8.
L had left Light inside his room. His computer on, headset still attached… "You have his name… you have his computer…" He looked over to Ryuk as he stood in the corner of the room.
"Come on Light… what's stopping you?" he teased. Light furrowed his brows, and, as if to prove something- walked carefully over to the computer. He sat in front of it for a while in consideration… He longed to use the notebook again, he knew that as long as he knew of it's existence it would have a special place in his heart. He wanted control… he wanted to be a God…
But here he was… access to all the information he'd ever need, and he found himself unable to process it.
He slammed his fist against the floor in frustration. "Damn it, L." He sneered, hating the way his body would contort in ecstasy at the mere sound of his name. The slouched over, messy, frog-like man who had no semblance of social skills whatsoever…
And he alone had the ability to effect Light in this way.
He felt a shudder of pleasure as his finger tips connected with the keyboard, he pictured how delicately he would write L's name in his notebook, how he would leave it on a page all by itself. No… he couldn't do that. The pleasure faded as he became saddened at the thought of L being alone in any state… if he had learned anything this past week, it was that L truly craved company, no matter how hard he'd convinced himself otherwise. He saw how he acted differently in front of him, in front of his family… and he brought his hands off the keyboard, and up to his face, shielding the tears that he had been working so hard to fight back.
He weighed every possibility of every action that had formed in his brain, and none…not one single conclusion was a happy one. His hands worked past his face until they had ran through his hair, spiking it out at the sides, and making him look crazed. He wanted to tell L that he was Kira… but he knew, that much like himself, L wouldn't be able to handle that information. He too wanted to win, after all. Light couldn't help himself as he laughed at the irony, all of this pain he had been going through because he had finally found someone exactly like him. And it was because of these similarities, and them alone, that everything was falling to absolute pieces.
He looked at the computer screen, and noticed that L was watching everyone, and everything… he had monitors set up in places that lacked any connection to Kira whatsoever. Yatsuba, Misa's apartment, every room in headquarters, Aizawa's car, the park across the street…
Light sighed, walking back over to the mattress and landing face first on top of it. He unwound his watch and stared at the piece of unassuming paper that lined the secret compartment. He felt comfort in having it on him, knowing he had the power to stop any heart indiscriminately… he knew that L would love his new world… but he also knew that something would be off if L wasn't in it.
[…]
"Where'd Ryuzaki go?" Light asked, having finally made his way out of L's room. "He's on the roof." Matsuda said, motioning to the exit door in the corner of the room. Light heard the sound of the rain become more and more persistent the closer he got, until finally he was standing outside in the brunt of it. He noticed L immediately, staring intently at what seemed to be nothing.
"Ryuzaki!" Light called out, to which L held his hand to his ear, unable to hear him "Ryuzaki!" Light tried again, only to receive the same gesture. Light rolled his eyes, and ran out to him instead, becoming immediately soaked.
"What are you doing out here?" Light asked, to which L merely shrugged. "Don't you think it's nice?" he asked, but Light couldn't see what he meant at all, "You mean the rain?"
L finally turned to him and smiled, "How everyone's inside when it rains…" he clarified, staring out into the empty streets.
"Ryuzaki.." He started, causing L to shake his head, "You don't have to call me that anymore."
"L…" Light began, "Lawliet… I mean" L's mouth contorted into a smile once again
"Do… do you have fun chasing Kira?" L brought his thumb to his mouth… "Shhhhh." He said, "Do you hear the bells?"
The two men stayed quiet as Light tried to hear bells…or, anything for that matter, over the sound of the rain. "I don't hear anything…" he said, and L smiled. "Isn't it beautiful."
Light put his arms on L's shoulders and spun him around to face him, "Lawliet." He said again, "Do you enjoy this? Do you like to chase Kira?" L shrugged Light's arms away from him. "I don't know how to answer that." He began,
"If I say yes… well then that's basically saying I enjoy having hundreds of people die each day for my benefit… and really, that makes me no different than Kira himself."
"But if you say no?" Light asked, to which L then met Light's gaze, "well if I say no… then I'd be lying."
Light gulped, "Have you heard anything about your prisoner?" he asked, and as he did, L's eyes widened. Light allowed a smile to appear on his own face, as both men understood what this was-
A confession.
"Light…" L whispered, stepping back from him, "Lawliet.. Tell me his name. Let me kill him." Light closed his eyes, waiting for L's response. "I'm putting it in your hands… I'll kill him so that no one thinks its me, and then I'll forfeit the notebook, and no one will ever know."
"I'll know." L said, to which Light laughed, closing the gap in between them "You've always known." He whispered, bringing his lips to the other mans, without L knowing why, he kissed back, with more excitement than he'd ever felt before. He wasn't ready to answer light yet… either way, he knew that the loss would be huge, it would be either his self-respect, or…
"I love you." Light said into the kiss, causing L to lose his train of thought. Light rubbed his body roughly against L's own to the point where neither man could stand it anymore. L picked Light up, and carried him until they were underneath the awning. He lowered Light onto the wet pavement, and continued kissing him as they lay together on the floor. Light rolled over until he was on top of L and began kissing his neck until it bruised. L refused to make a noise, but instead grabbed Light, and pulled him as close to him as was possible.
Light began thrusting himself agains L, the friction causing them both to finally lose control. L began lifting Light's shirt over his head, and when it finally came off, he arched forward against Light, who had begun undoing his belt.
"If you're going to put me away… I'd rather you kill me." Light seethed into the other mans ear, his movement never stopping as he did. It was only then that L found himself unable to fight back a moan. As Light's pants were lowered, he began working on L's pulling them down until his red, throbbing cock had been exposed. L hissed as his boxers slid off, Light immediately began stroking himself, as he lowered to a position in which he was able to take L in his mouth.
"You couldn't have forfeited the book before this?" Ryuk said in the background, a comment which Light simply ignored.
After less than a minute, L pulled Light up by his hair. Light stared at the other man questioningly, as he forced Light to his feet. L remained on his knees, as he grabbed the back of Light's thighs.
"I've never gotten to touch you…" he said, barely audible as the sound of the rain drowned him out. It was then that he took Light in his hand, and pumped slowly, staring at it intently, as he felt nervous about what he was about to do next
"You don't have-" Light started, but was interrupted as L's lips attached themselves to his length. Light found it hard to stabilize himself, and fell backwards against the wall. He shut his eyes tightly as he explored L's thick, dark hair with his hands, pushing him down further, and further until his entirety was in the other mans mouth.
"I'm Kira" Light moaned, and, at his surprise, L started sucking harder, to the point where Light could feel himself about to cum
"Stand up" Light instructed, he turned L around, and pushed him against the wall, "You're so beautiful." Light said, pulling L's head back so they kissed as Light entered L from behind. He continued to say that too, over and over… It didn't take long for either of them after that, a few thrusts for Light, with his hand practically choking L's own dick with each movement.
As the men finished, L turned around, and pulled Light into another kiss, as he felt that the moment they parted, he would have to be prepared to say goodbye to Light…and Kira forever.
As L shivered though, Light broke the kiss, and moved his hand up to the other mans cheek, "you're cold…" he said simply, to which L just looked down at the ground, embarrassed. Light opened the door to the stairwell, as he grabbed their clothes off the floor,
"Come on." He said softly, as the two of them embarked back inside,
Back to reality…