My Yearning Heart

Chapter 16

Time to Talk, Seriously

Note: I'm so glad that you're all enjoying this story so much. I, myself, was kind of iffy about it in the beginning, but I'm glad it turned out to be something more than just a try-hard story. I will continue to keep these interesting for however long I plan to make this story. For now, I hope you enjoy this update.

I ended up spending the night on the couch. It was a tough night of sleep. The constant pain in my leg. The look of sadness Yang gave me as she left the living room. There was just too much going on in my head for me to have an enjoyable night of sleep. When morning came around, I tried getting up as quickly as I could, but my leg was still being annoying. It prevented me from the leaving the house before Yang could wake up. She offered me breakfast which I had to accept. I hadn't eaten in a while so it was kind of necessary for me to eat. Once that was over, she understood the situation and allowed me to walk off on my own.

We allotted enough time for me to get to school a little early while letting her get to the school right on time. On the way there, I kept thinking about what happened last night. Yang was in my mind and I couldn't get her out. She touched me in ways I couldn't describe. It felt so good, but so wrong. Why am I so conflicted about this? There was only one thing about it and it was wrong. I bit my lip and made my way to my room.

Oddly enough, I totally forgot that Blake had my keys so I didn't lock the door. I was a little surprised the janitors didn't lock it up or anything. I walked in and saw that everything was exactly the way I left it the other day. I dropped my things on the ground and collapsed into my chair. I leaned back and stared at the ceiling, rummaging through all of the things that were flowing through my head. I couldn't understand it. This girl was being so honest with me and yet, she wasn't giving up. I immediately took a deep breath and tried to calm down as I gently placed my head on my desk.

But it did feel really good. I haven't been touched like that in so long to where I almost forget I could feel like that. She handled me with such care. How did she know how to do that? I shook my head violently and slammed my head on my desk. I just need to calm down. All of this will blow over soon.

That's all I can hope for.

Out of nowhere, my door slid open which made me shoot my head off my desk. It was Blake. I quickly stood up and made my way over to her. I didn't really know what was going on since class had already started and she was usually the kind of person to show up on time.

"Hey Blake, what's wrong?" She didn't say anything. She just ran right at me and melted into my body. "Hey, you okay?"

"I'm sorry." I was so confused.

"What are you talking about?"

"I shouldn't have made you find somewhere to spend the night last night. I was just a little angry. I don't know why I did that. I couldn't sleep. I was so worried about you. I was afraid something happened to you." All of a sudden, my eyes shot open. Something did happen to me. But should I take the risk and tell her what happened. That would only make her more worried. I quickly threw out that idea though. There was no need to tell her. I simply wrapped my arms around her and held her tight.

"It's okay. You're not to blame for any of this. It was my fault." I kissed her on the head. "Thank you for worrying about me, but I'm fine." I did it again. I was lying to her, but this time, I had to. I didn't want her to know that her father wanted to see her. Who knows want would have happened if he actually found her. I dread the thought. "Hey, you need to get to class. We can talk more about this later, okay?"

"Okay."

"I'll write you a note." Once I gave her the note, I sent her on her way and she had a bright smile on her face. I was so relieved when I saw that look. What I went through for the past 12 hours made me feel like I wasn't going to see that smile again. I smiled back and closed the door.

I waited until lunch and nothing happened. My room was definitely a lot quieter than how it used to be. Once again, I opened up my room as everyone filed in to their normal places. Some of them even gave me hugs since it's been a while since I've done this. They all looked very happy as they ate their lunch. Unfortunately, because of what happened, I wasn't able to pack a lunch so watching everyone eat was a struggle to keep my composure. I retracted my eyes away from the situation, but as I did, I spotted someone pass by my room. It was Yang. She looked in with wondering eyes, but nothing more. There was definitely something wrong with her because once she left for bed, she started to act differently.

When the lunch bell rang, I escorted everyone outside, wishing a lovely rest of the day. Once the last person left, I watched them all make their way to their classrooms. At that moment, someone poked my shoulder from behind. I turned and saw Yang standing there with a red face. This was odd, even for her.

"Hello Yang."

"Hi, Ms. Belladonna. Can I talk to you?"

"Sure, come on in." I let her in, knowing that this was going to be about what happened last night. I had to clarify things now or else this was going to go on forever. She sat on her usual bed and I locked the door to make sure nothing no one popped in. I then pulled my chair over to the bed and readied myself for what was to come. "So what did you want to talk about?"

"I was just… I wanted to make sure that you were doing okay." Already, this was a different take on our normal conversations.

"I'm fine. It still hurts a little bit, but I think I'll be fine after another night's rest."

"That's good. I'm glad." She bowed her head and looked away from me. This was definitely not the Yang I knew. She was acting shy and completely distant from me. It's not like it bothered me. It's just that seeing her like this made me wonder if something was bothering her.

"Are you okay? You don't looked too good." I placed the back of my hand on her forehead, but she suddenly grabbed it out of the air and held it in her hands.

"I've been thinking about what you said." Here it is. "You said you didn't want to hurt me and that it wasn't right for us to do it."

"Exactly."

"I just… I don't see how you could possibly hurt me. I love you and all I want is for you to return my feelings."

"That's the thing Yang. I can't do that. I've told this to you many times before. A person like me and someone like you just couldn't be. I'm sorry, but…" She suddenly cut me off.

"You also that it was because I was a minor." I widened my eyes. "What if I wasn't a minor? Then could you love me? Would I be enough for you then?"

"Yang, please. Don't make this any harder for me than it already it is." She suddenly let go of my hand and placed her hands on my cheeks.

"If I was older, would you love me back? By that time, I could care for you. I could give you the love you deserve. You won't have to feel alone ever again because I would be there for you whenever you need me. I promise I would." It was hard to look at her, but when I did, I saw that her eyes were so honest. I could hear her heart pounding out of her chest. Her hands were shaking, but she remained looking at me. What could I possible do about this? Shew as being completely honest with me, but only this time, I knew that this was all for real. Nothing in her voice or her body told me that she was lying. I grabbed her hands off of my cheeks and put them on her lap. "Ms. Belladonna, please. Hear my words. I love you." I took one last thought and sighed.

"I now know that you're being completely honest with me. Right now, we could never be a thing." She suddenly started to shake even more as her head dipped. "But I can do this. By the time you graduate from high school and you still have these same feeling for me, I… I will return your feelings." All of a sudden, Yang's head rose up to look me in the eye.

I think it's about time I be honest with my own feelings.

End of Chapter 16