It does have like 9 songs in it but it's 23 pages long so don't be too mad! I put all the song lyrics in the chapter in case anyone wanted to know them, you don't have to read them. They are bold and italicized. Not going to lie some of these songs I added just because I love them so much and they did fit the story line for the most part.
Thank you to 'Vampiregirl2014' for suggesting the first song in this chapter! If anyone has made a suggestion I will try my hardest to use them!
Lastly if you're not already reading 'ShadowhuntingDamphir2014's story 'Never Walk Alone' You should go check it out. It's pretty great!
Thank you for still reading this story and not giving up on me!
"So you gripe me out about how your songs aren't about me then, turn around and sing a song about me," he said with a tinge of humor in his voice.
"Couldn't resist," I smiled. "I love that song."
"I can tell," he smarted off.
"Well you seemed like you wanted me to do a song about you to fulfill your ego, so there you go."
"Fulfill my ego? How on earth does that have anything to do with my ego?" he asked confused.
"Because obviously you wanted me to do a bunch of songs about you so then you could think that I've spent all of these years pining over you and have nothing better to do," I told him pretending as if that wasn't halfway true. I did pine over him for quite a while and I still love him…well the him I used to know, but I have moved on and started dating other people.
"I never said anything about you writing songs about me. You brought it up!"
"You insinuated it first!" I retorted.
"Did not. I just said those weren't what I was expecting."
"Dimitri I know you and I know what you were expecting. You forget that we used to know each other better than we did our own selves. Just because you've turned into some big shot asshole doesn't mean I can't figure out what you mean."
"How am I an asshole all of a sudden?" I gave him a look saying 'seriously?'. Luckily my phone cut off further conversation. I dug it out of my purse and looked at the caller id.
"Shit!" I said realizing I had forgotten to call Jesse like I had told him I would. I quickly answered. "Hey babe."
"What the hell Rose you were supposed to call me hours ago!" Jesse answered angrily. "I've been calling for the last twenty minutes!"
"Can you turn the mic off please?" I asked Dimitri then went back to my phone conversation. "I'm so sorry. I got distracted recording and I guess I never heard my phone over the music."
"Yea that's the excuse I would use too," he smarted off pissed.
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" I snapped back.
"Well if I were off having an affair I would make up some bs excuse like that too."
"What are you talking about I'm not having an affair! You should know by now that I'm not that sort of girl. I'm with you and you're the only I want to be with."
"Look I'm sorry for freaking out. I just hardly ever see you and now you're not even calling when you said you would. How am I supposed to know what you're up to?"
"I'm sorry but you know I've been busting my ass off working. We can hang out soon I promise. I have a day off soon and I'll tell Dimitri I can't record and we can hang out. Okay?" I placated. He did have a point we had been going out for a while now yet we hadn't seen each other in a while.
"Fine but it better be soon."
"It will be, I promise. For now can I let you go so I can hurry up and finish and get out of here? I'll call you tomorrow."
"If you have to. Love you."
"Yea you too," I replied before hanging up. He had said I love you several times now but I just couldn't bring myself to say it back. What can I say? After so much heartbreak I've learned not to fall so fast and easy. I sighed and threw my phone back into my purse.
"Damn men," I muttered then turned around back towards Dimitri.
"Done?" he asked.
"Yep," I said popping the 'p'.
"That looked a little tense," he said nonchalant.
"Not any of your business," I said sharply.
"Ouch. Must not have been a very nice call I take it."
"Again none of your business," I said getting aggravated.
"Hey now I'm just trying to help."
"How by annoying me to death. Not that it's any of your business but that was my boyfriend and things are fine. I just forgot to call him earlier that's all."
"Hold on you just got in a fight because you didn't call him because you were busy recording? Wow."
"What's that supposed to mean?!"
"Nothing. You've got yourself a real winner there."
"Hey at least he didn't love me and leave me! Pretty much anything is better than that!" I yelled before I could help myself.
"It wasn't like that and you know it."
"Do I? Do I really Dimitri? All I know is we had something good. You ended it and left with barely a glance back."
"Do we really have to get into this again? Are you really that bitter?"
"Oh get over yourself Dimitri. Do I still carry scars over that? Yes and I probably always will but I am not bitter. I have moved on."
"Oh yea and you seem to have picked a real awesome guy to move on with."
"Hey he's a hell of a lot better than Tasha!"
"Leave her out of it."
"Then quit talking about Jesse like you know him!" I yelled angrily. "You don't know anything about our relationship so stay out of it."
"Jesse who?" he asked.
"What does it matter? You most likely don't know him."
"Jesse who?" he asked more forcefully.
"None of your damn business!"
"Please tell me not Jesse Zeklos."
"What if it is?"
"He is not good news. I've heard some stuff about him and you need to stay as far away from him as possible."
"Newsflash, just because you've heard things about him does not mean you know him."
"He will only end up hurting you Rose you need to stay away from him," he warned.
"Trust me I'm a big girl. I doubt he can hurt me" I said before thinking 'can't break a broken heart'.
"Can you please just trust me on this?" he asked sounding frustrated.
"Can you just stay out of my personal life. I can handle myself." About then my phone went off again. I quickly checked it and saw it was Vika.
"Oh look it's your sister! Want to answer it. Oh wait never mind I forgot you don't talk to family anymore!" I smarted off frustrated. I quickly answered it before it went to voicemail. "Hey vika, I'm a little busy can I call you back later or tomorrow?"
"I guess," she muttered sounding depressed.
"What wrong?" I asked worried.
"Nothing," she replied.
"Viktoria Belikov don't you dare lie to me," I told her.
"I'll just tell you later. You said you were bust plus it's stupid just boy drama."
"It's fine I'm just recording with my annoying producer, but he can wait," I said looking pointedly at Dimitri. He sighed, got up and walked out of the sound booth towards the kitchenette. "Ok he's gone now spill."
We ended up talking for about fifteen minutes. It turned out the guy she likes, Nikolai, went out with another girl and she was upset. I finally convinced her that she needed to go tell him how she feels because I know he secretly loves her but won't admit it because she's never shown interest in him besides friendship. She started asking me questions about my producer and why he was so annoying, I tried my hardest to avoid the questions and give ambiguous answers. I told her he was just a jerk and pried too much. I didn't have the heart to tell her that Dimitri was my producer.
When I hung up, Dimitri still wasn't back. I grabbed a guitar and started playing not even paying attention to the chords.
You've got a new life now
You're free from our old times
I can't understand how
Was all I knew a lie?
We could live all we ever dreamed if you just remember you love me cause
I oh I
I remember way you used to hold me
I remember thrills we used to share
We seem to be strangers passing by now
Oh did you forget how we once cared
I remember way you used to hold me
I remember thrills we used to share
We seem to be strangers passing by now
Did you forget how we once cared
What can I do to remind you of the truth
Who you really are and all that we've been through
Take my hand feel what I feel
Find a memory and let it reveal
This dream is real
I remember way you used to hold me
I remember thrills we used to share
We seem to be strangers passing by now
Oh did you forget how we once cared
I remember way you used to hold me
I remember thrills we used to share
We seem to be strangers passing by now
Did you forget how we once cared
I won't let go
I won't let go
Even if it takes forever
Someday we'll be back together
Don't let go
Don't let go
I will love you for forever
Till the day you remember too
I remember how you used to hold me
I remember thrills we used to share
We seem to be strangers passing by now
Oh did you forget how we once cared
I remember way you used to hold me
I remember thrills we used to share
We seem to be strangers passing by now
Did you forget how we once cared
Did you forget how we once cared?
"Now that's what I've been waiting on," came Dimitri's voice from the sound booth. I jumped in shock.
"What the hell? Don't sneak up on a girl like that. How much did you hear?" I asked praying he didn't hear the whole thing.
"Just the last few lines. Enough to figure out the gist of the song." He said a little smug
"Fine are you happy now? Is your ego better now? Yes I do have quite a few songs about you. Considering you were my best friend for years and you WERE my first love, it would be surprising if I didn't. BUT that does not mean that I'm not over you, I wrote that a few years ago," I said lying it was more like a few months..maybe days…ago. Well I wrote part of it a while back ago and finished it a few days ago.
"Well then let's hear some more."
"Are you sure you can handle it? Some aren't so nice."
"I'm a big boy, I'm sure I will be perfectly fine."
"Whatever, you asked for it," I said grabbing the guitar and a stool. I got a great idea all of a sudden so I closed my eyes like it was really emotional and started playing.
So since I'm not your everything (irreplaceable)
How about I'll be nothing (nothing)? Nothing at all to you (nothing, nothing)
Baby I won't shed a tear for you (I won't shed a tear for you)
I won't lose a wink of sleep (a wink of sleep)
'Cause the truth of the matter is (truth is)
Replacing you is so easy
To the left, to the left.
To the left, to the left.
"How about we try a song you actually wrote," Dimitri interrupted.
"Took you long enough," I smirked then shook my head. "I was just getting into it too!"
"Yes well how about you quit stealing from Beyonce and sing something of your own,"
"Aw you're no fun," I said fake pouting.
"And quit that!" he said sounding aggravated.
"Quit what?" I asked innocently, widening my eyes.
"Quit trying to use sarcasm and humor as a shield. It's not working," he said seeing right through me as usual. I admit part of me is using my wit as a shield, that way he can't see what I'm really feeling…and also to stall singing songs about him to him.
"Don't know what you're talking about," I said returning to my guitar tuning it for the next song.
"Yes you do. Quit." He told me. "What's next?"
"A song I wrote called 'Used'" I said before starting to play.
You come walkin' round here
Actin' like we're somethin', ohh
Then you up and disappear
And make it real clear that we're nothin'
I've been used
Damaged by you
Oh I've been used, now I'm cryin'
By you, now I'm dyin'
Yeah cuz I've been used
Guess I knew
Cuz that's what you do
Well if love was just a crime
You would never do the time
Now would ya
Could you love somebody else
The way you love yourself
If it suits ya
I've been used
Damaged by you
Oh, I've been used
Now I'm cryin'
By you, now I'm dyin'
Yeah cuz I've been used
Guess I knew
Cuz that's what you do
I gave you what you asked
You gave me nothin' back
Now did ya, ohh
It's like I was your drug
Til the fix wasn't enough for you, ohh
I've been used
Damn you
I've been used now I'm cryin'
By you, now I'm dyin'
Cuz I've been used
Guess I knew
Cuz that's what you do
That's what you do
Oh, I've been used
"So that's how you feel?" he asked as if he didn't care and was just making conversation.
"Nope, that's how I used to feel but, now my give a damn's busted," I told him, lying again, quoting one of my favorite country songs. "Next?"
"Go ahead,"
"This one is called 'Love Like Mine', it's a favorite of mine,"
So you think that you're the one who's up in score
Just 'cause you're the first one walkin' out the door
Well take it when you leave
I don't need the sympathy
I might stay up drunk on wine, hurt like hell, and ugly cryin' black mascara tears
I might lock my door, sleep with my phone, miss you bad for a month or so, but let me tell you somethin my dear
I'm gonna be just fine but you're never gonna find another love like mine, oh no no
See I think you think that new means better off
But the proof's in the pudding once the shine is lost
So go and get yourself
A little taste of somethin else
I might stay up drunk on wine, hurt like hell, and ugly cryin' black mascara tears
I might lock my door, sleep with my phone, miss you bad for a month or so
But let me tell you somethin my dear
I'm gonna be just fine but you're never gonna find another love like mine yeah
It's startin to sound like a good idea
The more we're standin here
I'm gonna stay up drunk on wine, hurt like hell, and ugly cryin' black mascara tears
I'm gonna lock my door, sleep with my phone, miss you bad for a month or so
But let me tell you somethin my dear
I'm gonna be just fine but you're never gonna find, no
I'm gonna be just fine but you're never gonna find, no
I'm gonna be just fine but you're never gonna find another love like mine, oh no no
Never gonna find another love like mine, oh no no
"This one is another favorite of mine and yes it is about you also." I told him before moving over to the piano. This is probably one of my more emotional songs that I felt comfortable…well as comfortable as one could get in this situation…to sing in front of him. It helped that the piano was facing at the wall. I adjusted the mic so it was closer to me. I sat down, closed my eyes, and took a deep breath before playing.
I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
It was true. Before Dimitri I didn't believe in love…well I did just not for myself. I believed there was such thing as true love but, I didn't believe it would ever happen to me. All of my relationships stayed shallow and I was fine with it…until I realized I was in love with Dimitri.
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart
How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry
I did try to stop my feelings for Dimitri once they started. I fought them from the beginning. I kept fighting until I finally realized it was pointless.
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
All my life...
I opened my eyes but I didn't look away from the pianos keys. I figured maybe it would be better if I didn't say anything. After a minute I chanced a glance at Dimitri but his head was down hiding his face. For some unexplainable reason I got the urge to sing a song I had never had sang in front of anyone. I don't know if I needed to sing it just to get it out or what but it was the only song I could think of at the moment.
"So there you go, it was emotional like you asked. I've got a better one for you though. It's NOT about you though…" I trailed thinking of what it actually was about. I really never imagined singing this in front of Dimitri…I never really imagined singing it for anyone when I wrote it. A part of me, a huge part of me, still doesn't want to sing it but, I'm hoping it might help me by singing it. If not I can add it to my album and hopefully it will help others. It will help that he has no idea what it's about. I started playing before he could say anything. I closed my eyes and let the music take over.
7:42 in the morning
8 seconds before it all sinks in
Put your best face on for the world
Fake another smile and just pretend
But you're just puttin' off the pain
Nothing's ever really gonna change
So let it hurt, let it bleed
Let it take you right down to your knees
Let it burn to the worst degree
May not be what you want, but it's what you need
Sometimes the only way around it
Is to let love do it's work
And let it hurt
Yeah, let it hurt
3:28 in the morning
Countin' up the spaces between the rain
You're gettin' used to the rocks at the bottom
Your heart goes numb, but the lonely stays the same
And that's the price you're bound to pay
And there's really nothing anyone can say
Oh, there's only just one way
So let it hurt, let it bleed
Let it take you right down to your knees
Let it burn to the worst degree
May not be what you want, but it's what you need
Sometimes the only way around it
Is to let love do it's work
So go on
Yeah, let it hurt
You might just find you're better for it
When you let go and you learn
To let it hurt, let it bleed
Let it take you right down to your knees
Oh...
Sometimes the only way around it
Is to let love do it's work
So go on
And let it hurt
Oh, let it hurt
7:42 in the morning
8 seconds before it all sinks in
By the end I wanted to cry, scream, and run. I chose the latter.
"I have to go to the bathroom, I'll be right back," I said not looking Dimitri's way. Instead of going to the bathroom I went out a back door that led to an alleyway and leaned against the wall.
So maybe that wasn't as cathartic as I had hoped it would be. I was hoping that maybe letting it out would help. I can't believe I just sang a song about THAT in front of HIM!
"Stupid!" I hissed at myself. I felt tears welling up but I pushed them away yet again. That's happening way too much lately. I took a few deep breaths trying to calm myself before sitting down and putting my knees up. I laid my head on my knees and tried to clear my head. I should have never even thought of that song.
I remember the day I wrote it. I had gotten up like many other days, plastered a smile on my face and went through my day pretending I was fine. I went to school, laughed at all my friends jokes gossiped with Mia but then…then someone came over and tried to start drama, as usual, it didn't bother me at first we were used to it, especially me. We did the same routine, she told us the latest rumor about us we made a sarcastic remark back and so on. It went fine until she said something that I just couldn't handle. I figured knowing my quick temper I would have jumped her but instead I went deadly silent, luckily Mia smarted off for me. I ended up having to leave early because she had gotten too close to the truth…well partly. I ended up on Olena's doorstep.
She made me something to eat even though I insisted I wasn't hungry then she told me, "Roza I know you're still hurting and I know this will be a part of you forever but, you need to quit holding it in. you need to let it out. Quit pretending that you're fine. You need to let it go, let it hurt, grieve, because if you don't you are never going to move on with your life…"
I then preceded to write that song that night.
I heard a door open beside me but I didn't look up.
"It stopped raining," Dimitri said coming beside me.
"I hadn't noticed," I said looking up and towards the street.
"Still believe I can't possibly have problems?" I joked without humor. "I'm sitting in an alleyway getting my ass all wet over a stupid song."
"It happens to the best of us. Want to talk about it?"
"Nope."
"Didn't figure you would," he said sitting beside me.
"Why'd you come search for me? I told you I had to go to the bathroom?"
"You've been gone twenty minutes."
"Oh," I said surprised. I didn't realize I had been out here this long.
"Yea so I figured something was wrong. Plus glass windows. I saw you head the opposite direction." We sat there for a few minutes in silence while I tried to calm myself.
"Well guess we should get back to the music," I said standing up. He followed.
"We can stop for tonight if you want," he told me sounding sincere.
"No I'm good. I have a few more I want to do."
"These are really good Rose," he said opening the door. "Gonna be hard to narrow them down."
"Oh just wait Belikov, they get better," I told him wanting to do a few more songs. I quickly made my way to the stool and mic once inside.
"This one's not really meant for an acoustic guitar but it will work. It's called 'Wide Awake'"
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was in the dark
I was falling hard
With an open heart
I'm wide awake
How did I read the stars so wrong?
I'm wide awake
And now it's clear to me
That everything you see
Ain't always what it seems
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
'Til I woke up on
On the concrete
Falling from cloud nine
Crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight
Yeah, I'm falling from cloud nine
I'm wide awake
Not losing any sleep
I picked up every piece
And landed on my feet
I'm wide awake
Need nothing to complete myself, no
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I am born again
Out of the lion's den
I don't have to pretend
And it's too late
The story's over now, the end
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
'Til I woke up on
On the concrete
Falling from cloud nine (it was out of the blue)
I'm crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting you go)
I'm falling from cloud nine
I'm wide awake
Thunder rumbling
Castles crumbling
I'm wide awake
I am trying to hold on
I'm wide awake
God knows that I tried
Seeing the bright side
I'm wide awake
I'm not blind anymore...
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I'm falling from cloud nine (it was out of the blue)
I'm crashing from the high
You know I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting you go)
I'm falling from cloud nine
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
"Well as much as I love these sappy songs let's do some fun ones! This one's fun. It's called 'Chainsaw'. I think you'll enjoy it. It might bring back a few memories," I said trying to get out of this depressing mood after doing that song.
We scratched our names
In that oak tree
'Cause I loved you
And you loved me
A jagged little heart so the whole town knew it
Carved in the bark with an arrow through it
I came out here to see it one more time
And I got my chainsaw
Oh you know it's got to go, it's such a shame y'all
But I ain't gonna be happy until those names fall
And I'm sittin' on a stump
Love is shady
Love is tragic
It's hard to bury the hatchet
Holdin' a chainsaw
I guess all those years
They don't mean a thing
Now I can't wait
To count those rings
Nothing left of us but dust and splinters
A big pile of wood to keep me warm through the winter
'Cause I don't have you
But I got my chainsaw
Oh you know it's got to go, it's such a shame y'all
But I ain't gonna be happy until those names fall
And I'm sittin' on a stump
Love is shady
Love is tragic
It's hard to bury the hatchet
Holdin' a chainsaw
I remember what you said that night
That you would love me for the rest of your life
We wrote forever with a pocketknife
But forever's goin' down tonight
I got my chainsaw
Oh you know it's got to go, it's such a shame doll
But I ain't gonna be happy until those names fall
And I'm sittin' on a stump
Love is shady
Love is tragic
It's hard to bury the hatchet
Holdin' a chainsaw
"Did you really cut down that tree?" he asked astonished. I shrugged.
"I guess you'll have to go find out for yourself…wouldn't put it past me though," I told him with a smirk.
"You really cut down a tree?"
"Guess you'll never know…and why do you say it like I can't cut down a damn tree? I've cut several down thank you,"
"Liar," he said looking directly at me.
"Fine, not several but I have cut one or two down in my life!" I said smugly. "Anyway the next one is called 'DONE.' It's not exactly about you, just most men in general. All the different relationships I've had. Well really I wrote parts of it after you then finished it after a few others."
You've been wearing that crown and tearing me down
It's been a while since you've treated me right
You strung me along for far too long cause I never gave up the fight
Until now
It's gonna hit you hard 'til you see stars
It's gonna put you through a world of hurt
Oh, I don't believe in getting even but giving what you deserve
Oh my, oh my, huh.
Mama always told me that I should play nice
She didn't know you when she gave me that advice
I'm through with you
You're one bridge I'd like to burn
Bottle up the ashes, smash the urn
I'm through with you, la dee da
I don't wanna be your "just for fun",
Don't wanna be under your thumb
All I wanna be is done
Done
You crossed the line too many times,
I'm gonna put you in your place
You play with dynamite, don't be surprised
When I blow up in your face
Oh my, oh my, huh.
Mama always told me that I should play nice
But she didn't know you when she gave me that advice
I'm through with you
You're one bridge I'd like to burn
Bottle up the ashes, smash the urn
I'm through with you, la dee da
I don't wanna be part of your fun,
Don't wanna be under your thumb
All I wanna be is done
(Done) with your selfish ways
(Done) and all the games you play
I'm through with you and everything you say
Mama told me that I should play nice
She didn't know you when she gave me that advice
Mama always told me that I should play nice
But she didn't know you when she gave me that advice
I'm through, with you
You're one bridge I'd like to burn
Scatter the ashes, smash the urn
I'm through with you, la dee da
I don't wanna be your "just for fun",
Don't wanna be under your thumb
All I wanna be is done
All I wanna be is done
Oh
Hey, hey, ooh,
I wanna be done (so done)
So done (so done)
So done
"I'm only going to do two more. Only because these last two are two of my favorites. The first one is called 'Wasting All These Tears'."
I tried to find you at the bottom of a bottle
Laying down on the bathroom floor
My loneliness was a rattle in the windows
You said you don't want me anymore
And you left me
Standing on a corner crying,
Feeling like a fool for trying
I don't even remember
Why I'm wasting all these tears on you
I wish I could erase our memory
Cause you didn't give a damn about me
Oh, finally I'm through
Wasting all these tears on you
These tears on you
You ain't worth another sleepless night
And I'll do everything I gotta do to get you off my mind
Cause what you wanted I couldn't get
What you did, boy I'll never forget
And you left me
Standing on a corner crying
Feeling like a fool for trying
I don't even remember
Why I'm wasting all these tears on you
I wish I could erase our memory
Cause you didn't give a damn about me
Oh, finally I'm through
Wasting all these tears on you
These tears on you
And you left me
Standing on a corner crying
Feeling like a fool for trying
I don't even remember
Why I'm wasting all these tears on you
I wish I could erase our memory
Cause you didn't give a damn about me
Oh, finally I'm through
Wasting all these tears on you
These tears on you
I tried to find you at the bottom of a bottle
Laying down on the bathroom floor
"So I caused you to drink?" He asked. I just shrugged.
"It was a hard time for me, and not just cause you left. You were the tip of the iceberg. Whiskey numbed the pain when I had no one else to turn to."
"What else was going on?"
"Just some other stuff. Only I had no one to turn to so, I bottled it in then drank till I forgot about you and them, the b-" I quickly stopped myself. "and everything else. It didn't last long. Mason and I started hanging out and I stopped drinking so much and just started hanging out with him and the rest of the gang again."
"Oh."
"Yep," I said. "Anyways this is the last song. I have more but I'm bored of this trip down memory lane so we can finish it up another day. This one is not really about you even though parts of it do apply to you. It's probably my favorite. No ones ever heard it before though."
I finally kept my pride
And hailed a cab
Those cuttin words you said
Were the last stab
There'll be no tears this time
They've all dried up
No more sweet poison
I already drank that cup
This tunnel's dark
But there's a little light glowing
Bright enough for me to run toward knowing
Nothing in this world will ever break my heart again
Nothing in this world will ever break my heart again
No pain this life will put me through
Will ever ever hurt like you
Don't need a miracle
A superhero
There's only one way up
When you're at zero
You took my innocence
But it was knowing
No I don't need you
And that made me a woman
I paid my dues
But that's a debt I'm done paying
I'm standing strong
But I'm still on my knees praying
Nothing in this world will ever break my heart again
Nothing in this world will ever break my heart again
No pain this life will put me through
Will ever ever hurt like you
When I was done I had tears in my eyes but I quickly closed them so they didn't spill over. That's the last thing I need, Dimitri to catch me crying. Like I said that's been happening way too much here lately.
"What's it about?" Dimitri asked quietly.
"Nothing." I said quickly, not wanting to let him in.
"Well, whatever it's about it was beautiful," came a new voice from behind me. I turned startled. Standing there was none other than THE Adrian Ivashkov. He was a huge pop singer and was known worldwide. My jaw dropped. "Sorry about the intrusion. I came in to work on a song and saw you in here. I've heard some great things from the people around here about you and I wanted to check it out. Seems they were right. You are amazing."
"Thanks," I said trying not to blush. I really don't listen to his music but it's awesome to get complimented from some one of his status.
"Did you write that yourself?"
"Yea, I write all of my own stuff."
"That's awesome. Do you ever co-write?"
"I've written songs with friends before…why?"
"Well I'm kind of stumped on this song I've been working on. Think you could help me out?"
"Well I don't usually write for your type of music but I can try," I told him.
"Ok well i'm in Studio B so if you want you can stop by when you're done here or tomorrow sometime. I'm recording all day so I'll be here."
"Actually we're done now so I can come help out."
"Uh Rose I'm about to leave and I'm your ride home," Dimitri input.
"Oh that's fine I can give her a ride," Adrian said acknowledging Dimitri for the first time.
"Yea see he can give me a ride," I told Dimitri before turning back towards Adrian. "Let me just grab my stuff and I'll meet you in there."
"Awesome. Later Belikov." Adrian said before walking out.
"Rose I really don't think this is a good idea."
"Yea well I really don't care. I can handle myself plus artists should always help each other out and he seems nice enough. It's not like I'm going out with him. Just writing a song."
"I warned you," he said.
"Whatever. See ya later Belikov." I said before grabbing my guitar and walking out the door.
Songs used:
"I Remember" Alexandra Monir
Clip from Beyoncé's' "Irreplaceable"
"Used" Hayden Panetierre
"Love Like Mine" Hayden Panetierre
"Cry" Rihanna
"Let It Hurt" Rascal Flatts
"Wide Awake" Katy Perry
"Chainsaw" Band Perry
"DONE." Band Perry
"Wasting All These Tears On You" Cassadee Pope
"Nothing In This World Will Ever Break My Heart" Hayden Panetierre