b Small Lies

Chapter 9: Forgotten Memories

Wolfram's POV /b

I was sitting on my bed thinking. Had all those beautiful memories been a dream?

What's a dream? I can't understand… I can't remember any Rosalind!

"Kakaa! Your Fiancé has arrived!" Günter came in the door.

"Fi…Fiancé?" I asked confused.

What the hell? Am I engaged to someone?

"Wolfram…I've missed you!" A girl with orange hair came in the door and hugged me.

"Eh…What? Who are you?" I said while shoving her away.

"Wolfram…Stop joking… It's me Rosalind!" The girl said and smiled.

"So…you're suppose to the girl I canceled my engagement with Yuuri for?" I said confused, she didn't seem any kind of special, how could I have fallen in love with this girl?

"Oh, I leave you two love birds alone…" Günter said and left.

"Have you missed me?" She said.

"Uhm…Yeah?" I hadn't really missed her, but I couldn't say something like that to the girl that is supposed to be my Fiancé.

"But I need to go now… I have something to do!" I said to get away from the girl.

I turned around and felt an arm around my waist.

"Wha…" I said and turned around.

She kissed me. Her lips were soft as Yuuris lips.

No…I don't want them to be!

I shove her away and got out to door. I was crying and I didn't know what to do.

"Günter von Christ!" I shouted when I saw him sitting on a chair reading an old formula.

"Ah, Lord von Bielefeld. Can I help you with something?"

"Have you seen Gwendal?" I asked and I saw his face change into a confused face.

"You say you don't remember when Gwendal left for Voltaire… His Family on his father side had a family council.

"No I don't, There so many things that I've forgotten! Like ending my engagement with Yuuri, Yuuri marrying Maruko and Rosalind being my Fiancé! It's frustrating!" I said and looked down on the floor.

"Oh… maybe it's just stress Lord!" Günter said and laid a hand on my shoulder.

"Bu…But when I think about it…It sounds like I've been gone, and then suddenly now I come back and find Yuuri half naked in his bed with that girl…" I felt tears full up inside.

"Ah…Wolfram…you say you still love Yuuri Heika?" Günter said and patted my head.

"I'm not saying that… but yeah.. I love Yuuri!" I felt I could trust Günter this… maybe he could help me find out what's wrong with me.

We were in the library.

I told Günter all my other memories.

"Interesting." Günter said when I was done telling him about the good times Yuuri and I shared in my memories.

"I've even pinched my arm to see if this just was a bad dream!" I shouted at him.

"You don't even know who Rosalind is?" Günter asked me.

"No… I've heard of her but I've never seen her before!" I was so sad, I really wanted to cry but I wouldn't do it in front of Günter.

I walked down the hall and noticed Yuuri talking to Greta.

"Greta!" I said and putted on a fake smile.

"Daddy Wolfram!" Greta said and came running.

What a relief she still was my daughter.

"Hey Wolfram, how are you feeling?" Yuuri said and smiled to me.

"I'm sorry for troubling you Yuuri…" I said. I felt my hears tremble inside my chest. Or was it just a piece of broken parts where my heart was.

"Ah, that. You don't need to apologize… It's just that I got a bit scared when you got a break down like that!" Yuuri scratched his head and smiled his cute silly smile.

"Bye! I'm going to study with Günter!" Greta said and ran of to the library. Günter is lecturing her?

"Uhm.. Wolfram, what you said earlier..? About that you didn't throw your feelings away. What did you mean by that?" Yuuri said, he's still the same idiot I knew.

"Idiot…" I said and let my tears roll down my cheek.

"Wolf?" Yuuri looked at me with his stupid face.

"You're such a DUMB WIMP!" I yelled and stepped forward and kissed him.

He didn't back of… but he didn't kiss me back. He just stood there stiff.

I had longed to kiss him for a long time. But when I did I couldn't get the butterflies in my tummy to fly. There wasn't any excitement…or passion.

I let go, and closed my eyes.

I don't want you to give me a look that will break the rest of me…

"Sorry, Wolfram… but I have to ask you not to do that again!" Yuuri's words destroyed the little bit of hope I had.

Yuuri walked away. And I felt like someone was stamping on my chest.

I fell on me knees and held my hand on my chest.

It hurt so much… It was like I was attacked and then being tortured.

"Yuuri.." I panted out.

I couldn't control my self… my feelings was overwhelming and they took over my body!

I ran out in the stable. Took my horse and rid away from the castle.

My feelings were hurting me…I couldn't concentrate on controlling the horse so I fell of.

I was lying on the ground. My tears were still there.

"Yuuri…" I whispered. "YUURI!" I cried out from the top of my lungs.

I felt relieved…but my heart wasn't healed.

The sun went down and it became dark.

I found my horse and rid back to the castle.

When I came back I saw Günter running around shouting my name.

"Wolfram Kakaa… there you are! Something awful has happened." Günter was hysteric.

"What is it Günter?" I said in a mad tone.

"Yuuri Heika decided that you would have it better if you lived in Bielefeld!" Günter said and hugged me.

"I don't want all of you leaving me here! First Conrad for the little trip with Yozak, Gwendal for the Voltaire Family and now Yuuri is sending you back to your family!" Günter was desperate.

He's avoiding me…

"What.. He can't do that! I won't let him do that!" I pushed Günter off and ran up to the Kings office.

"Yuuri!" I said and kicked up the door.

"What do you want Wolfram?" Yuuri was signing some papers.

"You can't just send me off like that!" I was so pissed at him.

"You're acting weird… you need to cool your head!" Yuuri said and got up.

"Rosalind… I believe you should take care of your Fiancé." Yuuri gave me some papers and looked at Rosalind who was standing behind me.

"But Yuuri! You just can't!" I yelled.

"It wasn't my idea, it was Rosalind's idea!" I looked at the woman that was my fiancé.

"Okay…" I said and left with Rosalind.

Rosalind took my hand.

"Wolfram, I love you very much! I don't want you to fall for Yuuri Heika again!" She whispered into my ear.

"What do you know? Maybe I've never stopped loving him?" I said fast and my voice sounded rash.

"I saw you in the hall…darling!" She looked down on the floor. Did she see the kiss?!

"And I became worried for loosing you!" She said and hugged me.

i Maybe I could live a life… outside of the castle? /i

b To be continued… /b