My Yearning Heart
Chapter 23
Junior Year Starts
The next day started quite early. I was woken up by a kiss on my cheek. I slowly cracked open my eyes and saw Blake looking at me with a smile on her face. That was such a good way to start off the day. I climbed out of bed and the two of us got ready. After that, we had our usual breakfast and made our way to school like normal. When we arrived to the school. The whole place was like any normal first day of school. Everywhere was packed as everyone was reuniting with their friends. We walked through the school gates when a hand gently rubbed against my shoulder. I turned my head to see Yang skipping past the two of us. It's definitely been awhile since I've seen that girl, but I was glad to see that she was doing well.
Once Blake spotted some of her friends, we broke off where I went to my room and cleaned up for another school year. The first day was always the worst for me because everyone was always careful as to not cause any problems, but I remained vigilant. It was my job so I wasn't going to slack off about it.
I returned to my desk and reviewed the changes to this year's schedule. I noticed that there were three chances for students to have a free period: 2nd, 6th, and 7th. I couldn't help but feel jealous. When I was in school, our schedules always had to be filled or else we wouldn't be able to graduate. The times have definitely changed. I looked away from my computer to see my door slide open. I checked the time and noticed that it was 2nd period. Maybe Blake was here to visit. A foot was placed through the doorway and I immediately found out that it wasn't Blake.
"Hi Alex." It was Yang.
"Hi Yang. You have a free 2nd period?"
"Yep, I'm so glad. For some reason, I was never a big fan of 2nd period so having this time off really makes things better."
"Well, I'm glad that you're enjoying it. Would you like something to drink?"
"Um, coffee please." Kids these days and their coffee; they just can't get away from it. I went over to my coffee maker while Yang grabbed my chair and rolled around the middle of the room. She was obviously comfortable in here. After I finished making her coffee, I turned around and was immediately by her lips against mine. I was clueless for a couple of seconds before realizing what she was doing. I quickly pushed her off in panic.
"What are you doing?"
"I haven't seen you in a while so I thought you might need a kiss."
"Yang, we're at school. You can't do that."
"I know. I just wanted to. I missed you." I took a deep breath and handed the coffee to her as I turned back around and bent over against the table.
"That's no excuse. Don't you remember our promise?" At that moment, she realized the promise we made that she would have to wait until she graduates to be able to show such feelings out in public.
"Y-Yes," she said shyly.
"Alright. Please show restraint. You can't be doing irresponsible things inside of my room."
"I'm sorry." After those words, my room was silent for a good half hour. I remained looking down at the table while I heard my chair slowly slide around the room. For some reason, things felt so awkward between us. I didn't know why, but it was obvious that Yang could feel that same tension. All we could hear was the soft sounds of our breathing.
What could I say to her? Was there even anything I needed to say to her? I was the one who had to be the responsible one in this situation so I've done my part. I stated the rules of this situation and it's her job to uphold those terms. I released a huge breath of air as the bell rang for another period to start. I didn't budge from my spot. Yang stood up slowly, but took her time leaving my room.
"I'm glad I got to see you again. Is it alright I come back tomorrow?" At that moment, there was a slight pain in my chest as I heard those words leave her mouth. I tried opening my mouth, but it took me a while to actually speak anything back to her.
"S-Sure. You're welcome anytime."
"Okay. Bye Alex." Again, she was calling me by my name on school grounds. Does that girl know no restraint? I slowly turned around to see my chair in the middle of the room with nothing else there. I was alone once again. I slowly walked over to my chair and rolled back towards my desk where I collapsed onto my butt.
What is going on here? Why am I so confused? I leaned back in my chair and closed my eyes. Surprisingly, this made me feel a little better, but those thoughts still remained inside of my head.
A couple of hours went by and lunch finally came around. As I waited, my stomach got very impatient with me so hearing the lunch bell relived me of my personal difficulties. I opened up my room as always as the usual students found their way inside. I said hello to everyone and they said hi back. Once the crowd slowed, Blake made her way inside and unpacked her things at my desk. It was her junior year and she was still eating lunch with me. There was no way I could stop her, but I did feel like I was being a distraction to her other friends who wanted to spend time with her.
"Hey Blake?"
"Yeah?"
"Don't you ever eat lunch with your friends?"
"Not really. I told them I like to eat lunch with you and they totally understood."
"I see. Don't you want to though?"
"What are you saying? Do you now want me to eat with you?"
"No, I'm not saying that per se. It's just… if you want to eat with them, I don't want to stop you." There was a slight pause in our conversation.
"I know. I just wanted to eat lunch with you today."
"But we eat every other meal together."
"Oh, well, maybe I'll just pack up my things and leave," she said as she grabbed her bag and stood up.
"No, no. I'm sorry. I'm not trying to be jerk."
"You're always a jerk," she said with a smile. I returned the gesture as she returned to my desk and continued to eat her lunch. Thankfully, I remembered to eat my food as well and filling my stomach definitely made me feel better.
After lunch was over, everyone quickly exited my room and finished up the rest of the day. As for me, nothing happened. My room remained empty which kind of made me feel good because that showed that no one was being stupid on the first day of school. The other days, though, don't really have the same thought process. I waited and waited until the final bell rang and then I packed up my things. I organized everything before I left just so I could be ready to go tomorrow morning. Once everything was set, I left and made my way to the front gate where Blake was waiting. I met up with her and we walked home. Right as we started off, that same hand that grazed my shoulder this morning did it again. Yang passed us without saying a single thing. Was this going to be a common thing as like a hello and goodbye?
On the way home, Blake let it all out as she said that her classes were great. All of her teachers were really cool and most of her friends were in her class as well. Immediately, I knew that this was going to be a good year for her… just like me. I smiled the entire time she talked. Things were getting better…
That's what I thought.
End of Chapter 23