I changed quite a bit in this chapter and added a new scene at the end. I got the idea from one of the One-Shots I've written. I changed it up and added it as a flashback towards the end. So for everyone that's already read this story there's new stuff so it's almost like having a new chapter!

I don't know how easily you all will figure out the new 'event/big thing' I added. Usually if I think something is cryptic you all figure it out easily and if I think it's easy you all make it cryptic haha. It's like I have it backwards so I would like guesses at least if anyone has any ideas, to see how obvious/cryptic I'm being.

"The scars of your love remind me of us, They keep me thinking that we almost had it all.

The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,I can't help feeling,

We could have had it all,

(Your gonna wish you, never had met me)

Rolling in the deep"

'Rolling in the Deep' Adele

"Really? You would be a lucky asshole to work with me!" I retorted. How dare he insult me?

"Um are we missing something here?" Christian asked.

"Are you always that dense?" I smarted off.

"Rose!" Lissa Chastised.

"Sorry it's a reflex," I told her. "I tend to be a smart ass, especially when jerks are present," I said looking at Dimitri.

"That's an understatement," he snorted.

"Shut up! No one asked you're opinion.

"So I take it you know each other…" Alberta trailed just a bit confused.

"Yea, we have a pretty long history," I told her glaring at Dimitri.

"Ok. Well I know you said you're out if he's your producer but all of our other producers are either full or out of town. I really would love to have you here Rose, you have an incredible voice. I know you and Dimitri seem to have some issues but, he's an awesome producer and I think you two would make some great music…especially with all of these emotions you have," Alberta said.

"If we don't kill each other first," I said.

"Why don't we give you two a minute to talk it over?" she said heading out of the room. before she headed out the door she turned to me. "I really hope you at least try it, I see something really special in you."

I didn't let it show but I was really touched by what she said. I stared after her for a moment or two before Dimitri cleared his throat.

"What are you doing here? Did you know I was working here?" He asked.

"Yes because I have nothing better to do than stalk you and get a meeting with your record label just so I could see you again," I said sarcastically. "Trust me this was as much of a surprise to me as it was to you."

"You honestly had no idea I worked here?" he asked again. I was once again getting annoyed.

"NO DIMITRI I had no idea you worked here. I haven't even talked to you in 5 years, how was I supposed to know where you worked."

"Google," he suggested.

"Freaking get over yourself Dimitri! I have been a little too focused on my life to google yours, I swear I think this fame has made you even more stupid and arrogant than ever," I said annoyed. He came into the studio where I was. He was smart and didn't get too close but stopped about ten feet away.

"Ok so you didn't know I worked here," he relented. "Well it's good to see you, you look good."

"What do you want me to say Dimitri? That it's good to see you too? If it's good to see me why is it the first thing you do is insult me?" I was honestly trying not to cry. I'm not sure if I wanted to because of the anger, hurt or a little bit of both but, I was damned sure not going to let him see me cry. Plus I haven't cried in 4 years and I'm not going to start again anytime soon.

"You know me, I'm an idiot," he said with a humorless chuckle. I smirked but barely. "The first sentence I hear you say is an insult so of course my first reaction is to retort right back. Before I even knew what I was saying, my mouth had already started. I have honestly missed you. You have been my best friend since we were kids."

"I WAS your best friend until you screwed that up. So tell me Dimitri, why'd you drop all contact with your family? Me, I understand I was only your girlfriend but, I can't figure out why you ditched your family."

"That doesn't matter right now," he said. He was avoiding the question and it made me curious on what he was hiding.

"Doesn't matter? Really? It doesn't matter…Wow glad to see your family means so much to you. Do you realize that Viktoria begged me not to come out here because she was SO scared I was going to abandon her just like her big brother did? The one who was supposed to protect her from pain, not cause it. Sonya pretends that she's furious with you but it's mostly just to hide the hurt. Paul idolizes you, wants to be just like you yet, he doesn't understand why you don't want to know him. Olena still talks about you with her face filled with pride yet every time you're mentioned for just a split second you can see pain and worry fill her eyes because she has no idea where her baby boy is and the only information she does get is some stupid tabloid about you and Tasha and your wild escapades and parties. Karolina.."

"That's enough!" he yelled cutting me off.

"What can't handle hearing the truth?" I asked pissed off.

"Why do you care they're MY family, not YOURS!"

Of course before I even realized I had done it, I walked the distance between us and slapped him…hard…

"We might not be blood but, those people are MY family. To tell the truth, right now they're more my family than yours honestly." I said harshly

"Yea and how do you figure that?" he asked rigidly.

"You haven't even talked to them in five years! Where were you at Vika's graduation? Where were you when Karolina had her baby…it was a girl by the way she named her zoya. Where were you for all of Paul's birthday parties when he would always wish that his uncle Dimka would come find him if he was good enough? Where were you when Sonya announced she is pregnant? When Vika got into a bad relationship? Oh right you weren't there! I WAS! I chased the guy away from Vika and she hated me for quite a while because of it. I was there for Vika to cry on when she wondered why her brother could just stop caring about her, why he didn't even seem to love her anymore. I was there for many conversations with Paul on why he was never good enough for his only wish to come true. I plan to keep being there for it all. I'm the one that has been saving up money for the last few months so I can go back home for the birth of the niece you didn't even know about! So don't you dare tell me they are not my family!" I yelled pissed off.

"Wow just because your family sucks didn't mean you should go try and steal mine," I physically recoiled at that. I saw a hint of regret pass through his eyes real quick but I was too emotional to care. He knew my parents are a touchy subject yet he still said that. I took a deep breath and fought every urge in my body to keep from hitting him again. I set my jaw and crossed my arms.

"You're right my family does suck. You should know you were there for half of it and held me when I cried over it. Luckily for me on my eighteenth birthday when my parents kicked me out even though I hadn't graduated or anything, I had someone like Olena offer me a place to stay and make sure I didn't go hungry. So maybe I did steal your family but it wasn't intentional. Plus it's not like you made it very hard." I told him a lot calmer than I felt. I turned and went towards the door. "I'll tell Alberta this isn't going to work."

Before I opened the door his voice stopped me.

"Look I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that. Any of that and especially not the part about your parents. Why don't we try this? Just temporarily. We can do a trial run for a bit and if it just absolutely is not working out you're free to leave and I will try to find someone else to produce you."

"We've been here for less than an hour and have already been at each other's throats twice!" I told him. "How are we supposed to actually work together?"

"Like I said we'll just try it, two weeks and if you still feel like you want to leave you can. I know I've been an ass and haven't showed it very well but, I really have missed you and I would love to work with you. I promise I will try to quit being such an ass and try my hardest to make it up to you for being so horrible today."

"Yea because your promises mean anything to me," he slightly winced but I didn't care, it was true. The last two promises he made failed miserably. The first one he broke within a week and the second one wasn't long after.

Flashback 5 years ago (a week before Dimitri left)

"I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't wanna close my eyes, don't wanna fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing" Dimitri sang softly. We were laying in my bed. We had just made love again.

"Quit being so sappy, you goof," I teased him though I secretly loved it.

"Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing"

I started laughing, amazed that he was sitting here singing to me. He was smiling while he was singing and it was pretty wonderful. I was on my back while he was on his side with his head propped up on his elbow. His had was tracing patterns on my stomach but his eyes never left mine.

"I don't want to miss one smile

I don't want to miss one kiss

I just want to be with you

Right here with you, just like this

I just want to hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And just stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time"

"Has anyone told you you're such a sap?" I teased.

"Actually no, I've never heard that one before. I guess you just bring it out in me," he said with a chuckle.

"Well even though it was incredibly cheesy, I loved it!" I told him with a smile.

"Well I meant every word." He said honestly.

" It's going to be so hard being so far away from you" I said jutting my lips out in a small pout. I really was not looking forward to him leaving next week.

"Well we still have a week. So why not take advantage of the time we have now?" he said with a wink.

"Well aren't you just mr. insatiable!" I said with a smirk.

"Only for you Roza," he smirked before kissing me.

A little while later we were laying in bed still just sitting there lost in our own thoughts. He was on his back while I was laying on his chest with his arm around my shoulder.

"Promise me something?" I asked.

"Hmm?"

"Promise me we won't let this ruin us," I said softly looking up at him. He looked back down at me.

"I promise, I love you too much for that Roza." He said with sincerity in his eyes…too bad he lied.

A week later.

"I think we should cool it for a little while Roza. I don't think we're ready for a long distance relationship. I'm going to be really busy and as soon as we finish an album we'll be touring so I really won't have time for a relationship and that's not fair to either of us. We can try again eventually but not right now."

"Fine but you better keep in touch," I told him feeling like my world was crashing. Of course I couldn't let him see that. I blocked out what I had been planning on saying and tried to smile.

"Always," he said with a smile giving me a hug.

"Just don't fall for any of those Hollywood bimbos while you're gone," I joked.

"I promise," he said with a smile. He then turned and said goodbye to his family. He gave me one last smile.

"Have fun and good luck," I told him before he walked away and down the terminal to his plane…I watched him go not realizing that was the last I would see of him for years to come.

A few months later he started appearing in tabloids with some bimbo Tasha. Not very much longer it was reported they were dating…there went promise number two.

Present:

"I'll try it but if it doesn't work I'm gone." I told him seriously instantly regretting it. Guess it's just the Masochist in me.

"That's all I'm asking."

"Just to be clear I'm only doing this because according to you two there's no one else and I don't want to risk trying to find another label," I warned him.

"Understood," he said.

I walked out in the hall where Alberta, Lissa, and Christian were talking, Dimitri followed. When I came out they all turned, based on the looks on their faces they at least saw parts if not all of it. Luckily they couldn't hear it because the studio is sound proof.

"I'll do it on a trial run only. We try it out see if we can make it work without killing each other for two weeks. If at the end of two weeks I feel like I just can't do it, I get to leave," I told Alberta. I hated to be so demanding but I wasn't going to be forced to work with him if I didn't want to.

"Perfect! I'll draw up a temporary contract that will let you leave if you choose to. you can come back tomorrow and get started," Alberta said with a smile.

"I still have a job so we'll have to work around my work schedule," I told Dimitri.

"That's fine, just come in tomorrow and let me know your schedule so I can work around it," Dimitri said before Alberta could even open her mouth.

"Ok well I guess I will see you tomorrow," Alberta said giving me a hug before walking back towards her office.

"Well this will be a fun two weeks, can I watch?" Christian asked.

"Shut up," I said hitting his arm. I grabbed Lissa and walked back towards the entrance. I turned one last time to look at Dimitri. He was still watching his face blank. I could see his eyes were swarming with emotion, just couldn't tell which ones. I quickly turned and walked out of the door.

Christian had a point but I'm not so sure about the fun…What have I gotten myself into?

Later, Lissa and I were at Liss' apartment. We were having a girls night, like we often did. She had just ordered our food and we were sitting on the couch talking.

"So you and Dimitri Belikov huh? Why did you never tell me who it was?" she asked nosily.

"Because for one would you have believed me if I told you I had dated the Dimitri Belikov?" I asked rolling my eyes.

"Well, it would be kind of hard to believe…heck it's still hard to believe. So what exactly happened? You never really told me details."

"Not much to tell. Girl meets boy, they become friends, eventually start dating, boy moves away and never looks back," I said not wanting to get into it.

"Well how long have you known each other? How did you meet? When did you start dating? Why did he leave?"

"Woah slow down," I laughed. "We met when I was in 1st grade and he was in 3rd. we were in Recess and one of the older boys was trying to pick on me, Dimitri came and made the boy back off only for me to get mad at him for saving me. We started dating his senior year and he left a few months later to join the band. Didn't hear from him again until today," I said omitting the half-assed post card he sent and the one or two phone calls.

"What took you two so long to get together?" she asked sounding shocked.

"Well I knew I loved him long before we got together but didn't want to say anything because I didn't want to ruin our friendship. Finally I got tired of hearing his complaints and kind of gave him an ultimatum telling him to decide who he wanted and go for it. That night we got together," I smiled at the memory. That was the night he won the football state championship game.

"Tell me about it!" Lissa squealed excited.

Flashback:

"Oh my gosh Dimitri do you hear yourself?" I said frustrated. He had been complaining about how he and his latest girlfriend had broken up and he wasn't sure if it was a good idea. "You were only dating for like a month! If you couldn't make it last that long then I doubt it was true love."

"Who says a month isn't long enough to fall in love?" I gave him a look. "Ok fine then miss know-it-all how do you know if it's true love?"

"I don't know. You just kind of know." He smirked thinking I was going to prove him right. "It's got to be that can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars, over the fence, world series kind of love."

"Quoting Mary-Kat and Ashley now? Wow you really are a genius!" he said sarcastically. I did get that off of one of my favorite movies as a kid. Vika and I used to watch it all the time and force Dimitri to watch it with us. I was hoping he wouldn't catch that.

"Ok fine you caught me but, that is a great analogy. I don't know, first of all you have to actually get along at least some of the time and agree on more than just how pretty you both are," I joked. It was no secret that Dimitri and Julie did not get along at all, they had nothing in common and were always fighting. I mean Dimitri and I fought all the time but we also got along most of the time and had stuff in common. Dimitri and Julie did not. "Well put it this way. Who would you want beside you no matter what, through the good and bad? If all your dreams came true who would you want by your side? That's how I would decide if it's really love."

"Not bad Hathaway. Who knew you were such a romantic?" he joked.

"Shut up," I laughed. "Don't you have to go get ready for the big game?"

"Oh yea! See you later," he said running out the door.

Later that night

I was standing on the side of the football field with Mason and the cheerleaders. My pretty good friend Mia was the cheer captain so Mase and I got to sneak on the field whenever we wanted. Julie, Dimitri's ex and another cheerleader, hated that because she hated me but she never said anything.

"So have you told Dimitri yet?" Mia asked.

"Told him what?" I asked.

"That you love him of course!"

"Mia! Be quiet and no."

"Oh girl, you need to hurry up and tell him so he can get his head out of his ass and realize he loves you too!"

"As if."

"You may not see and he certainly hasn't yet but that boy is head over heels for you! Why do you think him and Julie didn't work out. Half of their fights were over you!"

"What? He never told me that!" I said shocked.

"Yea she was pissed because you and him are so close and she said he needed to quit hanging out with you if he was going to be with her."

"Whatever I don't believe that I was the reason they broke up, anyway don't you need to go line up?"

"Oh yea, see you later!" she said rushing over to the rest of the cheerleaders and then heading out towards the field. Mason and I went back to our seats in the student section with Vika.

Halfway into the game it started pouring, luckily I had stolen Dimitri's letterman jacket earlier in the day because I had forgotten mine in my rush to get out of the house, so it wasn't so bad at first. Three quarters of the way in it started raining so the game was postponed for 30 minutes but, now we were back in the stands and the game was about to resume. It was still pouring but the lightning was gone so they decided we could still play.

I looked around the stands and started to laugh. There were maybe 15 students still left in the student section, most of the visiting teams fans had left. Their band and cheerleaders were back in their buses. Half of our band and cheerleaders had also left but a few still remained. About a quarter of our fans were still there, the others had probably went to vehicles or restaurants to listen to the game on the radio. Babies. It's just a little rain. It didn't help we were losing. It was 35 to 21 at the start of the fourth quarter and wasn't looking very good.

At some point the 15 of us that were still in the student section decided that we needed to make up for all the fans that had left so we were screaming at the top of our lungs. I knew tomorrow I would most likely not be able to talk and inwardly laughed at all the jokes I knew Dimitri would make if I lost my voice but, I didn't care. It wasn't every day your school makes it to the state championship. It was like there was a buzz in the air that just made you laugh and scream and cheer and jump up and down.

With a minute to go we were tied so whoever scored next pretty much won. They had the ball but our defense quickly got it back. The entire audience, well what was left, started cheering but, I couldn't hear them. I knew I was screaming with them but I couldn't hear it. The only thing I could hear was my heart pounding in my ears going Boom…Boom…Boom. Time seemed to slow and I even forgot it was raining. Boom. They hiked the ball. Boom. Aaron saw Dimitri ten yards away from the end zone and threw the ball. Boom. Dimitri jumped up. Boom…Boom. He caught it! Boo…Boom. Just 5 more to go. Then 3. Now just one more yard and we win. Boom. He was tackled right at the line. Did the ball make it? Everything seemed to freeze as we watched the referee. Slowly he raised his hands. TOUCHDOWN! Everything seemed to come rushing back right then. I heard the stands erupt, felt the cold of the rain again, and watched as the team jumped and cheered and clamored into a big cheering mass. I squealed before turning and hugging Mason and Viktoria.

"Go find him, he'll be happy to see you. I'll catch up." Vika yelled in my ear over the fans. I smiled at him before rushing into the mob of students and families on the field. At first I couldn't find him anywhere, one of the problems with being short it didn't help it was still pouring. Then I heard my name being called behind me. I turned and found Dimitri about ten feet away. Somehow he had already stripped out of his jersey and shoulder pads and was just in his tight under armour sleeveless shirt that he wore under his shoulder pads. I ran and jumped on him hugging him. He caught me as I wrapped my legs around him.

"It's you," Dimitri said in my ear as I was hugging him. I pulled away but stayed

"What?" I asked confused.

"It's you. You're the one I want with me when all of my dreams come true, through the good and bad. It's you."

"Are you sure?" I asked hesitantly. I made to get down but he grabbed me tighter.

"I've know it for a while but didn't want to admit it. I love you Roza," he said smiling.

"About time, I love you too comrade," he leaned in to kiss me but I stopped him. "Are we really going to be that cliché? Confessing our love and kissing in the pouring rain right after the big game?"

"I think this time we are," Dimitri laughed.

About then a voice piped up beside us. "So kiss already!"

We turned and saw Vika standing there laughing.

"You two and that damn movie!" Dimitri chuckled.

"Well are you going to kiss me already?" I laughed. He leaned down and kissed me. It felt so right and so perfect. Well perfect until I heard Viktoria beside us.

"Ok you can stop now…I said kiss not make-out…this is gross,"

Dimitri broke the kiss long enough to tell Vika to shut up or go away. Sooner or later we did stop kissing, about the time Olena and his Sonya found us. Karolina had left to get Paul out of the rain. The rest of the night was spent laughing and taking pictures and just hanging out.

Present:

"Oh that sounds so amazing and romantic. I'm officially jealous!" She laughed.

"Don't be. That night was perfect but the relationship ended horribly." I said sadly.

"But the question is was it worth it?" Lissa asked. "From the sounds of just your beginning, it seems you probably had an amazing relationship.

"Don't get fantasies in your head. We still fought a lot. You know in the notebook how it shows them arguing ALL the time? That was us minus the Nicholas Sparks ending"

"Hey you don't know that? Even Noah and Allie spent years apart," she smirked.

"Trust me,," About then I was saved by the doorbell.

"Oh there's the food!" Lissa said getting up and heading to the door. While she was gone, I pondered her question. Was it worth it? Would I do it all over again? That amazing night in the rain that led to a horrible sore throat and severe cold by the way. All the other amazing nights. The fights we had. Him leaving. Seeing him in the magazine with Tasha. THAT horrible night. I really want to say yes it was all completely worth it but I'm not sure anymore. That night almost killed me and I don't know if a few month of happiness was worth that pain, mentally and physically. Then the depression after…was it worth it all? Maybe it was, maybe it wasn't I don't think I would have an answer to that question anytime soon.

Lissa came back and I successfully distracted her by bringing up Christian. The rest of the night I avoided the Dimitri topic.

That night I had dreams of football, rain, and pain, crying, blood, and Dimitri walking away.