My Yearning Heart
Chapter 10
Another Week, Another Surprise
Note: I'm sorry about not updating last week. I decided to take a little vacation back home and I spent a lot of time with my family. I didn't want to take any time away from that so I hope you guys can understand. Anyway, things will return to normal now so I hope you enjoy this update and thank you for staying patient.
Another week came around and this time, I was ready for anything. I knew something was bound to happen, but I knew that I was ready for it. My recovery that past weekend did more than enough to help. That and nothing major happened so I willing to take on the world. Whatever the problem, I was ready to deal with it.
My room was pretty quiet up until lunch. A few student came in, but there wasn't anything too serious. None of them asked me anything strange so that was definitely a plus. However, something did bother me. All of this time, Yang always found her way to my room, but today wasn't the case. It was usually at the same time with some kind of minor problem that I could easily solve. For some reason, this made me worry. I was starting to think that she'd be a regular student or that some more serious happened to her that I couldn't help her with. Putting that aside, I had to forget about it. Lunch started and it was my job to open up my room to my students.
To my surprise, the first one in was Blake. She busted through the door with a smile on her face as she wrapped her arms around my body. At first, I didn't really know how to react, but eventually I caught on.
"Hey mom, how are you?"
"I'm fine. It's kind of weird to see you in here so early."
"Yeah I know. I just decided to come here just now."
"Haha, but what about your friends?"
"What about them?"
"Don't you usually spend your lunch with them?"
"Yeah, but they're all really busy doing things for their clubs. I kind of felt a little left out, but that's when I realized I could come here and have just as good of a lunch." She smiled and grabbed the chair from my desk. "I hope you don't mind me sitting here." I didn't care. As long as she was happy, nothing else mattered.
However, I was really tempted to ask her about Yang. Ever since the past weekend started, I haven't seen her. Blake never mentioned her whenever we talked about random things. She also missed her normal check-in time with me to get some kind of medicine for her problem. It's not like I'm interested in her or anything. It's just that not seeing one of my students makes me worry. They're pretty much 50% of my responsibility. As the clock wound down on lunch, I decided to leave the topic for now and see what would happen. If something truly happened, I'm sure Blake would say something. When the lunch bell rang, I slowly scooted everyone out of the room and they all left with smiles on their faces. Blake was the last one out as she kissed me on the cheek and ran to her next class.
I guess this past weekend went really well. I couldn't help but pat myself on the back. I was still doing my job as a single mom.
As classes finally resumed, I cleaned up my room. Unfortunately, the one thing my visitors don't do is clean up everything they leave. It's nothing too annoying, but it would really be nice if they cared enough about my room to clean up their mess. I'm definitely not their mother. Once everything was cleaned up, I walked back to my desk, but was immediately halted by a knock from the door. It was a little strange since I never locked my door. I walked over to it and opened the door to see Yang standing right outside with her head down.
"Yang, what are you doing? You know my door's open right?" She didn't respond. "Yang, are you okay," I asked as I placed my hand on her shoulder. That's when she finally raised her head.
"Can I talk to you?"
"Um, not that I don't want to, but don't you have class right now?"
"I told my teacher I had a really bad stomachache. Can I come in?"
"Sure, grab a seat anywhere." She walked in slowly as if she hadn't slept for weeks. After a few seconds, she eventually sat herself on one of the beds as I wheeled my chair over to her. As I looked at her, there was obviously something wrong. I didn't know what I was. It wasn't anything physical so I had to keep open ears about whatever she wanted to talk to me about. "So what did you want to talk about?" It took her a while to answer since she was fumbling around with her fingers and constantly looking down. "Are you sure you're alright to talk? You seem kind of… out of it."
"No, I'm fine. It's just… I don't know how to ask this." I suddenly tensed up. I had a feeling I knew what she was talking about, but I had to stay calm until I knew for sure. I took a deep breath.
"Well, you can talk about whatever you want. Nothing's restricted in my room," I said with a smile. She took a deep breath and finally came out with it.
"I'm in love." She immediately stopped, causing the room to be completely silent. I didn't know how to respond. I couldn't help but think about how I already knew that. That was kind of why she was dating Blake. I was wondering why she was telling me this.
"I know, and Blake is really happy."
"No, you don't understand. I can't keep lying to myself. I love you Ms. Belladonna. There's no else that makes me feel this way. Whenever I see you, I lose my way. I totally get lost in strange thoughts that I can't control." She suddenly grabbed my hand and placed it against her chest. "You can feel this, can't you? The heart doesn't lie. I love you, and only you." It was happening again. I quickly pulled my hand away and stood up from my chair.
"Yang, why are you doing this? I already told you that you… we can't do this. I'm a teacher and you're a student. Plus, you're dating my daughter. I absolutely can't accept a situation like that. I'm sorry, but this won't work out the way things are."
"But…"
"Yang, please. I'm trying to do what's best for you. Don't make this any harder than it needs to be. You already have someone else. Your heart belongs to someone else." I walked to other side of the room and said no more. I waited until I finally heard the soft steps of her leaving the room. Once I was alone, I collapsed onto my chair and took heavy breaths.
Although, she's already done this to once, this time felt a lot different. I could definitely tell that she was being honest with herself. It was so honest that I even felt her pain. But then again, what could I do? I'm an adult and she's still a student. My age only causes her to be pulled back by me. I can't allow that when I know she has so much more potential than that. I rested my head on my desk as I waited until school was finally over. Thankfully, no one else came to my room so it made things a lot easier. When school was over, I grabbed my things and made my way to the gate to meet up with Blake. However, I encountered something that was completely unexpected.
"I'm sorry Blake. I can't keep doing this."
"What are you talking about?" It was Blake and Yang. I didn't really know what was happening so I took cover near the conversation as to not be seen, but to hear what they were talking about.
"I'm breaking up with you."
"No, please. We can work this out. I promise. If it's something I did, I'm sorry."
"There's nothing to apologize for. This is my fault."
"What are you saying?"
"I never really loved you. It was just me being stupid. I'm the one who should be sorry. I never felt that way with you." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I thought things were going so well for them. Why was this happening?
Wait, it couldn't be…
I suddenly turned the corner and saw Blake ran off in tears. I turned my head to look at Yang and saw those same tears that Blake was shedding roll down Yang's face as well. What was happening? Before I could ask anything of her, she walked off by herself and I was left alone in that awkward situation. Judging but the result of the situation, it seemed like I had to walk off home on my own. As I walked home, I couldn't help be confused. Things weren't making any sense. Blake always talked about how they were so perfect for each other. What happened to cause this?
Please don't make me the cause of this. Blake's broken heart cannot be my own doing.
End of Chapter 10