My Yearning Heart
Chapter 15
Weakness in the Heart
As I laid on the ground, time seemed to stop for me. I didn't know what to do or where I was anymore. My body was weak and my head was feeing woozy almost as if I spun around for a whole hour. I didn't feel like myself. Was this the end for me? Maybe I shouldn't have climbed out of bed to get a drink of water because it doesn't really feel like it helped in any way.
After some amount of time, I still didn't know how long I was on the ground, the front door swung open and in walked Yang. She noticed that the fridge was slightly open and ran over to find me on the floor. I was a mess. She managed to hoist me over her shoulders and walk me over to the couch. Once I plopped onto the couch, I was able to feel my body again. It was a little hard to tell what exactly was going on, but I did have more control over the things I was able to do.
"Ms. Belladonna, what were you doing out here? How long were you like that?"
"I… I don't know. I needed water so I…" She immediately walked over to the fridge to fill up the water. After that, she poured me a glass of water and walked it back over to me. She lifted my head up from the couch and helped me drink the water so that I didn't choke or anything. Immediately after that, I was starting to feel better. I slowly tired sitting upright, but Yang tried to get me back onto my back. I couldn't. I had to fix this. I asked for the supplies she got for me and immediately got to work.
First, I asked her to heat up the needle so that things could be a little easier for me. While she was doing that, I grabbed the string and made sure that it was appropriate to use on my leg. She returned with the needle ready and I began work. I took of the towel that was completely red and looked at my leg. It was still bleeding, but nowhere near as bad as it was earlier. I asked Yang to bring me another towel as to not make a mess on her couch. Once that was brought, I started sewing up my leg. Right as I started, I knew it was going to difficult. The pain of puncturing the needle through my skin was horrible, but I had to fight through it.
After about an hour or so of doing my thing, I finally finish. I lay my head onto the head rest and take a sigh of relief. It's finally over. I'm in really bad shape that I almost tempted not to show up to school, but that would also worry Blake. I know we left on odd terms, but I know she'd be worried about me. As long as I got some rest and showed, there would be no reason for her to worry anymore.
"Um, are you okay?" I took a breather for a few more seconds before answering her.
"Yeah, I think so. Thank you so much." Out of nowhere, Yang burst into tears and leapt into my body. I didn't really know how to react since I too was still a little loopy. However, I just let it go. I wrapped my arms around her body and tried to calm her down. Seeing something like that I definitely traumatizing for someone at her age so I couldn't blame her at all. "It's alright Yang. I'm fine now. You don't need to worry anymore." Out of nowhere, she brought her head out of her chest and kissed me on the lips. This caught me off guard and sent me onto my back. Once I regained myself, I pushed her off with tears still in her eyes. "What are you doing?"
"I love you. Please let me love you." I couldn't let this happen. I threw my hand at her, but she caught it in midair. She then kissed the back of my hand and continued up my arm. I don't know why, but this felt so good. I squirmed around, but she completely ignored it. Once she made it up to my shoulder, I really started to feel different. She kissed me around my neck area which caused me to moan to myself. I couldn't explain it, but this feeling was something I haven't experienced in so long.
"Yang, please, we can't… Mmm." Along with her kissing, she started to lick me on the neck. I couldn't help it, but it was turning me on. No one's touched me like this in so long that I was almost starting to act desperate. Was this okay?
Once that was over, she started to trail down my body. She put her hands underneath my clothes and slowly pushed them up my body until my bra was completely exposed. She gently placed her hands on them and started to massage them. This felt so good. I couldn't help but moan even louder. She knew what she was doing and it was working, but I couldn't help but feel that this was wrong. Without even unlessening my bra, I felt her fingers gently slide down my stomach and near the top of my skirt. When she reached it, she used both her hands to unzip it and pull it off. Now, I was completely exposed to her. She was going to take me.
She ventured back up to my face and kissed me again. At the same time, her right hand travelled back down my body until it was right over my vagina. She gently put her hand against it which caused me to react. I pushed her off of my body and sent her to the other side of the couch.
"I'm sorry. I can't do this."
"Why? Why won't you accept my love? You know I love you. Why can't you let me prove it to you?" Why did I find this question so hard to answer? I sat up and turned my head towards the other side of the room, avoiding her eye contact. "Please, just tell me why you can't love me." I started to tear up, but I couldn't let her see it.
"I don't want to hurt you." There was a silence. I didn't know why, but I assumed it was because she was trying to understand why I said that.
"Hurt me? You could never hurt me. I love you."
"But I can. It's because of all of this. You'll never be happy with me." I heard rustling from behind me. Then, she held my cheek and brought it towards her.
"I'd be the happiest person in the world if I could be yours. I would love you more than any person on this world. More than that man could. I would dedicate my life to making you happy. You know why?" I turned my head because this was getting hard to hear. However, I couldn't hide. She turned me back towards her. "Because I love you. Nothing will ever change that." She suddenly wiped away a tear that rolled down my face.
"I can't." I held her hand and placed it back on her lap. "You're a minor. It just wouldn't be right." Her eyes suddenly widened as she rose to her feet. After that, I didn't really know what happened to her. All I knew was that she left the room in silence. Before she did though, she gave me two words for the rest of the night.
"Good night."
End of Chapter 15