Ponyboy's POV

I sighed as I sit down on the swing set and just stared off at my hands. I am not who I really am. So, I am not a Greaser? Am I a Middler? A Soc? I sighed as I ignored the questions flying around in my mind. I pull out a cigar light it. I take a long drag and sighed as I rubbed my temples.

I can't believe I found dad 's, I mean ' diary. I groaned. I hated those words of harshness he wrote about my real mom, Jane, about how he shouldn't have dropped dead off of the planet leaving both of her kids with them. I sighed and leaned my forehead against the chains of the swing set.

Mr. Curtis faked it all just for . At least he did love someone. I dropped the cigar onto the sand and gently crushed it with my foot. Suddenly, I felt a tap on my shoulder. I groaned and pulled my forehead away from the chain of the swing set and opened my eyes and get off of the swing and turned around to see a pair of blue eyes. I sighed and said "How can I help you?"

The boy said "Aren't you to young to be out here kid?"

I gritted my teeth and jabbed at his chest and said "I am not a kid. I am 15. Thank you very much. And no, it's not late, now mind your own damn business."

He rolls his eyes and takes a drag and said "The names James but call me Jack."

I said "And why should I care?"

He shrugs and said "What's your name Greaser?"

I sighed and said "Pony, Ponyboy."

He said "Ah, no wonder you look so familiar."

I raised an eyebrow as he takes another long drag and said "You are Sodapop's kid brother."

I said "He ain't my real brother."

He said "Yeah mhm sure kid."

I am not a damn kid gosh damn it. I said "I am serious."

He chuckles a bit and said "Whatever floats your boat my friend, whatever floats your damn boat."

I groaned and just glared at him.

Suddenly a girl walks upto us and opens her mouth as she was about to say something but he eyes land on me and she shyly looked away and looked at Jack, I think that's what he told me, and said "Jack? Can we go home now, please?"

Jack drops his cigar and stomps on it and said "We shall Adeline. Nice meeting you Ponyboy Curtis."

I muttered "I am not a Curtis."

Adeline said "Oh. Curtis as in Sodapop Curtis? Are you his little brother?" She doesn't look at me she was playing wih the edge of her cardigan.

I groaned. Why does everyone compare me to Sodapop! Aren't I a human? Nobody knows me by my personality or good looks? Why do they indirectly compare me to Sodapop and judge who I am based off of him! I hate this. I can't do this shit anymore.

I grunted and said "Sadly yes."

She curiously looks up at me and said "Sadly? Why?"

Jack warningly said "Addy."

I said "Cause I hate being compare to him. I am a somebody to. I don't like being judged because of what and who my brother is. I am me and he is himself. We are two different people with two different personalities and have to different ideas off life."

She looks at me with awe and Jack's eyes were widen and he said "I thought you would love to be known as Soda's kid brother?"

I said "I don't. Now it's gonna be late, just leave."

Jack runs his hand through his hair and said "See you later kid. Come on Addy lets go."

Adeline smiles sadly at me and said "Okay Jack...Bye Ponyboy, nice meeting you."

I just rolled my eyes. Another desperate chic- I shouldn't judge her. I said "Yeah whatever. Bye."

The boy and girl leave. I sighed as I sit back on the swing set and rock back and forth.

I wish I was a soc. I hate this Greaser fake life. Stupid Soc. Stupid Greasers. Stupid Life.

A/N: Thank you for reading! :) Please Comment/Like/Review and I am trying my best to make my further more chapters a bit longer. School is killing me guys sorry! But thank you for waiting! :)

Lots of Hws,

SJ