but they won't be happy" he warned her, she nodded
"I know" Sam said "But this is for the best, it's for Jess" She said sticking by her decision
"Very well I will see you tomorrow at 9am Captain" Sam smiled
"Not for much longer" Sam said sadly leaving to go home, happy she had made the right decision her team had done that much to help.
Ok another short chapter I am sorry it was just a good place to stop the next few are really really long to make up for it so forgive me??
Thanks again for all the reviews, they really are encouraging.