AN: Okay this is a little dry, lack of narrative and almost all monologue. But it's his story, so I suppose he's allowed to lecture. Tell me what you think of it.

Chapter 5

He had their attention. It was unwavering in their gazed. He almost wished they would forget he was even there. It would be easier to speak his mind to an empty room than to spill these long guarded secrets of his to the ones he wanted as friends. But that was why he was telling them…because he wanted them as friends. He didn't want to loose them. The only choice was to risk everything to make them understand.

"I don't know how this happened. I suppose I was just unfortunate to be born to a man so devoted to his god. I was the son of a priest in Egypt. My father was the high priest of Ra. I lived for but twenty-six years as a normal human. I was faithful to my father and to Ra. I served as was expected of me. One day, my father came to me, and he made me dress in finery I had never worn, and he took me to Ra's temple and presented me to his god. Ra…" Daniel gave a tiny chuckle, a smile bitterly touching his lips, "always so young in that child body of his. He looks so innocent until he speaks. You remember him, right Jack?"

Daniel glanced up at his commanding officer, surveying the man's stony face. Jack nodded his head in affirmation, dark eyes boring into Daniel.

"Ra approved of my father's breeding. I was a rare find among the Egyptians. You notice I do not look Egyptian at all. My mother was from somewhere else, I never knew where, and my father was only part Egyptian. Ra thought I was beautiful," Daniel spat sarcastically. "He probably wanted that more than anything else in the host he chose for Anubis. He bade me follow him and I did. I allowed him to lay me down upon his alter. I didn't do anything. I didn't run, though I knew what would happen to me. I was frozen, so aghast at what my father had done. He bred me to please his god…I was never anything to him but an offering."

Daniel cleared his throat, blinking back angry tears. He clenched his first on the table, nails digging into his palms.

"Foolish slave," he hissed, eyes narrowed to slits. "I showed him…he paid. His suffering was as sweet as wine."

"Daniel," Jack prompted softly, alarmed by the archeologist turn of attitude. It seemed that they would be getting a lot of mood swings for a while.

Daniel jerked his head up, eyes wide and wild for a moment, then he calmed, releasing his clenched fists and leaning back fully into his chair.

"As you can guess, I was implanted with Anubis. He was so powerful, so old. But Anubis, with all the power he had, was not content. He allowed himself to be experimented upon. I don't what happened. The head scientist was Nirrti's mentor, her teacher, but he knew far more than she ever did. She was never part of the project, just him and his two assistants. And just to show you how arrogant Anubis was in his power, he never even learned their names." Daniel pursed his lips, closing his eyes briefly before continuing. "I do not know what experiments were done to us. Even Anubis didn't know what the scientist was doing. He was merely the subject. He was promised more power. Anubis always wanted more. He wanted to be the uniquely made one…But something went wrong. The Goa'uld died and all his memories were dumped into my new host."

"Your new host?" Jack demanded in a strangled voice.

"You know what I mean, Jack," Daniel shot back.

"No, I don't. I've never had a host!" Jack spat.

"Don't do this to me, Jack. I don't need this! I didn't have a choice, remember? I will always be like this. Anubis was ancient, even to the Goa'uld. That's a lot of memories to be mingled in this frail human head. You think everything of the host survived? At first I didn't even know he was gone. I thought I was him!" Daniel was nearly yelling by the end of his tirade, almost shaking in his rage.

"Please calm down, Dr. Jackson" General Hammond ordered quietly, sending a scathing glare at Colonel O'Neill. "And please continue."

"Alright." The young looking man complied, forcing himself to relax again and speak calmly. "When Anuibis died, all his memories and everything he was was given to me. I have the Goa'uld genetic memory in my brain. Shifu didn't have to give me that dream for me to know what it is capable of. For the longest time, I continued on in the capacity of Anubis, thinking I was him. But when we finally realized that I was dead…I killed them…all of them. I slaughtered them! I didn't want answers from the scientists. I didn't want them to fix it. I wanted them dead!" Daniel's eyed rolled back, closing, as he continued on. "I took on Anubis' role, because it was my role. I made the System Lords bow at my feet. And, oh, what an intoxicating sight that is…"

Then Daniel suddenly sat up straight, his face composed as he slowly looked each and every one of them in the eyes.

"You know," he spoke quietly now, all hunger for power gone from him. "It's very easy to tell people you're a god when you have nothing left to lose. When everything has been taken away from you. When you have no home to return to and no family that will take you back because to them you are dead, and to not be dead would be a betrayal to their god. And what did Anubis have left either? He was dead; he just continued to live on in me. But it's not the same. We feel hollow without his living form. Yes, it was very easy to take what they had given Anubis, what he had earned though his malice, and use it as my own. A selfish thing to do, perhaps, but I did not care. I was more Anubis then anyway. But my people gave up on me. They gave me away to be destroyed.

"I was bitter for a long time. I took it out on those that served and those who were served. It made me no better than any of the System Lords. But for most of that time, I was still mostly Anubis. Over time we…blended in a way. We merged together. We are not longer separate entities in one head. A human Goa'uld, who would have ever thought such a thing could exist?" Daniel gave a sour bark of laughter, not seeing the distress on his friends faces. "Finally, after years, I came to my senses. I fled. I have traveled the galaxy and back. I stumbled across an ancient transportation device and used it to have access to my temple and my sarcophagus. I have always dealt harshly with the System Lords. They will do as I command if I demand of them. They fear my retribution, for they do not understand the power I hold. After a while, I returned to Earth. I am the reason Ra fled Earth, not some pitiful rebellion. I allowed the Stargate to be buried and I waited. For five thousand years I waited, and finally the Stargate was found again. I set up my life as Daniel Jackson and what a pleasure it was to be asked to puzzle out the mysteries of the circle that I had always known. I gave you a good show, I think. I have been told that I can be a great actor when I want to be."