Sighing deeply, Kagome laid there in pain as her body dripped its precious life source. Koga had left her awhile ago; she just didn't have the energy to get up. And why should she? Everyone hated her and left her. No one needed her around. She was alone within her mind, left to die from the inside out. And not only that, it was a never ending struggle to want to survive. She wanted to believe life would get better but it was hard too. It was hard trying to pick up the pieces. They didnt seem to fit together anymore.

I have nothing left to give
I have found a perfect end
You were made to make it hurt
Disappear into the dirt
Carry me to heaven's arms
Light the way and let me go
Take the time to take my breath
I will end where I began
And I will find the enemy within
Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin

Slowly getting up, she grunted in pain at the slashes on her skin. She headed toward the shower and washed off all the dried blood and seed from her body. Red and white mixed together as it went down the drain. She was ashamed of her body. Scars littered her body like a scratching post. She couldn't say she didn't deserve them. After all they were from his 'love'. It showed he cared, at least to him it did. She hated it. He degraded her, and made her feel like nothing. Those voices got stronger in his presences. They wanted to lash out and show him that they were more than this but she wouldn't allow them too. Soon enough he was going to get his. It may not be from her but he would get his. She hoped it hurt too.

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony

Leaning her head against the shower wall, she let tears fall. She was alone. She wished someone could save her from herself and the voices that rang loud and clear with an intent to kill. Her parents hated her. Her best friend hated her. Her boyfriend hated her. Her classmates hated her. There was so much anger and rage at the things people said. She was hurt too much. And it seemed like she couldnt be fixed. What was there to fix anyway? Her life wasnt worth much. She couldnt do anything overly amazing, except get straight A's. How far would that get her? She had considered suicide but nobody would miss her and something told her not too. It was a strong voice. It kept repeating, 'Just wait. Wait it out. Hold on.' Strangly, she listened.

Suddenly
The lights go out
Let forever drag me down
I will fight with one last breath
I will fight until the end
And I will find the enemy within
'Cause I can feel crawl beneath my skin

Getting out the shower, she dried off and dressed for work. Heading down to a café down the street, she fell into her usually routine. Taking orders and filling them herself, she was there alone and that's how she preferred it. The café was wasn't filled with people and she found herself wiping the counter carrying a little tune that spoke volumes of her feelings. No one was around to hear her soothing voice and that seemed to make her confident. A small smile grew on her face as tears welled up in her eyes. The chorus left her mouth in a whisper like plea.

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it gotta be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony

The doorbell rang as the door opened. Looking up from the counter, she faced the person slowly. Shock was written all over her face to see her boyfriend's brother. Looking down at the counter, she sucked up some confidence. They had never really talked to each other. It was weird. Those piercing gold eyes looked at her woith hidden knowledge. She just hoped he couldnt see behind her eyes. Raising her head, blue met gold with hesitation.

"How may I help you?" Her soft voice asked.

His gold eyes focused on her. "I would like chi tea." He spoke monotonously, still focused upon her form.

"For here or to go?"she asked writing it down on a piece of paper.

"Here." He replied.

She nodded and went about fixing his tea.

He had made himself comfortable in a booth in the corner. He watched the quiet girl follow his order in curiosity. This had been the same girl that had bumped into him at school and refused to look at him. She merely rubbed her shoulder and apologized. He could smell the hurt coming off her body like a second skin. And strangely she looked oddly familiar. Looking at her closely he realized who she was. This was the girl his half brother was dating, well cheating on. She looked so tired and in pain but pushed through it for the day. Secretly he wondered what went on in her head when people picked on her. She just kind of sat there dejected from the world, lost in her own. You would think she was some weirdo who just showed up to school beause they had nothing to do but not her. She was at the top of her class.

Kagome had brought him his drink quickly. Setting it down, she nodded to the male and turned to leave.

"You are Kagome correct?" His deep baritone asked, stopping her in her tracks.

Looking over her shoulder, she nodded slowly.

"I come with news of my brother." He said boredly.

A sigh escaped her being.

"I know. He's cheating on me with Kikyou Tama. You can tell him were done if you'd like. I don't care." She said in dead tone. There was no life in her voice.

He studied her for a moment before nodding. "Hn."

Leave me alone
God let me go
I'm blue and cold
Black sky will burn
Love pull me down
Hate lift me up
Just turn around
There's nothing left

She nodded herself and returned back to her station. Brewing herself a strawberry and banana smoothie, she sat back and began read a book for school. It didnt work out as her thoughts were on the male in the room. He had come specifically to tell her his brother was cheating. Everyone knew he never lied so she took his word for it. She kind of wished he would talk to her but shook her head the idea. She was an outcast, someone people picked on for fun. He was at the top his class and school with the option of many friends but chose to be alone. People like her and him didn't mix, and she knew better but one could only hope. Then again hope turned into disappointment.

Somewhere far beyond this world
I feel nothing anymore

She was sinking and he could feel it. Whatever was running through her mind was causing her to sink. He wondered why he cared what a human girl was feeling but something in him ached to see a girl of her quality in pain, human or not. He supposed it was his daughter Rin that had something to do with it. That and the prophecy that he had been told when he was younger. She was starting to fit the qualities exactly. But it was just a story his father had told him to go to bed. Something bad was going to happen. He could feel it. She held potential and he hated to see potential to go to waste. She was first in her class and second in school only to him since he was a year older than her. She deserved far better than what she was getting. And she didn't fawn over him like everybody else, no she would rather ignore him than look at him. Nodding to himself he decided on his course of action. Writing down a note, he pulled a twenty out of his wallet and stood. Nodding to her, he walked out the café, ready to return tomorrow.

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it gotta be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony

She stood and cleaned off the place he had been sitting slowly. Picking up the cash and note, she head back to the counter quickly. Unfolding the piece of paper, she read his elegant handwriting slowly.

'Tomorrow we shall discuss some things. I expect you to be here if not consequences shall follow.'

Shaking her with a small sigh, she put the paper and money into her jacket and closed up shop. Walking back home in the dark, she let her mind wonder to tomorrow. What did he have in store for her? Would matter? She had a reason to see tomorrow now. Still she didn't want to get her hopes up. Disappointment always followed when she did. Sighing to herself, she walked into her house. Stripping down to her just her underwear, she climbed into bed with on last thought.

I feel nothing anymore