Chapter 5 Slipping
I spent the rest of the day in my room except for dinner where Rarity made my favorite I guess it was to try to make up for not getting me a ticket to the gala. "Look Sweetie Belle I'm terribly sorry for not getting you a ticket." She said as we sat down to eat. I remained silent I was to mad to talk to her. "Sweetie Belle how long are you going to give me the silent treatment?" I just kept eating and when I was finished I went back upstairs.
"Sweetie Belle I said I was sorry." Rarity called up to me.
"I don't care you knew I've been waiting forever to go!" I screamed at her. "Just go away!" I heard her leave and I began to cry. In the morning I got ready for school, I put on the black headband and walked down to the music store where Cord was already ready to go.
"Are you alright?" He asked
"I'm fine Cord I don't know why you keep asking that." I replied
"Well for starters normally you come by with your other friends, second your sister came and talked to my brother she seemed really upset, and third I've never seen you wear black before though it does look good."
"What do you mean she came by your place?" I asked
"Well she walked in her makeup was smeared and runny, whatever she did to you she feels awful about it."
"Like I don't! I had been looking forward to going to the gala for years!" I screamed at him I half expected him to scream right back at me.
"That's not what it is? When you feel like telling me what's really going to with you I'll listen." He said calmly before walking away from me.
"What's that supposed to mean!" I yelled as he walked into the school building. I followed him and took my usual seat. After school Cord went to the music store and headed reluctantly home, when I got there Rarity was waiting for me and she was pissed.
"Sweetie Belle I don't know how long you think you'll get away with this silent treatment but it's going to stop now. All this fuss over one little ticket, you've been making me feel awful for the past two days and it stops now." She said firmly I turned my head away from her. "Sweetie Belle look at me when I'm talking to you!" She yelled I ran up to my room and locked the door.
"I HATE YOU!" I screamed as loud as I could. I began to cry and punch my pillow. "I hate you, I hate you, I HATE YOU!" I cried as loud as I could before throwing my pillow across the room. In the morning I dress in all black I even debated on dying my mane. I walked out of the house I wasn't mad anymore in fact if anything I was beginning to feel really down. I walked to the music store not wanting to face my other friends for fear they would be talking about the gala and I would feel worse.
"Hey Sweetie Belle maybe you shouldn't be going to school today." Cord suggested as we walked towards the building. He stopped me gently with is hoof right before I walked into the building. "Just do yourself a favor and go home and get some rest this will all get better I promise." He reassured me and I went home. Rarity didn't notice me walk in and I headed up to my room, I noticed a needle by my bed. I lifted it with my magic and pressed against my arm not enough to draw blood just to feel something. I heard somepony walking upstairs and I dropped it before I could do anymore harm, I got into bed and started pretending I was sick.
"Sweetie Belle?" Rarity asked and I gave a few small pathetic coughs and she closed the door. I laid in bed all day not wanting to do anything.
"Hey Sweetie Belle Apple Bloom and Button got their cutie marks." Rarity said from the other side of my door.
"okay." I said still sounding pitiful. Cord had to be wrong there was no way this was getting any better. One day home turned into two which turned into four, and the needle only became more tempting. On the fifth day I finally gave and pricked my arm and allowed myself to bleed a little. I felt like I didn't matter anymore and that I deserved it.
"Knock knock." Rarity walked in with something to eat. "You feeling any better if not I'm going to have Twilight come take a look at you."
"No I think I feel worse." I replied