5.
"Any news on our convict, Watari?" L asked, in the early morning before anyone else had made it to headquarters. Watari took a sip of his tea, and set it down. The clink making its way into L's headset, as he touched it to recover from the sound, he was brought back to the night before and felt a wave of shame plague his body. He had always prided himself for his constant resolve, almost nineteen years worth of resolve destroyed and wiped away in less than ten minutes. He felt his cheeks go hot, but was interrupted by Watari.
"He's doing well, quite calm actually."
"And there's no way anyone could find out who he is?" L asked, and Watari laughed, "His case was never broadcast in Japan. He used an alias to commit the murders… only you, myself, and the warden know of his true identity." L smiled,
"I told Light that I was the one to use the note."
Watari's face went white "Ryuzaki…."
"If something happens to me… I wanted someone to know." The dark haired man's voice was quiet.
"He still doesn't know your name, ryuzaki." Watari said, attempting to console both the man on the other side of the screen, as well as himself. He often forgot that L was not his own child, and despite the lack of any biological connection, felt more concern over the boys life than he had felt for his own. Or… anything else, for that matter.
L lowered his head, "Not yet." He said, and it was then that the security system indicated that people were on their way up, "I'll talk to you soon, ryuzaki." Watari said softly, "Please be careful."
L smiled before signing off, "Be careful?" he then heard from behind him, turning around to see a very concerned looking Light.
Both men were quick to avert their gaze over their separate, but shared embarrassment. "It's nothing." L reassured him, "You look horrible."
Light approached him carefully, "I had a pretty terrible night." He said, scratching the back of his next uncomfortably. "Oh?" L asked, feigning ignorance, "What happened?"
L turned to Light to study his actions, since he had known the truth, too much of the truth to be exact… he would know for sure whether or not Light was lying to him. He immediately noticed the blush creep onto Light's cheeks as L began staring him down.
"Misa and I, well… I don't think it's going to work out."
Light was obviously itching under L's gaze, L had accepted that what he had said fit into last nights activities… but he wanted to hear more.
He told himself it was for research… but deep inside he knew that he wanted, to some extent, to be able to confirm his fantasy.
"Why not? Did something happen?" As L asked, he began playing with the skin on his thumb, pretending to be ignoring light when in fact he was doing anything but.
Light sighed, lowering his head "We slept together." He said quietly, and L's head popped up, in fake surprise. "You mean you hadn't before?" he asked, and Light shook his head, "I had promised her I would when we caught Kira… but, well…"
"But what?" L pressed, and Light simply walked closer, "Watari's still watching us, isn't he?" he asked, and L shrugged, "Well yes he has the monitors on, but I doubt he watches them 24/7"
Light rolled his eyes, "Where can I speak with you in private?" he asked, "My room." L replied softly.
"But no one has ever been in there before."
"Can you make an exception?" Light asked, and the dark haired man chewed on his bottom lip in consideration."Just this once." He finally mused, to which Light smiled.
As he followed L down a dark corridor, the existence of which had been unknown to him until now, he noticed one password protected room at the end of the hall. L pushed his thumb against the monitor, and the door opened with a loud *click*
"After you." He said quietly, extending his arm for Light to follow. As soon as Light spotted the single computer laying in the centre of the room, he knew he had hit the jackpot. Finally, he felt his heart begin to race as, if able to gain access that is, L's name was finally within his reach.
"What is it you'd like to speak with me abo-?" L asked, but before he could finish his sentence, Light had shoved him roughly against the wall. He held him there for a minute, as L kept his arm up, pressing into Light's throat. "You're fast" Light breathed, his grip loosening on L's shoulders as they began to run gently down his arms.
"You don't need to protect yourself from me." He said, his eyelids lowering as he grabbed L's arm and lowered it down to the side. L was still stoic, his body unchanged despite the close proximity… "Do you know why I don't want Misa?" Light continued, raising his hand until it became intertwined in L's thick, dark hair. L didn't reply.
Light smirked at his silence, giving the other man's hair a tug. "It's because I want you…"
L finally moved, his arms reaching out until they grabbed on to Lights shirt, Light began to smile wickedly, when all of a sudden, in one fail swoop- L had spun them around, leaving Light beneath L instead.
L held onto Light's shirt and moved in closer to him, "Why are you doing this now?" he asked, in a much calmer manner than his words and actions would suggest.
"Why not before… why not during Yatsuba… when we were chained? How can this want just appear out of nowhere?"
"Does that mean you've wanted me longer, Ryuzaki?" he asks with a smirk, to which L doesn't say a thing. Light sighs, his smile forced off of his features, "It started when the chains came off.." He began, "And I realized, that I didn't want to leave…"
Finally, L feels something… a tiny something, manifesting itself in a slight shiver coursing through his body. Despite this, he still has an overwhelming want to kick him in the face.
How is such confliction even possible?
"L…" Light whispers, pressing his forehead against the other mans, "What do I have to do to get you to believe me…" he works his hands down so that they're resting on his hips, just above the waistband of his jeans… he moves slowly, as to not scare L away. "We've worked together… we found Kira together…"
L closes his eyes, "we located one manifestation of Kira together…" he corrected.
"But the murders have stopped… L, what if you're chasing a ghost?"
L let go of Light, but didn't leave his grasp. "I'll know soon." He said, as he continued to allow Light to run his hands under his shirt and up and down his body. Despite how much he had wanted to though, he refused to react to the touch. No matter how good it felt, he worked his hardest to control his breathing, his heartbeat… he needed to stay calm, he needed that control.
Those feelings became more difficult to control though, as Light's hands made their way to his zipper. Slowly, looking L in the eye as he did, he zipped it down, and tugged on them slightly.
"Light…" he whispered, but no words were to follow. Light smiled at the sight before him, L, however, had closed his eyes.
"L?" Light asked, cupping his face in his hands gently, "What's wrong?"
L had to choose his next words carefully. He didn't like that he had been exposed like this, that his excitement had been made so obvious. There was no denying it now… but there was also a way to play this in his favour.
"Did you think about me last night?" he asked, although spoken confidently, it had been a rushed thought in L's mind. He was proud though, as Light seemed taken aback. "Just seems like maybe you tried consummating it with her, in order to prove something to yourself… did it go how you planned, Light?"
Lights eyebrows furrowed, "so what if I did?" he admitted, breaking himself free from the wall as he stood straight in front of L. "What if, when every time I moaned, I was moaning your name?"
L didn't expect Light to take on his challenge, "Let me hear what you mean…" he said, allowing Light to close the gap between them, "Ellee…" he dragged on, the sound becoming muffled at the end as Light had finally been able to recapture L's lips in his own. His hand was allowed to wander freely as well, and it started back right where it had left off. He moved slowly, and worked L's jeans down, until they fell to the floor. Light then kneaded his hand along L's boxer covered length, feeling his nails dig into his scalp as he did. He smiled into the kiss, and began stroking L feverishly, as L continued to stand perfectly still. As he continued to, he was ignoring the heat that was building in his own groin… and his words slipped out of his mouth in a way he hadn't meant for them to. "I want to fuck you… I want you so badly" he sneered, slightly annoyed at a lack of response from the other man. He pressed his lips against L's once more, and was happy to receive some form of enthusiasm, as he kissed him back.
He finally shot his hands into L's boxers and felt his whole body shudder as he pumped him into orgasm, once again, L watched as his cum dripped disgustingly down his leg, and onto the floor. He gulped as Light broke away from him, smiling.
L cleared his throat, and removed his boxers, beginning to wipe the floor with them. He stayed silent, as Light watched him from up above, he didn't like this new positioning, and pulled up his jeans as quickly as he could.
As he stood up, Light's lips made their way to his cheek, leaving a soft kiss right beside the corner of his mouth.
"Your dad and the others should be getting here soon…" L said quietly "Is there anything else you wanted to talk to me about?"
"No… No, not right now anyway." Light said, his head lowered as if feeling defeated somehow, as if he didn't' know that L was feeling he exact same way.
The two men exited the room, L following Light to make sure there was nothing he had left behind. What he was unable to notice though, was the shinigami Light had instructed to stay behind, to look for any trace of L's real name…