What did I say about finals and studying first? ... I really have no idea.
I managed to find a balance between writing and studying for now! Once I'm finished studying I give myself the last hour I spent on my computer for the day writing!
... A promise I couldn't keep because I started with this today, but I'll study after this! Really!

Alright, back to business.

Thank you all for your lovely reviews, the louder you yell, the bigger my smile.
Also, I realised I have finally written a nice story about Kidou/Fudou for once. (Sharing the same dream). No plot twists, not much sadness. Aren't you guys happy?
This also means I am allowed to destroy you again with a new chapter of this!

Now I must say, this one is not really exciting. Not very long either, (because 4,4876 words is not 'that much', really I spent too much free time on writing!). It's just not very spectacular. But I am looking forward to showing you the chapter that follows after this one. It will have some things you like! (or hate). So stay tuned for chapter 5! ... It's not written yet but it'll be good.

Last note, Amaya0Miyako mentioned that now they're adults "teenage troubles" isn't really relevant any more. I know, it bothered me too, but the decisions they made as young adults made them the persons they are today. It all started there. And of course, there will be some flash backs. But I totally get what you mean. Sorry if this still doesn't make much sense. I just loved the title, I guess.

Please enjoy!

"I am as much as her parents as she is! I didn't do anything against the law!" His arms are getting pulled back with force. The cold metal of the tightly clenched handcuffs is cutting into his wrists. Kidou tries to lull him, as if he could remain calm! That bitch Kidou calls his wife has betrayed them. A heavy hand is laid in his neck and he gets pushed down the stairs. A handful of curious neighbours has gathered around the house, from a safe distance of course. They all want to know what a police car is doing in front of the Kidou mansion in this quiet neighbourhood. If he wouldn't be in handcuffs, he would have laughed. Kidou has a lot to explain. What will they think of them once Kidou tells him that he's certain that the child is his, because he was the one having an affair with another male. It mustn't be a shock to everyone, Fudou suspects that they're not the first men to have an affair with each other here. Who can stand their wife? Somewhere in the crowd he recognises his former girlfriend, who is holding Yara tightly against her chest. As soon as she sees him she starts calling for her father. He will never forget her confused expression and heart-breaking cries as she vainly kept crying for him.

"Yara! I'm coming for you baby! Be a good girl, your dad loves you, alright?"

The agents drag him away from his daughter as if he's a criminal. "Let go! This is my child you imbeciles! Let me see my daughter!" Another hard jerk and the officers push him further down the garden pathway into the police car. Kidou runs after him.

"Yuuto! They can't do this, right?" He hears an emotion in his voice he has never had before. Despair, fear. "She is my daughter!"

"I know, I'm sorry…" Kidou puts his hand on the glass when they shut the car door. "I promise that I'll get you out!" Sounds his muffled voice. Fudou yells at him again, the engine starts and he is unable to hear Kidou's last words over the noise. On the way to the police station he can't even hear the wailing sirens anymore. The only sounds haunting his mind are Yara's cries when they tore her apart from him, and Kidou's last audible words.

"I promise that I will get you out."

Fudou gets taken to the police station for the interrogation. The maximum time for the questioning is six hours, but they didn't need those this time. Fudou admitted that he had taken Yara. No, it had not been premeditated, it was an impulse. Yara had not been in immediate danger with her mother. Reason for the 'kidnapping'? She wanted to take his daughter from him! Yes, he did take good care of her. No, of course he didn't abuse her. No, he feels absolutely no regret.

What his relationship is with the family he was staying? Simple, he has a relationship with the man of the house. No, he is not after his money. They have known each other since they were fourteen. Their first encounter… is that really relevant?

Fudou has answered all the questions, the trial record is made and after they took him into custody he ends up in a small, one person police cell. He must hand in all of his personal belongings. Then take the laces out of his shoes, remove his belt, and other garments which he could harm himself with. This is in order to prevent potentially self-mutilation, or that he'd hang himself in his cell. For this reason he is not allowed to have tobacco products, matches and lighters with him in his cell. Fine, if being arrested alone wasn't bad enough.

He is not allowed to see anyone for the next few hours, with the exception of his lawyer. He doesn't need to call one, he is sure that Kidou will arrange one for him. He is put into custody until the court has ruled.

Fudou is unexpectedly called out of his cell, there's a visitor for him. "'bout time." He mumbles once the handcuffs are around his wrists again and he gets pulled out of his cell. He is taken to the visitors room where he expects to see either Kidou or his lawyer, but instead there's a blonde woman waiting for him.

"That you have the gore guts to show your face around here! If it wouldn't be for these handcuffs then I would – "

"Inmate!" Calls the supervising agent. Right, no physical contact, no raising of his voice, and certainly no profanity. He sits down across from Yuuna once the handcuffs are removed, who is looking at him with a scornful smile on her face. "Enjoying yourself?" He snorts.

"To see the man who seduced my husband in handcuffs? I am more than happy to be here."

"Come to business." He growls as he leans over the table, keeping a close eye on the regulator.

"I am here to deliver a message from Yuuto. He is not coming to visit you."

"Not coming or you forbid him from doing so?" He snarls irritatedly.

"Hush, let me finish." She soothes him, as if she's talking to an inconvenient child, what only gets more on Fudou's nerves. "Yuuto and I had a nice little chat together and we decided to give each other another chance. He asked me for forgiveness, or rather, he begged me to take him back. You should have seen his face, on his knees in front of me. He admitted every mistake he made."

"The last time he sat on his knees in front of me quite something else came out of his mouth."

Yuuna makes a disapproving expression. "This is exactly the difference between us, and the reason Yuuto doesn't want to continue with you. You do not fit in his lifestyle. You are the opposites of each other. He admitted that it was exciting, something different, our marriage wasn't working well, but now that is about to change." She folds her hands over her stomach. "As you are aware, I'm pregnant."

"It would not surprise me if you made up this pregnancy. He told me how difficult it has been for you to have a baby, and when he's standing in front of you, ready to confess he's having an affair and he doesn't want to continue with your marriage you are magically pregnant. No-one's buying that, missy, and Yuuto ain't stupid either."

"I have waited a while to tell him the news, yes, but I am most definitely pregnant. That's actually how I found out between you and him. I had my suspicions, Yuuto was behaving differently when you were around. The many trips, working overtime. In the past he complained when I spent time with my girl friends, but now he encouraged me to. And the amount of semen that came out after a day, it surprised me that one of those seeds was able to impregnate me. Either way," she continues when she sees Fudou's horrified expression. "I wasn't feeling well for a while now, and I was over time for the first time. When I tried to hide the positive pregnancy test I found the evidence of Yuuto's infidelity. I was shocked, but my suspicions were confirmed.

"And instead of confronting your husband you made a plan to get your revenge."

"Indeed. It was a plan to get rid of you for good, and win back my husband. I must say, it worked out pretty damn fine." Fudou glances at the guard who seems to be engrossed in his magazine. If he gets up now, would he be able to fold his fingers around her neck and squeeze all the life out of her throat until the guard reaches them?

"Give up, Fudou." Her voice is sharp. This might be the first time since he came to live with them that she has called him by his name. "Yuuto has chosen me over you. Me and our baby. This is what he wants."

Fudou flies up from his chair and slams his fist with a loud bang on the small, plastic table between them. "YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT HE WANTS!"

"INMATE!" In a few steps the agent is with them. He's faster than Fudou expected. Yuuna waves at the agent with an angelic smile. "It's fine, officer." She says sweetly. "He's just a little rough."

The officer, who clearly hasn't seen a woman, let alone had a girlfriend, in years turns red and nods. "Alright, but keep your boyfriend under control, ma'am." He turns and shuffles back to his desk to continue his article. Softly muttering to himself how unfair it is that the criminals always get the hottest and most beautiful women.

"Now you have to listen to me." She hisses as soon as the agent is out of hearing distance. "I've had enough about your crap that you know Yuuto better than I do. You are his friend and I accepted that because somehow Yuuto appreciates your presence, but you have crossed a line that should never have been exceeded. He needs his best friend in this tough period. You haven't seen how much he missed you when you were suddenly too busy for him. He did everything for you and you took advantage of his kindness. You only show up when it's convenient for you, have you ever done something for him in return?" She pauses, but not long enough for Fudou to think of an answer. "No, I don't think so either. Suddenly you come live with us because Yuuto can't say no to you. You overwhelm him with your troubles, but do you take the time to listen to his misery? Instead of supporting him in this difficult time in his marriage you try to win him over. You seduced him with your sexual comments and charming smile."

Fudou clenches his fists, he would do anything to give that woman a good punch on that beautiful face of hers, and pull all of her blonde hairs out. Then they'll see who is laughing last.

"But you will never win, Fudou. You can sleep with my husband, give him love and attention, but you cannot give him what he has always longed for. A family, fatherhood. His own child."

Fudou hates her, he despises her and he doesn't understand that Kidou willingly married this woman at some point. But deep down he knows that she's right. Her words cut deep into his soul. What has he ever done for Kidou? And he adores Yara, but she will never be his daughter. Fudou shuts his eyes. He will never admit his loss to her.

"I don't blame him this little slip, I haven't been the best wife he could wish for, but we are starting over. A life without you, and if you ever try to get in touch with my husband again I will ensure that you will never see the life outside these bars again." The last words she spat out full with contempt, then she gets up, nods at the guard and leaves the room.

"Got dumped?" Asks the officer in charge after a long silence, which only lasted because he wanted to finish reading his article. His eyes are full of hope, how pathetic. Fudou stands up so he can put him back in his handcuffs and bring him back to his temporary cell. "She's all yours."

The days till Fudou's process flew by. Kidou put his own lawyer on the case, but no matter how they looked at it; Fudou is guilty. Nine years in prison, claimed Takanashi's lawyer, but that was unrealistic according to his own.

During the hearing Takanashi had summoned quite a few witnesses. Neighbours and acquaintances who had often heard the couple argue. Fudou is unreliable, they said, and because of the fiery attitude he had shown earlier in court the jury had soon taken the side of the mother.

She wanted to summon Yuuna as a witness, who had picked up an imagined conversation about the kidnapping, but when Kidou threatened to reveal their affair she withdrew. Her testimony would seem as act of revenge and jealousness, and even more people would find out that her husband had an affair with another male.

Then she had the brilliant idea to let Yara testify against her father, who explained with childlike innocence that daddy took her one night before she could say goodbye to mommy. Lucky for them, his lawyer made sure that Yara got labelled as too young to testify. It is too easy to manipulate a child, and therefore her declaration was invalid. Unfortunately, they gathered enough evidence. Fudou is an unstable parent who has not enough to provide for his daughter, it had been a misguided kidnapping. They could not muster any sympathy for the man with the criminal record who initially forced an abortion on the mother and threatened her when she wouldn't do it. A man with no job, who was still involved with dealing drugs, and didn't want anything to do with his daughter the first few months.

Bullshit, Fudou called it, but the jury pleaded him guilty.

Fudou had acted on an impulse, he wanted to protect his daughter. The way he handled was wrong, but he acknowledges his mistakes and indicates his regret (this at the insistence of Kidou and his lawyer). Ultimately, the judge came to two years, but it could be an early release if he exhibited good behaviour. Kidou begged him to behave, not only for himself but for his daughter. She should not grow up with her father in prison.

He barely sees Yuuna these days, he is trying to avoid her as much as possible. He often sleeps in one of the guest rooms. He is focussed on his work and uses every opportunity to work longer. When he's not at work he tries to spend as much time as he can out of the office with friends. Yuuna wants to keep trying with her husband, she cooks for him and gives him presents he's not waiting for at all. Kidou drinks more, he thinks it's necessary to be at least a little intoxicated to endure the company of his wife. The only thing that gets him through is the thought that he will be a father, and whatever happens, he will not leave the child alone with his mother. He wonders if this was Fudou's argument as well when he took Yara. Kidou misses Fudou incredibly, but there's nothing he can do about it. Occasionally he gets letters from him. He gave Fudou his office address so Yuuna won't find out that they're still in touch. And when Fudou is allowed to call they use his work phone. Fudou tells him about his adventures in prison, but Kidou suspects that most of it isn't true. He just wants to appear strong in front of Kidou. Kidou keeps him up to date with the developments around his daughter. He already has someone keeping an eye on her. If there is any signal that Yara's 'kidnapping' was the right thing to do, it is possible Fudou could be released.

Kidou finishes his drink, he's drinking scotch without the ice these days, much stronger. Fudou often teased Kidou with his low alcohol tolerance, but now Kidou is happy with it. He promised Yuuna that he would come to their room to spend some time with her and the baby. When he enters the bedroom Yuuna is on bed, wearing beautiful new lingerie specially made for pregnant women, reading a magazine. She looks up at him with a smile when she sees her husband come in. "Did you know that it doesn't hurt the baby if we have sex?"

"Is that what your magazine says?" Kidou notes, a little annoyed, while he loosens his tie.

"Yes, you can go on with having sex during the pregnancy as long as you want. Unless there are medical reasons why we should not do it. Sex during the pregnancy isn't only pleasurable, but it helps the mother prepare for giving birth. It keeps your pelvis smooth and strong." Kidou smiles faintly, he can come up with enough medical reasons why they should not be having sex, but he keeps his mouth wisely shut. He bought her this magazine so she would be distracted for he while. If he would have known this would happen…

"Many woman think that by having sex it's infringing the safety of the baby, and that it could even cause a miscarriage, but that's not true." His wife quotes with absolutely no hint of shame, and ignoring Kidou's disturbed expression. "There is no chance that the penis will reach the baby when it penetrates. This is because the foetus is packed tightly in the membranes and amniotic fluids." She rubs slowly over her own bulging belly.

Fudou had told Kidou that Takanashi had no visible stomach until a few weeks before the delivery, it was barely visible that she was pregnant. Yuuna, on the other side, is obviously pregnant. If he would still have any feelings for her he would have loved the sight of his pregnant wife. He would be the proud father he is now only pretending to be, because he doesn't feel anything. Not for her, at least. "Moreover, there is a bend in the vagina so the penis can't even come near the uterus."

That's a little too much information for Kidou. If he had been tempted to do it with her, then these facts were surly not a stimulation. Rather a major turn off.

"It would be able to feel the rocking motion, but it would only put it to sleep. It's like I'm walking, it won't be any different." It bothers Kidou that she still referrers to their child as 'it'. She refuses to go to the doctor with him and ask for the gender. She wants it to be a surprise.

Kidou only thinks of that as impractical. Fudou thought for three months that he was having a son, but eventually he got a daughter. Unlike them, they can actually afford preparations such as a crib, preparing the baby room, and purchase clothes. That's actually what he would like to do, it would give him the feelings that he can still do something for his child, instead of letting him come to the world with a terrible mother. Yuuna must have notices that it troubles Kidou and sits up.

"Yuuto, I would like to make an appointment with the doctor. I think it would be good for us to see the baby, and know the gender." She caresses fondly over her belly. "I'm actually very curious too if I'm carrying a boy or a girl with me."

Kidou's mood brightens up, normally this news would not have much effect on him, but then he's not completely sober. "You would? I mean, I could call the doctor now and make an appointment for us tomorrow."

Yuuna giggles at his enthusiasm and moves herself on her knees. She holds Kidou by his tie and draws him closer. "So," she whispers softly in his ear. "If I do this for you, would you help me?"

Her hands start with loosening his buttons. "I am incredibly horny." To reinforce her last words she caresses Kidou over his crotch. Kidou gently nudges his nose against hers and kisses her. It's been months since they were intimate, and had any physical contact. It's the combination of the alcohol, Yuuna's beautiful lingerie, the news of the doctor's appointment, and that he's been dry for a while now that he allows this. With one hand he unhooks her new bra and gropes her breast, which have increased in size since her pregnancy. He is gradually becoming more enthusiastic. He slowly caresses her body, down until he reaches her protruding belly. When he feels that he abruptly stops. The exciting feelings he felt vanished the moment he touched her stomach. How can he have sex with her if his son or daughter is this close? He gently pushes her away from him. "I can't."

Yuuna exhales an annoyed sigh and lets herself fall down on the bed. "Is this about him?"

"What? No, it's not. This is about that I can't do…this while you're carrying our child. It doesn't feel right."

"I don't think it would mind, it's how you got it in me too." Kidou makes a sour face, did she have to put it like that? "You know what? Fine, then don't." She says fiercely as she pulls the covers over herself. "Just leave to your office and pathetically jerk yourself off to a photo of your ex-boyfriend. But you can forget about the echo now.'

Kidou wisely ignores her first comment. "You let a doctor's appointment depend on whether I sleep with you or not? Now that is pathetic."

"Call it whatever you want but if I don't get what I want then neither are you."

"You already took what I want from me." He mutters quietly. "Alright, if I have sex with you, will I be able to see my child?"

Yuuna's mood is immediately restored and she smiles sweetly. "Of course, honey." It's almost sickening how abruptly her mood changes when she finally gets what she wants. Kidou takes off his shirt and climbs over his wife. This woman is not the woman he was forced to marry five years ago. That young, just eighteen year old girl, who was paired with him after a business deal between their fathers. If Kidou would have known that hour would have changed his life he would not have done his best to satisfy that old pervert and showed him the door.

Yuuna was very different when they first met. She was sweet, shy, and caring. He wanted to protect her from their fathers' choice, and show her that being forced to marry him would not be as bad as a marriage with another man. He didn't think he would become the victim once again years ago.

After the night that he got the news everything went rather quickly. The engagement was made official that same day and he would meet her as soon as she turned eighteen. While his father and the staff were busy with the preparations for the wedding Kidou went back to his own apartment, trying to think of a way to tell Fudou that he is engaged. But Fudou had other concerns on his mind. He had to take care of his girlfriend and new born daughter. He was looking for a job and a place to live. Kidou suggested that they could live in his apartment. He could sleep with Takanashi in his room, Fudou's room would transform into a room for the baby, and Kidou would move back home. Fudou found it difficult to let go of his pride but Takanashi gratefully accepted his offer, and of course Fudou had been grateful too.

Between studying and preparing for the wedding Kidou tried to spend as much time as he had to help Fudou. They searched for information about parenting together, Kidou helped him finding a job, but what he enjoyed most was refurbishing the baby room. Takanashi chose the furniture and they would paint the walls, it seemed like the best idea to listen to the mother. They spent days together on cleaning, painting and putting together the new furniture. Even though they time together was wonderful, Kidou could not enjoy it the fullest. The wedding was gnawing at him. The weekend before he was going to meet her he finally confessed his engagement to Fudou. Just like how Kidou was shocked to hear about the pregnancy, Fudou was shocked that his best friend was getting married. Kidou told him everything, with the exception of how he got involved into this. Fudou supported him in all the possible ways he could think of. Even though he had a daughter to watch over, he tried to spent most of his free time with his best friend. After Kidou's marriage their lives would be entirely different. Kidou found his difficult to accept, and he suspects Fudou thought the same way about it, because they never seriously spoke about how this would affect their life. Perhaps they both held onto the lie that nothing would change, maybe they could stay together, but they both knew this would be tough.

Yuuna tosses a pack of cigarettes on the table. "Here, I know it's hard on you. I saw you on the balcony." Kidou watches her in uncertainty, waiting for something to follow, a favour perhaps, but that doesn't seem to happen.

"It's just a stage." She smiles. "You're very sensitive to getting addicted. I understand."

Kidou has taking over the smoking after the sex from Fudou, and it's difficult to get rid of it. Soon he was handed a cigarette after every round and he found himself gasping for more. Secretly he smokes on the balcony now, or at work. He smuggles in the packs from the gas station. But in the weekends, it's harder to hide his addiction.

Kidou, who is happy with his wife's good mood, promises that it will be the last one. The cigarettes don't taste the same without sex, without Fudou. It's only a bad habit now, a reminder of his friend. He pulls Yuuna on his lap as a way to thank her and whispers rehearsed phrases in her ear. Things he knows she likes to hear. He tells her how beautiful she is, how happy he is with the pregnancy. He tells her how Fudou was just a phase. A whim from the period of their unhappy marriage. It reminded him of his youth, he felt like a teenager again, and it had been exciting, but there was no future. With the last cigarette from this pack, his superficial feelings for Fudou would be over. Yuuna suppresses a happy giggle and gets up, they're about to get ready for the echo. He watches her as she leaves the room. Once he had real feelings for this woman. It seems so long ago.

The first meeting with his future wife went better than he anticipated. Yuuna was a sweet and innocent girl. Apparently she was relieved too when she saw Kidou, they were both prepared for the worst. Against his expectations they got along really well. They had lots in common too. Their love for literature and sports, she's smart, funny and Kidou actually thought he found his dream girl. Suddenly the whole idea of getting married wasn't so bad anymore. He could proceed with his studies, and then they would start a family together. On the day of the wedding, when he saw Yuuna in her beautiful wedding grown, he was head over heels in love with her and said the resounding yes.

For two years it had gone pretty well. He graduated cum laude from the university and their real life together would start. They moved to a lager house where they would get children, and maybe spend the rest of their lives together. Unfortunately it all went differently than they hoped. The childbearing remained unsuccessful and this caused a lot of tension between them. Their lives consisted of quarrels and planned sex. When the arguments became more intense, and he slept more often in a guestroom than his own bed he realised how much he missed Fudou in his life. The contact between them watered down. At first they called each other occasionally, they texted each other but the amount of texts slowly diminished as the two men were occupied with the family life, and Kidou's lack of it. He never thought this would happen, but through time Fudou had become nothing more than an old high school friend. Someone from your past who seemed very important, but when you reach a new stage in your life you slowly forget about them. He had no idea how his former best friend was doing, until he was standing in front of him again in his home, and there was this spark between them.

It took years for Kidou to realise he had always been in love with his best friend. He was aware that what they shared was something special, but he had never associated it with love before. But it explained the chemistry between them, always that tension, and the kissing under influence. Apparently when they were drunk it was not experimenting, but it were their true feelings that surfaced. He often wishes that he would have realised this sooner, then his life would have been different. He would have run away from home with his friend, and Fudou would probably not be in prison. He knows that he can't change the past and he shouldn't think about it too much, but these are the thoughts that keep him awake at night when not Fudou, but Yuuna affectionately snuggles up against him.

Thank you for reading, and please do share your thoughts with me about this chapter, I am looking forward to it!
Chapter five will be longer (unless I decide to split it again). I love the first part of chapter 5 especially, but for now you guys will have to wait!

Angel