The walk from the bathroom to the main room was silent. Luze led the way while Yuki and Luka followed behind. With every step they took, Yuki became more and more anxious. After the conversation he had with Kanata earlier in the morning, he kept wondering what would happen when they faced each other again. Would Kanata hurt him? Would he torture Yuki in order to convince himself that they no longer had a bond?
Yuki didn't have enough time to continue thinking about the possibilities. They had arrived to the main room and there on the throne feet away from them sat Kanata. His cold eyes made direct eye contact with Yuki. It caused shivers to run down Yuki's spine.
"Luze, Luka, you may leave. I'll call for you two once I'm finished here."
"Yes Reiga-sama," Luze replied as he bowed his head and turned around. He looked over at his brother who made no movement to leave. "You heard Reiga-sama, we need to go."
Sodom whimpered in concern and looked over at his master. Luka stayed motionless with his silver eyes focusing on Yuki and then on Kanata. Reluctantly, Luka bowed his head and turned around to leave with his brother. He didn't want to leave Yuki alone with Kanata, but he had no choice, he couldn't let all his hard work go to waste.
Once the two were gone, Yuki stayed in place, fearing that doing anything would bring out Reiga's wrath. It was just the two of them in the empty and spacious room. Kanata easily stood up from his throne and started to make his way towards Yuki. The closer he came, the tenser Yuki became. Kanata grabbed onto Yuki's wrist and looked down at the wound the thorns had caused on his skin.
"Does this hurt?" Kanata asked.
"Only a little."
"You can't heal yourself. It must be painful."
"I can endure any pain if it means I can protect the people I love."
"There you go again, saying you'd do anything for the people you love."
Kanata let go of Yuki's wrist and turned his back to him. Yuki remained in his spot and waited for Kanata to continue. He wished he could just embrace Kanata from behind and plead with him to make the nightmare stop. He wished he could strip away the uniform so he could see the Kanata he knew and loved so much.
"How do you think I'll torture you?" Kanata said, snapping Yuki out of his thoughts. It took him a few seconds to register what Kanata had just said. He didn't know how to answer the question, because he wanted to believe that Kanata wouldn't do anything to harm him. Kanata took the silence as a signal to continue. "I can have the duras claw at your perfect skin until your body is completely mutilated. I can have Elegy whip you as many times as she pleases until I give her the signal to stop. Your back will be scarred and bleeding. I'd then have her pour salt water over your wounds, and listen to your screams of agony before you pass out from all the pain. I can have Cadenza use you as a practice tool. He can take out his sadistic fantasies on you behind closed doors."
Yuki couldn't believe what he was hearing. It sounded as if Kanata had thought a lot about different ways to torture him. It frightened him to know that the person he looked up to had been thinking of multiple ways to harm him. Kanata couldn't see Yuki's scared face, but he had a feeling it was there. He continued on with the possibilities of torture.
"Luze wouldn't hesitate to chain you up while he sliced you up with his sword. As for Luka, he could make you lie down on thorns and tediously pierce needles into your skin." Kanata finally turned around to see the horror on Yuki's face. His eyes were trembling and his body was shaking so much, it looked like he was about to collapse. Kanata moved closer and wrapped his arm around Yuki to keep him from falling. He looked down at the fearful eyes that were trying to hold back tears.
"The last possibility of torture I could think of was making you mine. I'd brainwash you until you were nothing but a hollow shell. Where you'd only give me and anyone else pleasure without fighting back. You'd obey me and give in. Which method of torture would you rather have? I'm being nice enough to give you an option."
Yuki didn't want to feel pain. He didn't want to be tortured for being God's Light. He didn't ask to be born. He was raised in an orphanage where he met Kanata. He went to school like any other person and had dreams and aspirations for the future. He never thought his life would take a turn into another direction. He never thought that he'd be standing in front of Kanata, full of fear rather then love and affection. The tears he was trying so hard to hold back could no longer be fought against. The tears ran down his cheeks while he had his gaze on Kanata.
"I don't want to be tortured. Would you believe me if I said I was already being tortured by your words? You've been torturing me all this time Kanata-san. Your words and your actions have tortured me. I'm afraid of pain, but it doesn't matter what method you decide to choose, because in the end the greatest torture I could ever feel is losing the person I loved with all my heart."
Kanata stood quiet as he tried with the best of his abilities to keep his composure. Yuki gently placed his hand on Kanata's chest where his heart was and in a sad whisper started to say, "Pain, pain, fly away. Pain, pain, fly away." The image of a younger Yuki saying the same chant when they were kids caused an ache to beat alongside Kanata's heart. Why couldn't he pull away from Yuki and be ruthless and heartless like he should be? How could Yuki easily pull at his heart strings and make him want to protect him instead of kill him?
Cursing himself, Kanata embraced Yuki, like he used to whenever they would see each other. He grit his teeth, telling himself that he wouldn't show weakness. He tightened his embrace, wishing that he and Yuki could go back in time and never be reminded of their previous lives. Yuki remained silent as his head was pressed against Kanata's chest. He wanted to cherish the moment, even if it was for a while longer, because it proved to him that Kanata was still there, that Kanata was not completely gone.
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Okay, so I made this chapter revolve around Yuki and Kanata because I thought it would be nice. Besides, Kanata says he hates Yuki and can easily kill their bond, when in reality he still and will always care about Yuki. So I wanted to show that since I always thought Yuki's and Kanata's relationship was cute :D
Thanks for reading! Until next time!
