My Yearning Heart
Chapter 27
My Yearning Heart
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After dinner, I decided that it was enough for the day. We left the restaurant and headed back to Yang's house. That was the least I could do since I would feel guilty if I left her alone to get home at night. Once we arrived at her house, I tried getting away, but she held onto my wrist, preventing me from leaving.
"Would you like to come inside?" I couldn't do it. This day was already a stretch for me.
"Um, I think I should get home. I haven't heard from Blake today so I'm pretty sure she's still alone at home. I don't feel comfortable with her at home alone." I tried walking away, but her grip just got tighter.
"I know it may be hard since that the last time you were here, you were hurt, but I would love to host you again. Only this time, the right way." I looked at the time and saw that it was already 7 at night.
"Um, I guess I could stay for a little bit." She let go of my wrist and grabbed my hand to pull me inside. There wasn't anything special about it, but it did bring me back to that horrible night. I couldn't help but wander into the kitchen and stare at the ground in front of the fridge. That was where I nearly died. I know I'm making it sound more dramatic than what really happened, but for me, it was the worst thing I've ever experienced.
"Alex, if you want, you can head over to my room. I'll be right there. I'm just gonna get us something to drink."
"Okay." I nervously walked into the back of the house where her room was located. When I walked inside, I noticed that she made a few changes. The sheets on her bed were different since I pretty much soiled her other ones with my blood. This time, I got a chance to look around her room. On her walls, she had a lot of pictures with a lot of other girls. I couldn't help but wonder if those were her past girlfriends.
This girl definitely got around.
I continued to look at that wall of girls and saw that there was a free spot after Blake's picture. I didn't really know what it meant, but it did seem like there was something special about it. Around the empty space was a bunch of designs of hearts and other lovey-dovey stuff. Was this her ideal relationship spot? After a few minutes, she walked in to see me staring at the wall.
"Oh yeah, please don't think I'm weird or anything, but I like to remember the people I've dated."
"Why is that?"
"It reminds of the mistakes and hardships I've gone through so that the next one can be even better than the previous one."
"So why is this one so special?" She looked at the one with all of the designs and smiled.
"That's for my final girlfriend. After all of this time, I think I finally know how to please her with all of my love." She set down the tray of drinks and walked over to me. "Could you take a seat for a minute? There's something I want to ask you." She ushered me over to her bed and I sat down gently. "I know we made that promise and I know that there's still some time left. It's just that…"
"Yang?" I tried stopping her, but she wouldn't back down.
"I've finally turned 18 and I've tried holding myself back. I really have, but I just can't. I guess what I'm asking is that… Can you take me as I am now?" My eyes widened.
"Yang, I…"
"I know we made that promise for when I graduated, but I'm hurting." She grabbed my hand and placed it on her chest. I could feel the thumping of her heart. It was strong and loud. "You're the one that I've been waiting for you. I can make you happy. I can be the one who'll be there for you whenever you need me. We can…" I turned my head in shame.
"We can't. That promise is set in stone. It's still too early."
"How? I'm 18 now so there's nothing wrong with it." She got on her knees and scooted closer to me. "Can't I be the one to make you feel happy?" The pain inside of me was welling up. However, I couldn't describe it. It wasn't pain that I could feel in my own body, but pain for this girl. She wanted to be that special someone and she was willing to do anything she could to make that happen.
"We… just can't yet." Out of nowhere, she caressed my cheek and kissed me on the lips. At that moment, I felt so warm. Her lips were so soft and so gentle. We continued that kiss until we nearly ran out of breath.
"Alex… I want to make you happy. You deserved to be treated like a queen. I can do that for you." She got off of her knees and leaned in closer to me. For some reason, I couldn't meet her lips head-on again so I leaned backwards until I eventually fell on my back. Yang towered over me and kissed me once again.
"Yang, I…" She kissed me before I could finish.
"Don't worry, I'll be gentle." She immediately started to kiss me on the neck which immediately made my heart race. She didn't know it, but that was definitely one of the most sensitive parts of my body. My back immediately started to arch at the touch of her soft lips against my skin. As she continued with that, she started to unbutton my shirt, revealing my bra. "Alex, you're so beautiful." She then started to kiss me down my body, finishing in the middle of my stomach.
"Yang, why do you know these kind of things," I struggled to ask.
"I told you. I've come a long way to make sure that my final girlfriend would be treated the way she deserves. And I'm not going to let you down." She suddenly removed her shirt and bra, revealing a very mature body. She had a very nice figure as well as good sized breasts. Unfortunately, I was too shy to tell her what was I was thinking. She removed my bra and started to gently massage them with her fingers.
At that moment, I couldn't control myself. I let out a soft moan which caused Yang to comment on it. She told me that it was adorable which only made me even more embarrassed. Her massage was very gentle which eased my body. It's been so long since someone's touched me like this and I couldn't believe it felt this good. Then, she started to suck on my nipples which made me moan even louder. This feeling was incredible. Not even my ex-husband was able to make me feel this good. She kept on doing it and the longer it went on, the more it felt like I was in heaven. After a few more minutes of that, she lowered her face near the brink of my pants and looked up for my approval. This was where I started to get a little hesitant. For some reason, I was unsure about her doing this to me. Already, this was too much. There was no need for her to service me like this, and yet… I was actually enjoying it. Of course, there was no way I could admit it. I could only stay quiet and allow this girl to have her way with me. She wasn't doing anything wrong. She was being very considerate of my feelings so I couldn't stop her. Also, deep down, I wanted her to go all of the way. Right as she started to unbuttoned my pants, I grabbed her hand with a bright red face.
"Yang, I don't know if I'm ready for this." She stopped and brought her eyes back up to me.
"Oh, if you're not ready then I won't push you." She came back up to my face and kissed me on the lips. "But… I would like to ask you something. Do you love me?" My eyes widened. All of this time has gone by and I haven't actually thought about the answer to that question. "I think I've been honest with my feelings so I want to know how you feel." I was too caught off guard to answer.
"Yang, I…" My eyes slowly moved over to the side and saw someone standing in the doorway of her room. The figure was very familiar to my eyes. "Blake… What are you doing here?"
"How… How could you do this?!"
"Blake, please. It's not what you…" She suddenly stormed off with tears in her eyes. It was exactly like that time Pyrrha tried to kiss me in my office. However, there was no way I could talk myself out of this one. I was in a vulnerable situation with Yang in the exact same situation as me. I immediately threw Yang off my body and got dressed as fast as possible.
"Alex, please don't go." I turned around and looked at Yang.
"I have to go." After that, that night ended quite abruptly. I went looking for Blake. There wasn't many places she could have went off to so I went back home with high hopes of finding her there. Unfortunately, I was disappointed with what I ended up finding.
End of Chapter 27