Chapter 6
When I awoke it, was dusk and the sun was just setting. Bill was sitting in a chair next to my bed.
"Your awake!"
"You always were observant Bill." I hated myself for the bitterness that crept into my voice, but I could not keep it out.
He shifted awkwardly.
"Are you okay?"
I snorted at the question. "Yes Bill. I was just tortured for three weeks by deatheaters for information I had no clue about, but that does not matter at all, I am just dandy! And how are you doing?"
I have really freaked him out now. He gets this hurt puppy look on his face and I hate myself even more for hurting him. Nevertheless, I cannot seem to stop now. It is as if all the bitterness and hurt feeling I ever felt are coming to the surface. I am shouting now.
"WHAT I'm ATTACKED AND ALL OF SUDDEN YOU CARE! YOU GUYS HAVE NEVER CARED FOR ME! MY WHOLE CHILDHOOD I WAS THE ODD ONE OUT! YOU HAD CHARLIE, FRED HAD GEORGE, RONHAD GINNY! EVERONE EXECPET ME HAD SOMEONE ELSE! YOU GUYS ALWAYS LEFT ME OUT JUST BECAUSE I WAS AS FUNNY OR CAREFREE ASYOU! AND DID YOU KNOW THIS PAST YEAR I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH PAYING ALL MY BILLS AND I HAVE BEEN SO BLOODY DEPREESSED BECAUSE I HAVENT SEEN MOM, BUT YOU WEREN'T THERE FOR ME THEN SO DON'T PRETEND YOU'RE HERE FOR ME NOW!
I am breathing heavy now and I feel hot as if a fire is burning inside me. Bill is staring at me in shock and for a minute, I almost feel bad, but then I remember how lonely I was as a child and the weeks I spent being tortured for these people. None of them had ever believed in me. Ok, maybe I was wrong about you know who, but they could have tried to be happy about me getting the job. I can hear Mom shouted "what's going on" as she come up the stairs and Fred and George voices soon join hers as they grow ever closer. I do not want to face them and seeing my wand lying on the dresser, I grasp for it and in a flash I am out of that house and back at my own empty flat.