Josh had gone with his wild instincts again and had read several things from a native american book of urban legends he had found in the mines earlier. It wasn't helping his psyche, that is until he found something of interest. It was a special symbol. A symbol used to keep away evil spirits and creatures, that is, if you use it correctly. Coincidentally, Josh had used the right "formula". He needed the blood of a healthy animal. He used one of the wild pigs he hunted. His original plan was to smear the blood all over the cabin in attempt to scare the others whenever they decided to return, but an exotic symbol would work just as well, and it would put his mind at ease. He had "painted" the symbol on the lodge in many different places. It indeed looked eerie, but now, the creatures, the "wendigo" could no longer go near the lodge. But that didn't mean it was safe outside..
All this he had done within an hour. He kept his mask on and decided to check on Sam. He found her still in her bath. For a while, he almost couldn't control himself. He watched the girl he had so much affection for soak naked in the tub, completely oblivious to him. He didn't see much but he saw enough to fill his chest with a fire.
Beautiful bathing bird..
"Do you think it's right to go with your animal instincts? Like you have no civilization? You HAVE civilization! You're wearing clothes, you speak a fluent tongue for communication, you have an education..You're in the damned twenty-first century! Do you not know how relationships work? You can't just mount someone just because you find them attractive! We don't go through some heat session like dogs! You must learn how to control yourself! If you love this girl like you say you do, you will learn how to act properly, and NORMAL!" The last word Dr. Hill had mentally yelled at him made his eyes twitch. "Normal". Josh WAS normal! And he knew that Sam wouldn't go for him.
She's out of your league Josh, but if you threw some of your money at her, she just may put out for you. He had an old guy friend that would tell him this nearly every day. He would constantly be reminded that he wasn't good enough for Sam. He wasn't good enough..why bother wasting feelings when they aren't appreciated? There was no reason to go soft on her since there was no hope for the two being together. Why should he treat her any differently than the others?
He shouldn't.
No, she was just going to be another pawn in this game. He shouldn't be getting mixed up with these feelings. He had to focus on his real goal. With his chest filled with new fire, he left Sam be and nearly slammed the bathroom door shut, ready to begin his plan with her.