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Chapter 7- If I Can't have You

Don't know why I'm surviving ev'ry lonely day

When there's got to be

No chance for me

My life would end

And it doesn't matter how I cry

My tears so far are a waste of time

If I turn away

Am I strong enough to see it through?

Go crazy is what I will do

Zain closed the office behind him and smiled to himself. He was glad that he and Sam were still together. Zain looked around when the doors to CID opened and Phil walked through them, 'morning Zain,' he said.

'Morning Phil,' Zain replied. 'Why weren't you at the rehearsal yesterday?'

'I was ill,' Phil lied. 'Why, what's happened?'

'Me and Sam had a big row last night,'

'About?'

'You, amongst other things. She called me a selfish, self-centred bastard and I told that I hadn't got a clue why I was marrying her,'

'What happened then?'

'She took the car and drove off. I felt guilty about arguing with her and I thought she might've gone to Jo's so I went round there 'cos I wanted to apologise, she wasn't there. I got home and waited till about midnight, when Sam didn't come back, I went to bed. I didn't sleep last night because I was thinking, that's it, I've lost the best thing that's ever happened to me. I didn't see her until about 45minutes ago,'

'Have you spoken to her?'

'Yeah, we talked and I apologised. The good thing is, she still wants to go through with it so everything's OK,'

'Where'd she been?' Phil asked.

Zain shrugged, 'didn't you ask?' Phil said.

'I don't care Phil, she's back with me now and that's all that matters. We're still getting married and you're still the best man,'

Phil smiled weakly. Just then, Sam came out of her office, 'listen you two, I've got a job for you,' she said.

'What is it?' Zain replied.

'Stabbing on the Cole Lane Estate,'

'We'll take it,' Phil said.

Sam smiled at Zain and kissed him softly on the lips while he groped her backside. Phil looked away pointedly at this point. When he heard the office door close, he turned back to Zain. 'You get the car sorted Zain, I won't be long,' Phil said as he gazed into Sam's office.

If I can't have you

I don't want nobody baby

If I can't have you

Uh-huh oh

If I can't have you

I don't want nobody baby

If I can't have you

Uh-huh oh

Zain nodded and left CID to descend the staircase. Phil waited until he'd completely disappeared from view before pushing down on the handle of the office door. He stepped inside and closed it behind him. Sam looked up from the sheaf of papers on her desk, 'you left early this morning,' Phil said.

'Phil don't do this, there's nothing to say,' Sam replied.

'Isn't there? You can't keep ignoring this Sam,'

'Can't I?'

'No, you can't. You're getting married in just over a week and a half. Look Sam what we had-'

'It was sex Phil, I was upset and I needed someone to talk to,'

'From what I can remember, we didn't do much talking,' Phil smirked. 'You can't just carry on like nothing has happened.'

'What do you want from me Phil?' Sam asked.

'I want you to tell me how you really feel,' Phil replied.

Sam looked up at him, 'I don't know what you thought last night was Phil but all I know is the only thing I felt when I woke up this morning was guilt. I felt guilty about betraying Zain because it's him I love, not you,' she said as she picked up the papers and left the office.

Phil's gaze followed Sam as she left CID. He had to do something about this; he still loved Sam no matter what she just said. Phil wanted to know how Sam really felt about him.

Can't let go and it doesn't matter how I try

I gave it all so easily to you my love

Two dreams that never will come true

Am I strong enough to see it through?

Go crazy is what I will do

If I can't have you

I don't want nobody baby

If I can't have you

Uh-huh oh

If I can't have you

I don't want nobody baby

If I can't have you

Uh-huh oh

A couple of days later, Phil decided to talk to Sam again. Zain was doing an interview with Jo this was the perfect opportunity to talk to her. He knocked on the office door, 'come in!' Sam called.

Phil opened the office door. 'I'm busy Phil,' Sam said. 'Can't this wait?'

Phil shook his head, 'I'm sorry Sam,' he replied. 'I had to see you.'

Sam stood up and watched over to the door, closing it behind them. 'You can't do this to me Phil,' she said. 'You have to forget what happened between us, for all our sakes,'

'I can't,'

'You'll ruin things between me and Zain,'

'I don't care,'

'Don't you?' Sam asked.

'Just tell me you don't feel the same about me and then I'll go,' Phil replied.

'You've gotta go Phil,'

'I just wanna hear you say it,'

Sam stayed silent for a minute, 'you see,' Phil finally said. 'You can't say that you don't feel the same because you know it's not true.'

'It was mistake Phil,'

'You don't mean that Sam. That night, you could've gone somewhere else, to Jo's, but you didn't. You came to me which suggests that perhaps, there is a part of you that wanted it to happen,' Phil said.

Sam again, stayed silent for a few moments, 'I've gotta go,' she finally said as she picked up some papers before walking into the main CID office.

Phil looked sadly at the woman he loved, who was now discussing a case with Mickey. He had to do it. He just couldn't go through with it, he had to tell Zain…

If I can't have you

I don't want nobody baby

If I can't have you

Uh-huh oh

If I can't have you

I don't want nobody baby

If I can't have you

Uh-huh oh

If I can't have you

I don't want nobody baby

If I can't have you

Uh-huh oh

If I can't have you

I don't want nobody baby

If I can't have you

Uh-huh oh

(If I Can't Have You- Yvonne Elliman)

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