Chord's Prov:
I don't think I could feel wore at the moment. How could I have let thing go from bad to worse. I was to blame for everything that was going on right now. Why did I have to react the way I did a few days ago? I mean punching Marcus and then acting like a player isn't me at all. I have never been one to play girls or do games. So I should have known messing around with other girls just to get back at Amber was a bad idea. It never works out good when you mess with peoples emotions.
I felt like shit after Amber told me what she did. I had no idea she told Marcus she liked me. I had no idea she even liked me.
I hated being in the position we were right now. I knew she was mad at me and I knew there wasn't anything I could do to change her mind at the moment. I wish I would have just told her how I was feeling. I wish I would have just went after her and not been such a dick. The moment I knew I had feelings for her I should have just told her.
Now were going on our second day of not talking and it's the day of the wedding. I have been threw hell these last few days. I have constantly tried to talk to Amber but she just puts it off and ignores me. I knew I messed up with my actions, but I just wanted a chance to prove to her that I was sorry. That what I did was wrong. I knew going into this that I would fall for Amber. I started this whole thing hoping she would realize how much I wanted her. I wanted to know if she felt the same way about me.
I have always had hard feelings for Amber. I can remember the day we met. She was so beautiful and vibrant. I couldn't stop looking at her, I was constantly trying to make her laugh or smile. I just couldn't help myself, I loved to see her smile. So from that day on I made it my mission in life to make her smile as much as I could. Everyday I found new and creative way to make her laugh. As time went on I found myself liking her more and more. I wanted so badly to make a move back then but I was afraid. Afraid of what my fans would think, what my friends would think, what my parents would think. I was to caught up in the world, and to worried about what others thought. I was a dumb kid back then.
"Hey man. how are you doing?" I was brought out of my train of thought. I turned around to see mike standing there looking at me with concern.
"I'm fine." I said to him as I tuned back around.
"Dude do I look like I was born yesterday? I know when my best friend is upset. You look like hell man." Mike said to me. I heard him walk over to me, and he sat down. "Come on dude you know you can talk to me." He said to me as he nudged me some.
I let out a loud sigh. "Mike I don't know what I am going to do. I feel like this whole thing is out of control. I let my feelings and my jealously get the best of me."
"Dude you love her, you do know that right?" He asked me as he turned to fully look at me.
"I know that."
"Well does she know that?" He asked.
I let out another sigh. "She doesn't." Mike punched me in the arm. I flinched some because it hurt. " What the fuck Mike that hurt." I said to him as I rubbed my arm.
"You want to know what your problem is Chord? Your to afraid to go after what you want. You want Amber then go fucking get her. You don't stop until she hears you out and listens to everything you have to say. You need to be forceful and let her know that you will do anything for her." He said to me.
I knew what he was saying was right. Why Amber and I were so messed up was because we had no communication at the moment. We held our feelings in and played games now we were both suffering for no reason.
"I have to get her back." I said to him as I stood up and fixed my shirt. I have to at least let her know how I feel. I have held my feelings in for to long. I will regret it if I don't.
"Hey man if it makes you feel any better, Jenna say's Amber has been just as messed up as you have been." He said to me as he gave me a light slap on the back. Honestly it didn't make me feel good, I hated knowing she was just as miserable as I was. Neither of us should be upset. I had to make things right. I had to let Amber know how I truly felt, even if she didn't feel the same way.
Amber's Prov:
I have been miserable the last few days. I really didn't have an energy to do anything. My glee family was amazing to me. They were always around me trying to make me feel better. But really nothing was making me feel okay. I knew that this arrangement was going to end badly. I knew that if I did what we did that I would fall for him. I had already had strong feelings for Chord. I always had, I can still remember the first day I had met him. I couldn't take my eyes off of him. Don't get me wrong all the guys on the show were good looking, but Chord was in a league all his own. He had that whole hot boy next door thing going on.
I have always liked him and had liked the way he had always made it appoint to talk to me or to make me laugh. Even as the years went on he continue to make me laugh and smile. My crush for him grew stronger but I knew he didn't want to be with me. I knew that he was only being friendly and saw me more as a sister then a love interest so I never tried to think anything of it. I just pushed the way he would make me feel off, so I didn't look like a fool.
But in the end I still ended up looking like a fool, because here I was pinning over a man that really didn't like me. Naya had spent the last few days trying to tell me that I should talk to him. She kept saying we should both stop being little babies about it and actually talk to each other. I knew in some ways she was right, but I didn't want to admit it. Maybe it was because I didn't want to feel anymore hurt then I was at the moment. I didn't want to get more attached or try to reopen the wounds that I had. I just wanted to enjoy the rest of the time I had with my glee family, and enjoy Lea's wedding.
"Hey hot mama, how are you feeling?" Chris asked me as he sat down next to me on the couch.
"I'm fine Chris." I said to him, lying through my teeth.
"Amber, I know when your lying. I have known you for over eight years, so I know when your lying. So again I am going to ask you, how are you feeling hot mama?" He questioned.
I let out a loud sigh and turned to look at him. I could feel my eyes starting to water. "I'm a mess Chris." I said to him as I leaned closer to him and let him engulf me into a hug. I cried into his chest and let him stroke my back.
"Hey where is my strong women at?" He asked me as he continued to rub my back. "Hey it's going to be okay, I promise you." As he continued to rub my back and try to sooth me I felt someone else sit on the side of me. I let go of Chris so I could turn to see who it was. When I turned I saw Jenna sitting there smiling at me.
"Hey girly it's a happy day. Your suppose to be happy. Lea is really worried about you." Jenna said as she grabbed my hadn't and squeezed it some.
I nodded my head. " I knew she was worried about me." She kept asking me if I was okay. And checking on me when ever she could. I felt bad considering her wedding was coming up and everyone was worried about me. "I have to put on a smile for her." I said to them as I wiped the tears away from my eyes.
"That's the Amber I know. At least get threw the wedding, then we can get drunk together at the reception." Jenna said as she gave me a side hug. I couldn't help but smile some at her words. I nodded my head in agreement, I was definitely going to need a drink to get tonight over with.
"Thanks for being here for me guys." I said to them as they group hugged me. "Okay lets go help our girl get ready for her wedding."
The rest of the evening went by great. I put a smile on for Lea, and she looked really happy to see me happy. We were only minutes away from the wedding and I was feeling excited for Lea and Matthew. I knew how much they loved each other and how much they have been threw. I was currently waiting in line with the rest of the brides maids, when Dianna came out of the room.
"She's not going to do it, she's not getting married." Dianna said to us as she looked around frantically.
"What?!" We all basically said at the same time.
"She said she can't do it. I kept asking why and all she said was she can't do it."
I couldn't believe what I was hearing? I mean this is Lea. She never makes rash decisions like this. I knew there had to be something wrong.
"I'll go talk to her." I said to them as I gave Naya my flowers and walked into Lea's room. I closed the door behind me. I found Lea sitting by the window crying. "Lea lovey what's wrong?" I asked as I went over to her and sat down next to her.
"I can't do it Amber." She said to me as she started to cry harder.
"Why can't you do it? There has to be a reason," I said to her as I rubbed her shoulder and brought her closer to me.
She was silent for a while, then she moved away from me some to look at me. I can't stop thinking about Cory."
Now I knew why she was upset. Not many people knew it but Cory and Lea were planning to get married before he died. Only their close friends and family knew about.
"Oh Lea." I brought her closer and hugged her tightly. " He would want you to be happy. He wouldn't want you to be pinning away after him. He would want you to be happy and living your life. He would want you to find love again." I said to her as I rubbed her back and gave her a kiss on the top of her head.
She moved back some and looked at me. "Do you really think so?" She asked me.
"Yes I know so." I took her head into my hands and wiped the tears, "Matthew loves you Lea, and you love him. You guys have been threw so much. He helped you get threw a big chapter in your life. He loves you unconditionally, and you love him the same. Your guys belong together, and I honestly believe that if Cory was here he would tell you the same thing."
She stopped crying and smiled at me. "I know you right. It's just sometimes I miss him a lot, you know?"
I nodded my head. "I know what you mean, but he's here with you Lea. He will always be with you. You carry him in your heart." She gave me a big smile.
"Thanks for being here for me Amber. I don't know what I would have done if you weren't here. I love you so much." She said to me as she gave me a hug.
"I love you too." I said to her as I hugged her back. "Now lets get you ready for your wedding." I said to her as I grabbed her hand and pulled her up with.
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