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Just like she expected the Divas weren't particularly brilliant human beings, she was half surprised she didn't kick some of them really, not like she could expect much more seeing that they accepted the way WWE used them, she couldn't stand that, sure the female division of UFC had less followers than the male one, mostly because people thought women couldn't fight at the level of the guys and time and time again she had been happy to prove, to the guys who said something similar to her face, that a kick in the stomach no matter who throws it can still hurt pretty bad and you should probably think twice before speaking to someone that spent his life training to be a fighter.
She shook her head, trying to shut her thoughts down for a bit and concentrate on what she was seeing on the TV screen in front of her, the night had went by pretty quickly, even if the Divas weren't a good company to chat of problems bigger than 'Where did I put my lipstick?' and who the hell put on make up before a match anyway? That was just useless, you're going to ruin it in half a minute while you're in the ring, even if Divas match sometimes were even shorter than that, she had to admit.
She really couldn't get her head in this kind of game, not when it was painfully obvious that she wasn't made for this, for bright coloured attires and silly musics when you step in the arena, not for the storylines to follow and the wins or losses already scripted from someone, this wasn't where she could find her fighting style or even someone that could match her, not in the Divas department anyway. She was used to getting out of the ring with bloody knuckles and a broken cheekbone on a good day, and all of this, she knew it was just as important and it required just as much training, but this was entertainment, this wasn't fighting, this was putting on a show for the kids and the entire family, and her hands itched to tear apart the contract she had signed just the day before, she couldn't fake fighting, she grew up in a family mostly composed by guys, she grew up knowing how to throw a punch and to dodge one, but that was all real, there wasn't a moment in which she had to think twice about something in fear of getting hurt, she just wasn't wired that way, hell she enjoyed the adrenaline flowing through her veins she was risking her own safety in the ring with a worthy opponent, she fought twice as hard when someone threw a punch that for all intentions and purposes was thrown to take her down for good, she didn't just lay down and wait for the judges to decide she had lost, she got to her feet and hit her adversary stronger, quicker and more motivated then before, and all of this, putting on a show... She didn't know how far she could go by doing only that.
She had lost condition of time again, she always did when her thoughts got too loud to ignore, and when her thought mostly made her doubt her abilities... She really didn't want to dwell too much on that, not when she had a signed contract expiring two years later and a situation in her old work environment that she couldn't control like she wanted.
Before she had even realised it the main event had passed by and she was happy for it, she just wanted a cup of real coffee and a bed so that she could continue reading the last issue of Green Lantern, sleeping wouldnt've come as usual but that wasn't a big problem for her.
She almost jumped out of her skin when she felt a hand on her shoulder, followed soon enough by her brother's voice
"Alex, show's over, we can go back to the hotel, you riding with me?" She nodded quietly, running a hand through his hair
"Yeah, sure, didn't really want to ride with any of the Divas anyway." She said absent mindedly, shaking her head to concentrate properly on what John was telling her instead of a spot in the wall.
"Good, we have a lot of things to talk about, you've been off the radar for days, everyone was worried, it's not like you to just disappear." She could hear that John was really worried, and she was sorry that she was the reason for that, but she needed some time off and that meant being alone, really alone for a few days.
"Yeah, yeah, I know, I promise I'll explain everything, but after a cup of coffee, I'm not sure how I'm keeping myself on my feet right now." She said, picking up her bag and following her brother towards the exit, she knew she had to explain everything to John and she was going to do that, eventually, she just needed to buy herself some more time to get her own thoughts straight before she could tell him everything.