My Yearning Heart
Chapter 20
The True Purpose
Note: Dang! It's been a long time since I've made a 20+ chapter story. I hope this doesn't make anyone overly excited, but there's still a lot left to the story so I hope you keep on reading. Once again, I want to thank you to everyone who's supporting this story. I had no idea this would turn out to be something that I enjoyed writing every day. Anyway, I've got more time to thank you guys in the future so I hope you enjoy another update.
After all of the fun and games, we eventually grew hungry. Yang took my hand and guided me back into the city where we went in search of a restaurant. At that moment, I didn't really have a craving since anything sounded good to me. On the other hand, it appeared as if Yang had a destination to get to so I simply stayed quiet and waited for whatever she had planned.
All of the restaurants we ended up passing all looked so good, but she didn't want to go into any of them. I sighed, but not to disturb her concentration. I had to be optimistic in that she would take me somewhere worth my while. After a few more minutes or walking, she stopped me in front of a peculiar building and said that this was the place. I looked up and saw that we were at the fanciest restaurant in the city, also the most expensive. I quickly pulled out my wallet and rummaged through the cash. I definitely did not have enough for this, but out of nowhere, she grabbed me by the wrist and pulled me inside.
"Wait, I can't possibly pay for this."
"What are you talking about? I'm paying." My eyes shot wide open. This was a very responsible thing to do and there was no sign of hesitation in her voice.
"Good evening ladies. I can see it's a girl's night out." Yang nodded with a smile. "Well, you came at the right time. We have a couple of tables that just opened up so if you'd follow me, I'll show you to your places."
"Great." Still holding my wrist, we made our way through the restaurant until we arrived at our spots. Another weird thing happened. Yang pulled out my chair as if she was the gentleman on a date. I tried not to make a big deal out of it so I took my seat and tried to get comfortable. The waitress asked for drinks, but we asked for simple things like water and coca cola. "So you excited?" I was still looking around the place when Yang dropped that question on me.
"Huh? Oh, this place is incredible. I knew you'd like it. You seem like the kind of woman who'd have high tastes in standards." I couldn't help but spit out my water since that was nowhere near the truth.
"Anyway, am I doing a good job?" And there it was. Her question of my approval towards her.
"Yang, I appreciate everything you've done for me today, but to be honest, I only went on this date to get to know you better. That's it."
"Oh, alright. We can still do that." She scooted in her chair and leaned closer towards me.
"What?"
"What what? Ask me anything you want." I sighed.
"How about we start off from the very beginning? Hello, my name is Alexandra Belladonna and I'm a nurse at a local school. How about you?"
"Well, I'm Yang Xiao Long and I'm now a junior in high school. It's taken me a long time to realize it, but I'm in love with the most beautiful woman in the world." I nearly fell out of my chair. She was pulling cheap shots this early in the conversation. At that moment, the waitress came back around and took our orders. After that, we were given a lot of time to get into this conversation of getting to know each other.
"So, is there anything else that's special about yourself?"
"Um, I don't like to brag, but I guess there are some things. I actually played football in middle school. I was the only girl on the team, but everyone respected me since I could hit people when I needed to. I hate girly things if you haven't already figured that out yet. Other than that, I'm on open book on everything. What about you?" For some reason, that question took me by surprise. I didn't really know what to say so it took me a while to come up with something that would be appropriate for the situation.
"I, uh… I'm a single mother with a daughter who is also a junior." That was probably the hardest thing I've ever had to say. "In my family, I'm the middle child so things have always been a challenge to me, but I've always managed to get through some tough times. I've only been in one real relationship, but that didn't end very well." I don't know why I had to put that on the table. She didn't need to know that.
"So have you always wanted to be a school nurse?"
"I don't know about a school nurse. I did work in a hospital one time, but for some reason, the atmosphere of that building was just too much so I decided to go down an easier path. Now, that path has brought me to being the school nurse."
"Haha, so I'm guessing you majored in nursing or some kind of medical field."
"Actually, I was never able to finish my degree. Things happened and I had Blake before I could."
"Aw, I'm sorry. It's okay. I got through most of the requirements so raising her was actually really easy. I got to use what I learned from school and it was actually really effective. Up until I was left alone." I dropped my head.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you bring that up. That's my fault. We can change the subject if you want."
"No, no, it's fine. It's just… Now that I think about it, Blake never had a father in her life. It only took a couple days for him to pack up and leave. Once that happened, I was forced to be on my own. I cared for her, loved her, did everything for her; I just can't stand the idea that I've done something wrong. I gave her everything and I'm just afraid to lose her." I brought my hands up to my face to try and stop the tears when my hands were suddenly grabbed out of the air by Yang.
"You know, I have this dog. His name is Zwei. He is just the cutest thing ever. His eyes are so huge and he always makes his way onto my bed when I go to sleep at night. Unfortunately, almost every night I get woken up by a bang and when I open my eyes, I see that he fell off the bed. Even though it ruins my sleep, it always makes me laugh. He's my best friend. I don't know what I'd do without him." Out of nowhere, my tears dried up. It didn't feel like I was about to cry. What did she just do to me?
At that moment, our food arrived and Yang started to dig in. For me, it took me awhile to start eating. I couldn't believe I was thinking about that time in my life again. I always told myself that I would forget about the bad things in my life, but they constantly linger around as if they were meant to stay inside of my head. I don't know why that is. I just want to be rid of those things. When I snapped out of my trance, I look over to the other side of the table to see Yang chowing down on her food. She was making a mess, but didn't care one bit about it. That put a smile on my face which told me to finally pick up my fork and eat.
As we ate our food, we didn't really share a lot of things. The food was too good to think about anything else. However, I started to realize that all of this time was about me. I threw everything on the table while Yang listened. That wasn't the reason I was here. I was totally failing at this plan. I sighed once again as I tried to enjoy the rest of my food.
It didn't feel like I was getting anywhere, but on Yang's face, it was a completely different story. Maybe I was the one who should be opening up. Maybe I'm the one who needs to share my life. Maybe I'm the one who doesn't understand this whole thing.
Maybe.
End of Chapter 20