BlairPOV-

My dad's not exactly the type of person that you can reason with. He always has to be right, always has to be in charge, always has to make me feel worthless. Considering the fact that he has never really been there for me, it's no surprise that his disinterest in me turned to disgust when I finally mustered up the strength to come out of the closet. And, as messed up as it all is, I still love him.

My mom has not been much help, either. She's not one to disagree with my dad, which left me defending myself most of the time. I love her, I really do. I just wish she wouldn't let my dad push her- or, rather, us- around so much. She's smart, she is a doctor, she is beautiful. She could have anyone that she wants, but she stays with my dad.

Candace is… well, she's Candace. My older sister moved to California to go to college, and has been there ever since. Trying to make it as an actress. She's got the talent, when she's not vain about it. She's stunning, too. She's got our dad's bright eyes, soft brown hair, and nose. She's not around a lot, and doesn't call a lot. Which I guess I can't blame her for.

As soon as I leave Ohio, I'm never looking back.

With a groan, I force myself to get out of bed, padding towards the cold wood floor to my vanity.

When I look in the mirror, I see the same dark hair and eyes and skin tone of my mother. I don't see the beautiful woman that she is, but someone who doesn't know exactly who she is.

And she is very unhappy about it.

Because she also sees the things others don't- the faded scars, the bruises turning yellow, the years and years of unhappiness that have built up until she's desperate for relief.

However she can get it.

With a sigh, I pull out some clothes, getting ready to face another school day.

Other than the never ending drama that is the glee club, Cheerios practice, and Noah Puckerman, I like school. It's the only place I've been able to hang out with Tina, Mercedes, Artie, and Sam.

The fact that Kate is there is just a bonus. We've only been dating for a short while, and we're not official. It's something, though, and that's good.

''Sarah, are you going to be eating breakfast,'' my mom asks, eyeing my outfit choice as I reach the bottom of the stairs, ''Are you sure you want to wear that.''

I can admit the wine colored bustier top is a bit revealing, but I'll have my jacket over it. My jeans are no tighter than they usually are, and I always wear heels.

So what's the big deal?

''Mom, I'm going to be late. I'll just grab something on the way to school,'' I glance over at my dad, then back at my mom.

''Alright. I have to work late tonight. Your dad should be home, though. Dinner will be in the refrigerator.''

''Alright, mom. Love you,'' I kiss her cheek, grabbing my bags and rushing out of the door before I have to speak to my dad.

There's a lot of things that we should talk about, but won't. We're both too stubborn. Most words go unspoken.

Some words I wish would have said when I had the chance.

''Blair!,''Kate's at my locker, books clutched to her chest ,''I've been waiting for you!''

''Hey, gorgeous,'' I kiss her on the cheek, ''What's up?''

''The Lima Community Theatre is doing a production of A Christmas Carol. I know you're reading that, and I thought you'd maybe want to go. It's this Saturday,'' she tucks light brown hair behind her ear, ''And you can just stay over afterwards.''

''That sounds great. Just let me clear it with my parents first.''

Like they care.

''Great. Well, I'll see you in class. Bye,'' she turns on her heels, walking away quickly.

And I get ready for another day at the hell hole that is this high school.

KatePOV-

''Kate? Kate, is that you?''

Whoever is on the other side of the bathroom stall was standing here for a good minute before knocking on the door.

''N-no.''

''Katy,'' I recognize Blair's voice speaking ,''I know that's you. I recognize the shoes. Please come out, babe?''

With a sigh, O hesitantly push the door open, marching pass my girlfriend to the sinks and staring in the mirror.

''Kate? What's wrong?,'' Blair leans against a sink, crossing her arms over her chest.

I try to ignore the way it pushes her boobs up.

''What's wrong?,'' I wipe my eyes, ''Why the hell are you still hooking up with Santana? Can I assume that means you are still sleeping with Sabrina, too?''

''Yeah. I mean, we never talked about being exclusive, Kate. I didn't think…,'' she licks her lips, takes a deep breath, then focuses on me, ''If you want this, want us to be exclusive, then we can be. I want that if it's what you want.''

''I want…. I want you to be my girlfriend. Just my girlfriend,'' I clarify, nodding, ''That's what I want.''

''Okay then,'' Blair slides her hand into mine, ''I will break it off with Sabrina, Santana, and the Mack. Okay?''

I have to admit that did put me in a better mood. All of my classes were met with a smile, I sat next to Blair at lunch, I didn't mind getting a C on my test.

Unfortunately, wonderful feelings never last long for me.

BlairPOV-

''So, we are going to go classroom to classroom singing Christmas carols!''

As usual, Mr. Schuester is far more excited about this idea than the rest of us.

''Classrooms in this school?''

''With students in them?''

''We're gonna get killed.''

My thoughts exactly.

''No, we're not. And, we are going to perform at McKinley High School's first ever WInter Concert.''

''Isn't that just, like, solidifying our status as complete and total losers,'' Santana quirks an eyebrow.

''Guys, come on. We should at least try to be positive about this,'' Finn tries, 'What do we need to do, Mr. Schue?''

''I've already come up with a list of songs, and people who would be best suited to sing them. Blair, Santana, Tina, and Quinn? There's Christmas (Baby please come home) by Darlene Love. I'd like you four to start practicing. Blair, can you come get the sheet music.''

I stand takin my jacket as I do. Because, for some reason, the choir room is way too hot, even for the middle of winter.

''Damn,'' Puck whispers, and I still my movements, ''Who knew Anderson had such a nice ass.''

I can feel my cheeks heat up, air coming out in ragged breaths.

''Excuse me, Puck. My ass isn't for you to leer at. I don't stare at you, dumbass. You're making me uncomfortable and you're going to stop.''

I can act brave when I don't feel that way at all. I have perfected that.

That's one of the few things my dad has taught me.

''Hey, Blair!,'' I look up from my phone to see my next door neighbor, Nikki Sterling, waving at me.

Nikki and I were kinda friends when I went to Crawford. She's nice, she's smart, and she's quiet. The polar opposite of her girlfriend Jessica, but I guess that could be why they work out so well.

Like Kate and I- the sweet, innocent girl falling for the bad girl that could break her heart at any minute.

And, oh, could I break her heart.

''Hey. How are you?''

''Great. Jess and I were just wondering who that cute brunette you were at the mall with is,'' she smirks, pushing her hair off her face.

''Kate? She's my girlfriend,'' I shrug, ''Is this what you and your girlfriend do? Spy on me?''

''No, no. We just happened to be there, and we saw you. It took five minutes to convince Jess not to go over there,'' she smiles fondly, obviously thinking of the blonde who's stolen her heart.

''I appreciate that. We could double date sometime,'' I nod, taking some hair behind my ear.

''Great. Well, I gotta go pick Jess up. I'll see you later,'' she waves goodbye, heading toward her car.

I enter my house, letting the warmth wash over me as I do.

''Pam? That you.''

And the warm feeling is gone.

''It's me, dad,'' I shrug my coat of, hanging it up and sliding my boots off.

''Oh. I thought it was someone important,'' he laughs to himself, and I try not to let it bother me

''I'm going to my room,'' I shake it off, opening the text from Sabrina.

Sabrina:

Babe, can you come over? I need you.

Last week, I would have jumped at the chance, bt fr a different reason. Today, we'll have to talk about why we can't hook up anymore: because I finally have a girlfriend. I don't want to hurt Kate, and what Sabrina and I have… had was just for fun. No feelings, just sex.

That's over now. I'm not losing Kate when we've only started dating. Sabrin can't even be mad- we're not together. She made it very clear that she never wanted to be my girlfriend, and I accepted that.

So she should have no problem with this.

''Dad,'' I turn, rushing down the stairs, ''I'm going out.''

He grunts in response, not caring.

Then again, he never does.

And that's fine. I don't need him to.

Me:

I'll be over soon. I wanna talk to you.

Hopefully it goes as well as I am expecting it to.

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