Disclaimer : Castle is not mine.
They spent what felt like an eternity staring into each others sad eyes, their foreheads connected, neither wanting to separate this bond they have within their own little bubble. Castle thumb gently rubbing soothing circles over Kate's cheek and she let her silent tears fall and they are both thankful for the silence. These moments were precious, it was a silent agreement but an agreement nonetheless, they both cherished hearing the others gentle breaths trying to be brave for one another but both falling apart on the inside.
"Come back to the loft for a night." Castle gently whispered into the fragile atmosphere between them, both so close to giving up and crumbling but both too stubborn to do so.
"But you said Alexis and Martha..." She whispered never wanting to interrupt his last few days with his family for who knows how long.
"They'll be asleep, we can stay up all night and talk, do whatever." He said. Both were whispering, neither knew why just knowing it was the right thing to do.
Beckett nodded and Castle slowly broke the connection of their foreheads causing Beckett's breath to hitch. She couldn't stand the thought of never having contact with him again, never hugging him again, never seeing his crystal blue eyes or the crinkles in the corners of his eyes when he smile, never hearing his deep calming voice again which always seems to soothe her. She couldn't imagine anything without him. She couldn't help but think of how unfair everything is, how she finally made the leap, how they were now an us and he was leaving for an indefinite amount of time. How the universe was always pushing them towards each other and now that they are finally together they are being torn apart.
Castle slowly moved his hand from her jaw to down her neck, to her shoulder and down to her hand where he laced their fingers together watching his hands movement and feeling complete with how well they fit together with her small, delicate hand in his big strong one. He gently tugged and she followed, both stepping off of the Ferris wheel and on their way back to the parked car.
The car ride home was silent and it was comforting to the both of them hearing the others breathing. The radio wasn't on and the roads strangely clear and they arrived at the loft in record timing but neither could bring themselves to care. They walked in the building silently with their shoulders brushing with every few steps and they were both savoring the contact. The elevator ride was pretty much the same but they were stood closer than they usually were with Beckett holding his arm, too scared to let go for even a moment in case she missed something, she knew she wouldn't but the fear was still there. She was memorizing everything from the way he flexed his arms when he moved or when she gently ran her finders up the inside of his forearm he would tense because of the fact he was ticklish there. His arms were nice she decided, she always knew he would have nice arms but it felt strange to feel his arms movements under her hand.
He was getting the keys out of his back pocket which was more difficult than usual because Kate was too preoccupied with watching him. For once him being the one stared at and he couldn't figure out how it was creepy because all it did for him was make his heart stutter and his belly to flutter with butterflies. He successfully opened the door and she followed him in taking off her jacket and shoes. He loved her with heels but he loved her even more with no shoes and walking around his loft. He watched the way she walked around his living room. She has always done it before settling and he thought it was adorable for some reason he couldn't quite place. He wanted to see her in his loft more but he knew the likely hood was small due to him leaving for a few days.
Castle had a sudden realization. They had so much time to make up for and they only had a few days. They had so much to share and so many memories to make. He was determined to leave them all with good memories and the love he gives them.